my week on WW
Checkout getinfit's blog today... I love this post! Thank you to Glory for pointing it out!
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I'm following my points this week and this weekend I'm going to my "first" meeting. I'm very interested in learning more about the Core Plan because when I used to do WW they didn't have it.... we did this savings/banking of points thing and the points tracker looked similar to a check book... that was awesome because you can record your stuffs without people noticing much.
I admit I"m worried about doing WW because I can't sucessful everytime I did it. There are some things that I don't like about it. For example, I'm a weigh-in every day person. I don't obess about it or anything. When I weigh in every day I feel that I know my body better and it makes the weigh in more of a habit so I know exactly when I start to gain. I have my reasons.
Also, I don't think a goal weight of 134 is good for me. The website MADE me put a goal weight in THEIR "healthy" weight range chart. I wonder if I can get a doctors note or something? Most of the time when I tell people that I want to lose another 50 pounds they think I'm nuts because I already look pretty natural at 200lbs, even though I know this is still an unhealthy weight for me. I may have to lie about my heigh to make up for some of it.
The reason why I'm so worried about my official goal weight in WW is because I hope to be a leader someday. I love to help people and I think a job in this area would suit me, but I'm more of a psychology person... not nutritional person. I don't want to go back to school or anything, and if I could be a WW leader that would require minimum training. I would love to teach the kids most of all... being an overweght child on weight waters and all.
In other news... I really want to start the c25k program again. My life is really hectic right now. As some of you already know I have an anxiety disorder. I havn't had a panic attack for months now and I just barely almost had one the other day. I thnk I fought it off or talked myself out of it I'm not sure... I felt it comming on and I guess I delt with it. I should just take the freakin meds maybe I would be able to handle my life better.
Good news is that today is FRIDAY and I'm gonna get things DONE this weekend and not sit in my room all crazy like staring at the wall. HAHA!
Maybe I'll go to my mom's today, though and watch Biggest Loser on TiVo! They are so lucky (my siblings). They belong to a gym and have a treadmil in the living room with TiVo and comcast... they can watch workouts on there and stuffs! Grrrrr I'm soooooo broke! OKOKOK... getting distracted. LOL! I'll update later....