It has been awhile since my last post, maybe a form of writers block kinda like hitting that plateau, which I am just waiting for like a slap in the face. I guess I seem a little depressed today, im not sure why had a great workout today, it is a beautiful day for Northern Wisconsin, and lost a couple of more pounds. Then saw how much farther I need to go, I laughed the other day with my husband when I told him 32 more pounds and I won't be lying on my drivers license any more. 32 more pounds just to reach that goal, that is on top of the 70 something pounds on top of that it seems like such a daunting accomplishment. Oh and here is a kicker if any one is out there and have not finished reading at this point my Dr the other day took blood and guess what I am insuln resistant which means my insuln is not working like it should and is getting stored as belly fat!!!! As if I need any more help on that end. So does any one have any herbal remedies or heard of any medication for that I did do some research on it and again that stinking diet and excerise reared it's ugly head again. WHERE IS MY MAGIC PILL???
I don't know what to do and am even more confused, saw a nutritionist today who told me I was not eating right or enough. I am down 22ish pounds in 35 days, I know all about the starvation factor, but am reading about huge weight losses on this website. I know everyone is different and I am eating lean protein fruits veggies I guess just not enough about 1000 calories a day. I am tired at night I and attiubute that to virtually no carbs other than what is in fruit and veggies. I do have the occasional "cheat day" and I know that I will not lose this all in a week but something great did happen today I fit my a** in a size 20! 25 days ago it was a 24 and this right here is really my goal. You know what I am starting to feel better. Size 18 here I come. Goal to be reached by 10-01-08!!!!!!!
it has been awhile, I seemed to have gained 2 pounds and finally after 4 days for working out every morning for an hour and carefully eating, have finally lost those 2 punds plus .5. THANK GOODNESS I attrabute it to being back on my birth control and water gain. I hope. and 18.5 pounds in 21 days is pretty good, then why am I so hard on myself, why are we all so hard on ourselves? We did not gain all this weight in 21 days, 1 month or one year so why do I want to give up and eat that bag of chips. I am not even really concerned about my weight, I would be just as happy at this weight and in a size 14, That really is my goal to go to any store and find something that fits, is hip, and cool. To find something that is not at the back of the rack and when I try is on it is tight and the zipper does not zip and I lie to myself that I will just find something online, however (and it is getting better) the only thing is ugly fat clothes. Ok done ranting I am going to go and try on old pants to see if they fit and I can zipper them. Wish me luck and will keep you posted. PS I did order a size 20 can't wait to get them to see if they fit the ones I am wearing now are TOO BIG. I am going to announce now and hope you all keep me on track, but a size 18 by Sept 29!! My new cardio class starts monday that should help with that goal too. right?!?!
Day 7, I have lost a huge amount of weight in only 7 days, happy and sad all in one sentence. Happy that I am losing a huge amount of weight, however I think that I am losing it to fast and I am going to fall off the wagon and gain it all back in a day. Again I am taking Phen (half of the Phen fen diet drugs) and I have to force myself to eat sometimes which is great right? I don't know maybe I am trying to sabatose (spelling?) myself right off the bat.
Well here it starts again the excitment the pictures in my head of how I will look like in the future. Now I know I am not going to be a super model, I just want to feel happy about myself, I want to look nice for my husband, and I don't want to be ashamed any more....so my doctor put me on phen and so far 6 days now I have not had a hunger pain I don't want to eat in fact I find I have to force myself to eat which is great right? I guess the next step is eating healthy,,,, too be continued
