I really do need to give myself a shake. Sorry I haven't checked in on you guys for a few days but I have been in absolute agony with my teeth.
I haven't ate or slept and am in constant pain. I called my dentist today and he is off so I couldn't get an appointment. I have two appointments next week anyway on Wednesday and Friday so I will have to put up with it until then.
I don't know if it is because of this or because of my "womans problems" but I am feeling really low at the minute. Of course having a constant almost unbearable pain all the time probably is the cause. The sooner they pull the rest of these teeth the better.
Today I sat and had a good look at my life and why I should be feeling so low and depressed. I have a loving husband who I adore and visa versa, I have a beautiful home which is everything I have ever dreamt of. Apart from my teeth and temporary womens troubles I don't have any health issues to worry about, we are financially secure and I have a loving family around me. So what the hell is wrong with me?
I was thinking of going to the doctor but know I would just burst into tears but am so afraid that this is depression kicking in. My sister suffers and I could never understand why she would be depressed. I don't want to suffer from depression but it has been a long time since I have felt so low.
Anyway today I decided that I needed to give myself a shake and get back on track. No sooner had I started than I burst into tears for no aparent reason. I don't know what is wrong with me. I went outside then to putter about in the greenhouse and garden but my toothache was so bad I had to get inside again and freeze it with ice cubes.
The pain has now eased a little as I have taken yet more painkillers. James would be so cross if he knew I have some hidden and am overdosing myself to try and relieve the pain. I know I shouldn't and I know that poor Lynn did the same but when the pain is unbearable I would do absolutely anything to get rid of it.
James should be home from work shortly. He is talking about going to England for work for 6 months. I don't know how I feel about it - naturally I would be going with him. I couldn't do without him that long. I hate being parted for even a day from him. Anyway we have to talk about it and see what we want to do.
James wanted to go to the cinema tonight but I simply couldn't. I just am feeling too sore and low to go out. I have been in my pjs since coming in from outside which was about 3pm.
I did list some things on ebay as I had a bit of a tidy out the other day and wanted to get rid of some things.
Right I am off - sorry for not being chirpy - hopefully I will be back to normal soon!
Oh and I will get round to checking all your blogs and commenting!
JOY
Posted By: JOYOUS
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04/10/2008 15:19
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be hurting that bad now. It's been about a week right? Is there anywhere else you might be able to go. I dont know how medical needs work outside of the U.S.. But it shouldnt be hurting that much anymore especially for more than one dose of medicine. I think the pain really is whats getting you so depressed. It sounds really painful. Wait till that gets fixed before you ask the doctor about any depression medicine. In my opinion. But do what your doing and just listen to your body. Take care. BTW.. I wish you could see the Biggest loser it is sooo inspiring. Maybe they will put it on dvd eventually.
I am so sorry to hear that you are in so much pain with your teeth. You know you can go to the Hospital to for something like that, next wk, is such a long time a way. I'm sure that you are feeling depressed right now because of all the pain you are in and the worry of your Womens Problem. Maybe you should call some other Dentists offices to see if you can get in with them before next wk. I wouldn't wait!
Maybe its also time for you to see your Woman Doc. too. I hope you feel better soon.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. Pain itself and make life inbearable but the pain on the inside can sometiems be even worse. I know ;-) (((hugs))) my dear. I'm hear if you ever want to chat. I've dealt with depression a lot. It runs in my dad's side of the family. Thank you for being such a sweet, supportive friend.
you know i get down an awful lot... but only once in my life have i sat infront of a doctor and cried my eyes out until she gave me a prescription for something that would 'help'. i walked all the way to the chemist to collect them silly pills... and then i walked all the way home. and dya know what... 2 years later the security seal on the box is still intact. i never even opened them.
we dont need pills. sometimes we just need to cry, even if we dont know why. but thats ok... your a woman, we are very emotional being ya know! your a lucky woman too... you have this beautiful home, in a beautiful part of a beautiful country! a man who you love dearly and who loves you just as much (if not more)! and your family, friends and your health! the list could go on... doesnt sound like someone who needs help to me.
so just cry... because ya can! then after youve cried... go and have a bath n pamper yourself... make ya self look lurvly (which you always do) and give your gorgeous hubby a big kiss. coz he's one of the reason your so lucky remember!
Joy, I'm so sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. I wish your dentist appointment wasn't so far away....that's awful!! Maybe all the sadness and crying is your hormones playing havoc with you....sometimes that happens ya know. I do hope the painkillers are helping you though...at least, enough to get you through till your dentist appointments. I'm so sorry Joy....*hug*
Wow! Moving to England! That's pretty big news. How far would you have to move? When does he have to decide? I visited London once....it was a ton of fun! Of course, I do love my sunshine. I guess I'm a true California girl at heart. Do you think you would like living in England? Where in England would you have to go? You'll have to keep us posted.
I guess I better go check on a few more blogs...you take care of yourself Joy!!
