Weigh In Monday

 I need to post this somewhere!  It's an attitude I need to remember.  I keep thinking - who cares if I'm fat? I'm married, I'm not looking for a man, why do I insist on being skinny.  It has nothing to do with my health.  Grr!  Okay changing my attitude as of today!

Easter Egg Hunt 2008!!

So I thought I'd jump in here and share some pics with ya'll of our Easter Egg Hunt 2008 here in Hannibal, Mo!  I'll probably have some more tomorrow!  Hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend, and doing better than I am about steering clear of the candy part!  Bye for now!

Inside the College where they give away prizes

Leland & Daddy inside

Waiting for the hunt to start:

Leland & Daddy waiting for the hunt to start:

Get those eggs girl!

Gettin more eggs:

And one more:

So here I am after several days absence

I wanted to be the first to offer ya'll a happy and blessed Easter weekend!  I hope ya'll have a great time!  I know we have many plans as I described in my last post.  DH was talkin to the neighbor about the plans that they had for their kids.  Of course that's assuming they are still living, as I'm giving serious thought to going up and strangling those rude, nasty little children!  Loud little brats!  Here it is barely 8 am and there is probably 20 of them running up and down the stairs in our apartment lobby! GRR!  Anywho - try not to eat too much candy this weekend!  I know this is a hard holiday to avoid it but it's better than Thanksgiving or Xmas at least right? LOL!

Now on to the more dissapointing news .  I've done a bit of soul searching the past few days and I think it's safe to say that I've come to a rather important decision.  I'm not a horrible mother, or wife, or person in general.  I'm not a horrible housekeeper or anything like that.  But boy do I sure have my issues with it when I have a computer in this house.  I just can't do it anymore.  Unfortunatly that means that yes, I'll have to go back to using the library computer to check up on all my girls (and some guys ) but I'm going crazy.  I was doing very well beating my insomnia before I got this darn thing.  I was sleeping reselessly but sleeping none the less.  I spent infinate amounts of time with my kids and my house was always spotless !  I used to pride myself, and bragged quite regularly, how clean I always keep my house.  Now it's pretty much gone to Hades .  If there is one thing I cannot stand it's a dirty house !  I was just in the bedroom and seen clean clothes still in the hamper from 4 days ago!  Can you believe that shit?  I am disgusted with myself !  This is completely unlike me.  It's like my life here online is more important than cleaning my house or spending time with my kids.  I'll say it's not any where near as hard to tear me off of it as it used to be but it's still not good .  I hate treating my kids this way.  I'm tired of being awake for days on end as well!  That's for sure!  If I ever hope to lose weight, I have got to start getting a good nights sleep!  This is ridiculous!  I'll go 2-3 days without sleep!  It's nuts . 

     So I have come to the decision that for the benefit of my kids, and me as well, I'm going to relinquish my computer and my internet at the end of this week.  Probably today .  I am sorry to have to do this, as I have great friends on here.  However, right now, at this point in my life, I feel it is the only way to make things work and better for my family .  My kids are my life and right now, I'm not treating them very well .  I have many goals set out for myself over the course of this year, as well as many mini goals for each month.  I am going to start reaching and acheiving those goals starting with Aprils list.  March is almost done so it would be silly I believe to start with March.  We'll skip ahead to April and wipe a clean slate.   I have many friends with whom I would love to keep up a penpal with!  Also I will be posting still via the library.  I am not sure exactly how often I'll be posting, but every Monday for sure!  That is my official WI day so I'll def be on then!  I also have to keep track of the National Woman Challenge and post on there regular when it kicks off on Mothers Day this year.  For more info click here------> http://www.4women.gov/woman/index.cfm  A friend and I are going to start a team.  I am hoping to gather a few more members before the official registration sometime next month.  I'm super excited about it!  

     Anywho- I guess that's about it for right now !  I'll be back later to post again I'm sure!  If I'm not, then make a note that I'll be checking in on my blog on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays!  Hope to see ya'll then!!!

Sodas and candy and fudge...oh my

I'm reving up for Easter weekend.  We have a lot of plans.  Saturday there is an egg hunt at the college.  We've never been, but our neighbor takes his kids every year.  He said they put "coupons" in some of the eggs for a free bike, and free McDs meals.  I think it sounds pretty good.  I hope Alex wins a bike !  That would be soo cool!  Leland is still to young to participate much.  He's not walkin yet or anything.  He gets to have an egg hunt at the inlaws on Sunday.  We have to go Friday afternoon and buy some stuff at walmart.  We need Easter baskets and such.  My bils g/f bought 2 bags of already filled eggs so we don't have buy as many.  Jay had the idea of buying a few of the BIG eggs and hiding money in them for the kids.  That would make their day ! 

On to weight loss.  I've really decided to stop worrying about it so much.  I'm gonna do this my way.  I'm gonna start on SOBE in April.  I'm ordering some Phen-D on Friday.  It's an herbal version of Phen with the same effects and none of the side effects.  I have a friend who is on it and she has had wonderful effects.  So far she's lost an average of 1.5-2 lbs a week.  A total of 10.5 lbs last month.  I think that sounds about average honostly.  I know for a fact it's possible to lose 10lbs month.  I've done it.  Back in '06 I was going to the gym everyday (workin my tail off -btw), watching what  I ate and watching my calories, and I was losing about 9.5lbs a month.  I was perfectly happy with that ;)  I hope to get back up to that again.  Other than that, it's all I can do.  Just work my tail off.

Jay and I went and looked at a house today for rent.  It's got a HUGE yard and looks good.  Alex was stoked about the yard, of course .  If we move, it will be at the beginning of April and that means that my treadmill will have to wait until next month .  It's worth it to get the hell away from our neighbors though lemme tell ya!!  So that's all for now I think.  Talk to ya'll soon.  Off to FIT.

Blame it on the stars...

Those who read the entry before last, know that I had a mental break down .  I'm working on it, really.  Reading my comments from my girls (no kidding) brought tears to my eyes.  I know who my support system is...and I know that my support system will never fail me .  I'm sorry I flipped out on ya'll yesterday.  I'm a Libra...what can I say?  When something is close to my heart and means this much to me, I get kinda attached.  Leave it to my girls to keep me grounded.  It's times like this I miss Jade...already and it's only been like what 3 days???  I will get thru this!  Ya'll should see my fridge after yesterday...OMG I went nuts  Talk about bein in need of support...whew!  Ok check this out!

My freezer door

My Fridge Door

Side of my fridge

Tell me that's not a good enough support system huh? LOL!

Are you interested?

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The winds of change.....

So I've decided (well me and those I hold in highest regard ;) )  to change things up a bit at FIT.  It was recommended that I let the members start making challenges for weeks and that is a wonderful idea!  I love it!  Thank you, btw Alicia!  So now that I have that down I'm changing some other things.  I am really tired of chasing people down to get their WIs.  If said people are truly interested in being a part of this challenge they would eagerly post their WIs every week.  It's only one day a week for crying out loud!  We did ask in the very beginning and all the original members agreed that any new members would be required to maintain an "active" status.  Which means checking in on FIT and posting as often as possible.  I understant that life gets stressful and busy.  However, I've noticed that some of the girls will post on their blogs everyday but not bother to stop in on FIT.  It doesn't take that long and you'd be surprised how a few words of support can turn around someones day.  I've had posts go 2-3 sometimes all week without a single reply to them.  How encouraging is that?  It's discouraging if anything. 

 I've taken up a second blog on another site to get more support for myself lol.  I hope that I have not offended anyone with this post but I just had to get this all off my chest. 

Also- for all my original FIT girls!  You know who you are...Thank you for all the support you have given.  I apologize for getting so discouraged here lately.  Please hang in there!  12 weeks is NOT that long lol!  (((Hugs)))

Oh brother

This is becoming such a habit for me.  DH works and here I am with the kiddos all evening long.  I don't mind but I would like to do something besides sit in the dang house all day long.  I have been inside virtually all winter long :(  It's rather depressing actualy.  I can't wait for Spring when we can all get outside more often.  We are the type of family that goes to the park every evening when it cools off.  We like to walk the trails and I'm a picture whore so I always have plenty of pics to take of the scenic views.  We live in a tourist destination lol so there is always plenty to see and do in the summer months. 

We live in Hannibal Missouri, (http://www.visithannibal.com)  which is always LOADED with things to do in the summer months.  We have a TON of people here every year to visit.  We enjoy the river boat tours and of course we plan to take Alex to all the museums this year seeing as she's old enough to understand them now :)  I think she'll enjoy it.  I just have all of these plans and I get impatient I guess waiting for the beautiful warm weather to get here.  My inlaws love to have bbqs and we end up doing that at least once every weekend.  The entire family will get together at my MIL and FILs and all the kids will get to run around and play.  We go to Mark Twain State Park ( http://www.mostateparks.com/twainpark.htm) quit often to the beach area.  We love to swim at the lake!  Ahhhh c'mon summer!

Well I'm sure this has proved a very depressing entry for those of you buried under snow still lol!  It has to melt sometime!  Talk to ya'll soon!

Yucky day *blah*

I didn't do much today.  I basicaly slept all day.  I have been so yucky.  Naseua and dizziness kept me down most of the day.  I did get a little more active for some reason this evening.  My symptoms subsided and I was able to get out and do something.  Not much, didn't want to push it.  That was my excuse for eating as well.  I tried some WW 0 pt soup for supper and just BARELY held it down.  After a few tries I was finally able to hold down a bit of a sandwich.  I just put about a tsp of peanut butter on a piece of bread and nibbled at it.  Then here a few minutes ago, I made a batch of tuna salad and had a sandwich.  Seems to be sitting alright so far.  I hope I don't puke it all up (sorry to be graphic) cause that would suck!  I hate being sick! 

Mondays WI will be here before I know it, so I better get over this bug by tomorrow so I can get a bit of a work out in before the official day!  Good luck to all my FIT ladies!  MUAH!!!!

I'm so confused

Ladies please, if there is anything I can do to make the challenge at FIT a better one PLEASE let me know!  I am really trying my best here.  I have tried to make it as productive for everyone involved as I can.  I know that everyone has different levels of ability so I've tried to make it doable.  Please let me know if there is anything I can do to shape it up...before you just leave.  Thanks! 

Hows week 2 going ladies?  I hope everyone will get around to checkin in occasionaly!  We miss ya'll!