Hi everyone

Well I went to the dentist yesterday to get my fillings done - thankfully no more extractions! What is in there is staying now.

I was a bit nervous after my previous appointment and my panic attack while on the chair but forced myself to go anyway.  I was so proud.

I was in the chair for an hour as the fillings the dentist was doing were soooo tiny! When I got into my car I could feel something in my mouth and thought I hadn't rinsed out right but no it was one of the fillings.

I just hadn't got the strength to go straight back in so came home.  I simply couldn't go through all that again.  I have emailed them now and am waiting for them to get back to me but don't want to go today - if necessary I would go tomorrow and get it re-done.  It was obviously not right to start with so hope he isn't going to charge me again!

This was my last appointment with the dentist and my teeth are now dental fit.  I have signed up to dentiplan which means I will have 2 visits to the dentist and 4 to the hygeniest every year for a monthly fee.  It also gives me 20% off any additional treatment and fully covers me for accidents/emergencies. 

I have decided to go ahead and get my 4 crowns re-done.  I was debating it as it is soooo expensive but hey if they need done they need done.  The four crowns cost £1800 ($3600) on top of what I have already paid my dentist bill is £3000 ($6000)! Isn't that outragous?  Anyway because I have signed up to this plan I will get £360 ($720) off the price which I guess is a bonus.

I only need two appointments to get them done and have said I would rather leave it until May until my mouth has chance to heal from this course of treatment.  I get them sized up and a mould made at the first appointment when he will put in temporary crowns while the right ones are made and then I go back 3 weeks later and have them fitted.  A total of 3 hours in the chair.

Anyway I pottered about the garden yesterday and think we are going to get to work on the flower beds this weekend as I want to get my tomato plants into grow bags but have no room at the minute because I have all my new plants for the flower beds waiting to go in.

I have bits of housework to do today and need to get caught up on the ironing. James is have a meal with his boss from work tonight so I don't have to cook. 

We played a game called "boggle" last night and then game wasn't put away before we went to bed (it is a word game).  When I got up this morning James had spelt out "I love you so much Joy xo" with the tiles.  How sweet is he?

My parents are thinking about coming up today - depending on how my Dad is feeling - his leg is giving him so discomfort.  He is going to watch football tonight so don't know if they will bother but if they do Mum is going to stay over while Dad goes back home.  I have to go to my home town tomorrow anyway as it is my neices birthday and have a gift for her.  I have decided not to go to her party on Saturday (it would mean a 4 hour round trip for me) and we really need to hit the shops and get a suit for James for the wedding.

Right I need to get off and get dressed! I am hoping the plumber will come today too - but I am not holding out much hope! Everyone is so relaxed here.

Ok folks I am off - have a good day.

JOY

Hi everyone

Sorry I have been neglecting you all but I have been recovering from all my teeth being removed.  I have to say my last appointment was awful - he couldn't get my mouth to freeze up and everytime he went in I could feel every movement.  Also I took a panic attack while on the chair - how embarrassing!  Anyway it is all over and done with and I don't have to get any more teeth removed.  My last appointment with the dentist is on Wednesday and then I am going to have a few appointments with the hygienist. 

I am so glad I went through with this and know it will have a major change on my life.

So I really don't have a lot to report - to be honest I haven't been thinking about the diet too much as I have been concentrating more on what I can eat without hurting!  I have become addicted to Frys Turkish Delight and Milky ways. 

We went out on Saturday to look for my outfit for the wedding which I managed to get - hooray! One more thing sorted.  I just need to get James a suit and new shirt and tie now.  James delivered the gift today to the happy couple.

I was a bit miserable on Saturday as my mouth was very sore but nothing compared to when I woke up on Sunday - I was in tears.  We just relaxed on Sunday and spent the day in.

Today I got up early and have cut the grass which was long overdue but to be honest I couldn't have done it before now as the ground was too wet.  It only took me four hours and I am now shattered and I still have to do all the strimming yet!  Our garden is about half an acre and is only grass at the minute so you can see why it takes me so long.  To be honest I enjoyed being out in the garden as I haven't been able to even walk on it until now.  I planted some summer bulbs in pots and done a tidy up of the garden and greenhouse.

I don't have much planned for tomorrow but might hit the garden again as I would like to get it sorted now for the summer ahead. 

Oh I have put my car up for sale too!  I am selling it boo hoo.  I have good reason though - I don't use it that often, it is handy to have but it is a bit of a waste.  The reason I am doing it now as that there are new tax prices here in Ireland on cars and it would cost me 1000 euro to tax it per year!  No way! I will not do it! Also my car guzzles petrol and I am spending a fortune and it seems pointless when James car sits at work from 8 to 6 everyday.  We are thinking of getting a new car - I want a convertible even though we don't get the weather but we will have to wait and see as there is no panic.  I hope the car sells soon though before I change my mind.

Right I am off to check out what you have all been up to. 

Bye bye for now!

Oh and cornflakes with hot milk and ice cream.  Why?  Because that is all I seem to be able to eat at the minute because of my dental pain.

I am doing ok thank goodness - two more appointments - one of which is tomorrow when I get the last two teeth out.  To be honest I think the dentist is moving way to quick but guess it is better to keep the treatment going now I have started.  No point in prolonging the agony.

I am so proud of myself for getting this far and am determined that I will finish my treatment.  Even though I will be six teeth lighter!  James keeps saying how proud of me he is for facing my fears and getting the treatment done.  You have no idea how nervous I am - I definitely have a really bad phobia.  I have been having nightmares about dentists for 20 years and here I am sitting in the chair for an hour at a time! I can't believe it!

I decided at the start of the year that this was going to be my year and I was going to do things for me like losing weight (which I am doing - slowly but surely) and sorting out my teeth which will be done soon! I am sticking with concentrating on this year being for me - I need to do this - I need to change - simple!

I joked with the dentist saying that getting teeth out is a great new diet and he should start a new business extracting teeth for dieters!

To be honest I haven't been able to eat too many solid foods though I did have a chinese last night.  I had a Korma and simply ate the sauce with rice which I was able to manage.  I felt my body needed something as I was starting to feel a bit weird and knew it was because of my lack of food.

This morning I have had cornflakes with hot milk which makes them go all soft and mushy!

Yesterday my Mum and Dad were in Derry City too as my Dad had a hospital appointment.  My sister was with them and they planned on hitting the shops for a while and going for lunch - I was invited along and met them after getting my tooth out.  When I saw them in the shop I simply burst into tears I couldn't help it and we just stood there in the shop hugging all four of us.  I just cried and cried.  This just has been such an emotional roller coaster for me.  My parents are taking me tomorrow to the dentist - they reckon I am too stressed to drive myself.

I did ask if I could drive and was advised not to because of the gas and air I have opted for.  It does make me feel woozy and afterwards a bit shakey but because I have had so many appointments I have to drive -there is no one else to take me. 

I did think I had another 6 appointements but yesterday the dentist (Peter who is my new best friend LOL) said we were getting on a lot better than he had thought so I only need now the appointment on Friday (tomorrow) and another one. HOORAY

Tomorrow is  my weigh in which I am not to bothered about to be honest - I haven't been exercising at all as it wasn't recommended after my treatment as it increases your blood flow and I needed the wounds to clot and heal.  I am not making excuses I got a leaflet from the dentist.

I just will be so glad to get all the treatment done and then let my life move on without pain all the time.  It will be so worth it if this does happen.  I will be able to go on holidays without overloading with painkillers scared that the toothache will start and spoil things.  I was living in my life in pain and now it is going to stop.

My mouth is just raw at the minute where the teeth have come out - but am sure through time this will heal up and I won't have any more problems.

My parents have just phoned and said they are going to come up tonight and stay over and then go with me in the morning - I think they are worrying a bit about me bless them.

No real plans for the weekend - I need to go shopping to get a shrug for the wedding which hopefully we will get fitted in on Saturday sometime.

I also want to go and visit my Great Uncle who isn't doing to well at the minute and simply seems to have given up on himself bless him. He never married in life and has no children.  We aren't a big family so he hasn't got many people about him and lives in sheltered accommodation but everyone is very worried about him at the minute and I really should have visited long before now as I haven't seen him in a month or so.  I might try and get him out for some lunch as everyone thinks he isn't eating. Bless him.

Right I am off to get some cleaning and ironing done - don't plan on doing much else today to be honest just get caught up on the housework before the weekend. 

I think I will check out some blogs first though!

JOY

I wonder how much the big molar tooth that I had out today weighs?  I must be lighter when I have my weigh in on Friday. 

Boy was this painful to get out.  The dentist couldn't get it to come out and it broke as he pulled it out and he had to go in again to get it out fully.  I could hear it cracking and my jaw was aching with the pressure but hey I stuck with it and eventually it was out! HOORAY! 

I wasn't feeling too bad until about an hour ago when the numbness started wearing off.  I am just not going to eat today as it is on the opposite side to where I had the first two teeth out so both sides of my mouth are very tender and a bit sore especially when something touches them.

I am sooooo looking forward to a proper nights sleep.  I can't remember the last night I slept right through without any pain.  I never want to experience anything like this again.

James has been a real star and came home at lunchtime today - he said he needed to collect something but I know it is because he was worried about me.  He never comes home for lunch.  It was great to see him - I really needed a hug.

I thought I wouldn't be going back until Friday now but they have kept my appointment for Wednesday which is for an hour! Yip you read it right I have an hour appointment on Wednesday - what on earth is he going to do?  I just want all this treatment over now so don't mind really having 3 appointments this week.

I am going to a wedding on the 2nd May so don't want to have an aching mouth for that.  I need to find some time and head to the shops and get an outfit yet!  I might just pull out the old trusted dress again.  It never fails.  I would need to get a shrug and maybe new shoes and bag. 

I really need to get caught up on the housework tomorrow.  I also need a plumber as two of my toilets are leaking.  I haven't felt like calling him but really need to get it sorted.  It is nothing major just a dribble of water coming out below the pedestal - I reckon a seal has gone or something. 

So that is it from me today.  I am in a little pain but nothing compared to what I was feeling which is great.  I am planning on heading to the bath and then getting an early night, I can hear those Zzzzzzzzzz's calling my name.

Thanks for all your comments and encouragement - I know I have to get through this some way and you guys are really helping.

You are the best!

JOY

Well everyone I am still struggling on just about.  I have never been in so much pain in my whole life.

Thankfully I have pushed my dentist appointment and am going tomorrow morning first thing.  I don't know what treatment he has planned to do but I am going to tell him to do something about the pain and take the tooth out.  I am schedule to have two more teeth out anyway.

I have been suffering so much and have been in such bad form.  Yesterday the pain eased for a bit and I got a bit of relief but I still can't eat right or sleep without waking with the pain.  I hope by this time tomorrow the pain will have gone - I simply can't handle another day of this excrutiating pain. 

Sorry there isn't more chat out of me but I have been simply trying to deal with this as best I can.  James has been great and has been helping out around the house and making dinner and treating me like a princess - I will have to spoil him a bit next week if I am up to it.

I am very nervous about the appointment - I hate all this but know that this is for the best.  No doubt I will be in a lot of pain tomorrow when the tooth is removed as it is a molar tooth - I am not looking forward to it at all but hey I have to do it.

Thanks for everyone for commenting and your support.  Thankfully I am feeling a tad better today and am going to make the most of it and get caught up on some sleep.

I promise to check up on how you guys are getting along.

JOY

I really do need to give myself a shake.  Sorry I haven't checked in on you guys for a few days but I have been in absolute agony with my teeth.

I haven't ate or slept and am in constant pain.  I called my dentist today and he is off so I couldn't get an appointment.  I have two appointments next week anyway on Wednesday and Friday so I will have to put up with it until then.

I don't know if it is because of this or because of my "womans problems" but I am feeling really low at the minute.  Of course having a constant almost unbearable pain all the time probably is the cause.  The sooner they pull the rest of these teeth the better. 

Today I sat and had a good look at my life and why I should be feeling so low and depressed.  I have a loving husband who I adore and visa versa, I have a beautiful home which is everything I have ever dreamt of.  Apart from my teeth and temporary womens troubles I don't have any health issues to  worry about, we are financially secure and I have a loving family around me.  So what the hell is wrong with me?

I was thinking of going to the doctor but know I would just burst into tears but am so afraid that this is depression kicking in.  My sister suffers and I could never understand why she would be depressed.  I don't want to suffer from depression but it has been a long time since I have felt so low.

Anyway today I decided that I needed to give myself a shake and get back on track.  No sooner had I started than I burst into tears for no aparent reason.  I don't know what is wrong with me.  I went outside then to putter about in the greenhouse and garden but my toothache was so bad I had to get inside again and freeze it with ice cubes. 

The pain has now eased a little as I have taken yet more painkillers.  James would be so cross if he knew I have some hidden and am overdosing myself to try and relieve the pain.  I know I shouldn't and I know that poor Lynn did the same but when the pain is unbearable I would do absolutely anything to get rid of it.

James should be home from work shortly.  He is talking about going to England for work for 6 months.  I don't know how I feel about it - naturally I would be going with him.   I couldn't do without him that long.  I hate being parted for even a day from him.  Anyway we have to talk about it and see what we want to do.

James wanted to go to the cinema tonight but I simply couldn't.  I just am feeling too sore and low to go out.  I have been in my pjs since coming in from outside which was about 3pm. 

I did list some things on ebay as I had a bit of a tidy out the other day and wanted to get rid of some things.

Right I am off - sorry for not being chirpy - hopefully I will be back to normal soon!

Oh and I will get round to checking all your blogs and commenting!

JOY

Did you ever get one of those days that you just wish you would have stayed in bed?  That is the way I feel about today. 

Last night my hubby came home and told me that the company he works for are thinking of taking away his company car - one of the perks of the job!  We will have to buy another car and tax and insure it if this is the case.

Then I got a phone call from our agent for our apartment we are renting out in England to say there are lots of problems with the new apartment block in general.  Basically there are young people hanging about and other residents aren't taking their rubbish out etc.  So annoying when you pay lots of money for something.  There is supposed to be 24 hour security but aparently it hasn't started yet!

I met my parents in Derry as Dad had to go to the hospital with his leg and we went around a few garden centres. I got the centre piece for my round flowerbed which was good.

I didn't sleep much last night because of a headache and toothache.  I think the two are related.

My parents are talking about coming to see me tomorrow (depending on how my Dads leg is) but to be honest I could do without it.  I just don't feel good.  I got a tablet for my "womans troubles" I mentioned in my previous post - it cost me £12.99 - can you believe it???  I hope it sorts it out once and for all.

Tonight the toothache has started already and where I have had the two teeth out is so tender and sore.  Guess the only good thing is that it is good for the diet as I don't want to eat because of the pain.  Then because I am so grumpy James and I have fallen out! Oh boy what a day!

Have a good night because by the looks of things I won't be!

Sorry I am a bit low but I am a bad soldier!

Well the weekend is almost over already - how come it always goes by so quickly?

We didn't have any plans really this weekend but yesterday set of to visit some garden centres in the hope that I would get some inspiration as I really want to get started asap.  I can hardly get into my greenhouse for plants and they all are ready to get into the garden.  Not only that I want to start my summer bulbs and tomato plants.  Anyway we ended up shopping and spent a fortune on new clothes, shoes, bags, dvds etc. 

At the end of the day you can't take it with you I guess.

The weather has been really unpredictable - sunshine one minute and then snow or hailstones the next minute so it is hard to organise anything outdoors.

We came home and James cooked.  We then settled down and had a tv night.  I didn't sleep very well, to be honest I am having a few "womans problems" at the minute and was up from 3am to 5am.  Not very nice so I won't talk about it but I think I am going to have to go and see the doctor if it doesn't improve.

We got up this morning and had our usual Sunday "kiss and cuddle time" (even though i couldn't take things any further which was disappointing), but it was nice what we did get up to.  James came down and made breakfast and we started watching a cookery show.  James is so predictable when he sees a cookery show he just wants to get into the kitchen and get cooking - every time!

So he started making dinner while I started some of the tons of ironing I have to do.  We ended up having a full roast dinner by the time he had finished - roast beef, roast potatoes, roast parsnips, gravy, brussel sprouts, peas, green beans, stuffing, peppers onions and mushrooms with bread sauce - it was delicious!

I was putting the ironing before tackling the dishes (that is the only thing about James he is a messy cook and it usually takes an hour to do the washing up) as I was putting the dishes away I could smell something cooking.  Oh yes he was making sponge cake and custard! I couldn't resist.  He had made so much of an effort I had to eat some - didn't I?

Anyway I am now so full up I am lazing on the sofa before we watch my new dvd "Atonment" which has just been released here.  We are then heading to Bingo - yes you heard me right we are going to play bingo for a bit of fun.

Hope you are all having a fab weekend.  Wish me luck at the bingo - it would be nice to win for once!

Yip ladies you are reading right I weighed in this morning and was down 4lb since my last weigh in - WOOOO HOOOO! I am soooo happy!

This is just a quick post to let you all know.  Boy am I one happy cookie today even though I have an aching mouth. 

To be honest it is healing well - I am definitely a lot better than yesterday.  Thanks so much for all your concerns.  Boy am I fired up right now!

I have my parents down all day today and my sister and her family are on their way so I have lots of people for dinner so can't stop long as I need to get chopping!

No plans really this weekend - might have a quite one as I was out and about all last weekend with the in-laws.

Did I mention I lost 4lb this week! HOORAY! Boy does it feel good.

Have a fantastic weekend everyone - hopefully I will get chance to check in on your blogs and see how you are doing at some stage over the weekend.

Well I did go yesterday to the dentist - secretly I was chuffed with myself for going as I have such a phobia.

The dentist was brilliant though I have to say.  He knows about my phobia and how nervous I was so he lit lavender oil for when I arrived to try and relax me.

I now have two teeth less to worry about!

The worst part was getting the 3 injections to numb my mouth after that I felt nothing and after 5 minutes of prodding about he announced it was all over.  I was so surprised that it was over so quick.

James came with me as I was told I wasn't allowed to drive due to having the twighlight sleep - to be honest I could have driven as I only felt a bit shakey but when the fresh air hit me I was fine.

When I got home the numbness started to wear off and to be honest I was in a little pain but tried not to think about it.  I didn't want to take pain killers - I have a phobia against them now too after poor Lynns death.

I slept on and off last night and this morning it is still a little sore but guess that is to be expected.

I didn't feel like eating yesterday obviously so hopefully it will have an effect on the scales!

Today I really need to get some housework done this morning as I haven't done a tap since last Friday - literally nothing so there is loads to do!  I then am going to head into the city to get some groceries and shopping.  I have to wait until lunchtime until James collects me as I left my car in his works car park when going yesterday.

Hope you are all good - right I am off to hit the shower and get the day started.

Have a good one everyone.

JOY