LD to WW
So I havn't been posting much lately. At first it was just because I was so busy with spring break and then midterms. In reality, I was starting to get off track and making excuses again. I kept telling myself that my weight was just fluctuating and that I didn't gain... and if I ever went above 210 and stayed there for more than one weigh-in that THAT would mean a gain. Well, it happened. I need to take a long look at what I'm doing and where I want to be.
I knew the liquid diet thing wasn't going to last forever, and I told myself that worse come to worse, I'd go back onto Weight Watchers again. I've been on WW before, about 3 times. The first time I lost 45 pounds (that was when I was 15). The second time I didn't really stick to it or commit. The third time was two years ago I did it for about 3 months and didn't lose any weight and I was so frustrated that I quit. At least now I know that if I'm on WW I won't GAIN. I think that would be good enough for me... for now. I just need to get into a routine and get things set up.
I'm not going to beat myself up about this and I'm not going to wait for a major gain to get back into the swing on things. I still believe I've learned so much and have developed better habbits dispite my small gain. I just have to stick to the habits I"ve created and work on new ones. I just have to keep going and keep at it... through the ups and downs.
My plan is to go to my optifast maintenance meeting at Jefferson tommorow DISPITE all my schoolwork and crap... and then I'm going to sign up for a monthy pass to weight watchers so I can go to as many meetings as I want. I'll have all the tools I need and no excuses. I'm going to keep reading the Beck Diet Solution. I'm focusing on habits here, not really weight loss.
Thanks to everyone who kept in touch with me even though I wasn't posting much! I hope to be on here for often, even if it's only for a quick blerb.
Here's to us! Cheers!