Hello all! It's been awhile since I posted & I'm sure all my buddies have forgotten about me LOL! I am loving the new layout this site has! Very conveniant!
I'm doing good in the weight loss dept. Down to 217 now from 263 when I started this journey. I have added a LOT of physical activity to my daily life. I walk for about an hour & a half every evening, or thru out the day. Whenever I can squeeze it in. I can't make it to gym anymore since my car hit the skidz..but in a way that's good news because now I have to walk everywhere & I get a ton of extra excercise in! I live literally right next door to the park where they have trails and lots of ways to get in a work out.
My daughter will be 6 in Nov and she is def picking up on my habits. She loves to walk with me & usually tries to race me in a run lol. She orders salads whenever we eat out, which here lately hasn't been very often at all. I think I've eatin more at subway in the past month than I have in 10 yrs! LOL! They have very healthy alternatives to greasy cheeseburgers and french fries. My gull bladder is really bad and needs to be removed. Dr said the only really effective way to keep it from going into spasms is to eat a very low fat diet. So no more fried foods for me! Who needs those anyway? LOL! As long as I stick to a very low fat meal it doesn't act up at all. I think it's been over a month now since I had a really bad attack. Fingers crossed it stays that way because if you've ever had a gull bladder spasm, it isn't something you enjoy very much.
Well I guess that's got everyone up to date for now! I'll check in often and keep ya'll posted!
Ok so now I'm down to 228! I just had a 3 day "vacation" with my ex and my kids so I'm sure I gained a couple in the past few days. Not entirely happy about that but it's nothing I can't get off quickly. I've been taking my Slimquick and my water pills everyday. Except yesterday. My gull bladder was acting up so bad I could barely sit up..let alone fix me anything to eat and take my pills. That actually may help me out when it comes time to jump on the scale in the morning.
I believe I could probably fit into a size 16 now. My 18's are getting pretty baggy!! I'm super excited about that! I'm tempted to go to walmart and just try some on to see. Even if I don't buy them. But I know, once I try them on I'll want to buy them! I can't wait to get to goal! I feel that I am well on my way. I'm only 3lbs away from my 2nd mini goal of 225. I'm just going to take this weight loss 10lbs at a time and not push myself with such a huge number of lbs to lose. That can get kind of overwhelming! Although, it is nice to think that I no longer need to lose over 100lbs!! Woot woot!
Next summer I hope to be at my goal weight and on to the "maintanance" part of weight loss. It will be harder to get my walks in everynight when the snow hits the ground but I'm going to try my hardest to continue. I hope that by that time, I'll have a good job and a gym membership. That would def be nice! Then I could just go run on the treadmill instead of freezing my tail off out in the snow! There are a lot of really nice gyms close by. Wilsons, and Golds, just to name a couple. There are a few privately owned ones as well. I think there is a curves somewhere here in town that I've considered joining for the past 6 months. First things first though. I need to find a job and get a vehicle. This may be a University town with all kinds of bus routes but there is nothing quite like having your own transportation lol.
I haven't heard from any of my weight loss buddies on EP in awhile! I hope everyone is doing great! If any of you have myspace, feel free to hit me up anytime! www.myspace.com/mizzoumama
I'm back ladies!!! I missed you all so much! I hope everyone is doing great! I have lost a tremendous amount of weight since I logged on last. I also gained some since I logged in last. I actually went back up to 256 over the spring. Then I started working again. Well I work nights and I work CONSTANTLY! I never remember to eat. I can go three days before I even think about it honostly. I don't have hunger pangs anymore. Guess I got used to them. I know it's not funny but I did manage to get down to 241 by the end of June. Now I'm at 236. I'm gettin there. Still have a long ways to go but slowly but surely I'll get there. I'm in a size 18 now and I'm stoked about that! I can fit into a large shirt instead of an xlarge all the time. My nasty undies def fit better!! Not to mention LOOK better without all the rolls hanging out everywhere. Like I said I still have a long way to go! I hope to get around to check up on all of you very soon! Take care and I love you all!
….I keep saying, “tomorrow, I’m starting my diet tomorrow”. Well yet again - I decided to put it off until tomorrow only because I didn’t get to go shopping until noon and I’d already had breakfast and subway for lunch. So what was the point in really starting my diet today? Makes more sense to wait until tomorrow doesn’t it? Or am I just being a procrastinator. I’ll admit, I’m getting over whelmed by all of this “do and dont” but I’ll get the hang of it. :) I’m not quitting by a long shot!
I have learned my lesson in regards to soda. I had my first soda in like 4 days today and I gulped it down like always…well I’ll never do that again. I gave myself a major headache. Borderline migraine. I got home and got a bottle of water with one of my shake up things and it was so sweet I couldn’t drink it! I had to get a regular bottle of water to drink and within literally 10 mins my headache was gone! Is that crazy or what? Talk about a sugar over load! I was close to passin out from this headache. It was that bad, yes! I don’t think I’ll be drinking anymore soda for awhile. I’ll stick to my water that I’ve grown quite attached to. Nothing tastes quite like it anymore. I can guzzle of 20 oz of water in the same time that it takes me to drink a bottle of soda. I like that! I’ve been awesome at getting my water in this week! Over 64oz a day! YAY for me! 10 points! Shoooooosh! Nothin but net! Yep I’m siked!
Weigh In day is fast approaching and I’m anxious to see if all this water has helped. I hope I don’t have another gain. That would be very dissapointing indeed. I’m trying to encourage myself right now, not drag myself down. Another gain, yet again this week would do just that. So fingers crossed and with high hopes and empty bladder I shall conquer that scale Monday! So send me ~~skinny vibes~~ that I will put up some big numbers this week!!
Friday is my big start day :D I'm excited! SD has been posting recipes for me in FIT that I can use during phase 1. That has helped sooo much she has no idea! I am sitting here making my grocery list for the week based on those recipes. Thanks again girl!
I'm really looking forward to getting started. I'm on this other dieting site called "buddyslim" and there is a woman there who's been a member for 2 years. Her and I got to talking and she said that the ONLY diet she has seen work in that time that people actually stuck too AND lost weight AND kept it off was SOBE! So that gave me an extra push for sure! Now if I can just get the stability down! I need a structured meal plan. Not just a "eat this - don't eat that" meal plan. I need an actual menu plan. I think SD might be able to help me out since she's been thru phase 1 recently! Thanks a bunch girl! -again- LOL!
To all my girls at FIT-You know I wubs ya girls! I don't know where I'd be without ya'll. Every week one, five, or all of ya inspire me. I feel so horrible when ya'll are puttin up big numbers and I gain. Or when ya'll do your 50 crunches a day and I sit on my ass all day. So that is my motivation! Thanks again girls muwah!! (((hugs)))
I need to post this somewhere! It's an attitude I need to remember. I keep thinking - who cares if I'm fat? I'm married, I'm not looking for a man, why do I insist on being skinny. It has nothing to do with my health. Grr! Okay changing my attitude as of today!
So I thought I'd jump in here and share some pics with ya'll of our Easter Egg Hunt 2008 here in Hannibal, Mo! I'll probably have some more tomorrow! Hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend, and doing better than I am about steering clear of the candy part! Bye for now!
I wanted to be the first to offer ya'll a happy and blessed Easter weekend! I hope ya'll have a great time! I know we have many plans as I described in my last post. DH was talkin to the neighbor about the plans that they had for their kids. Of course that's assuming they are still living, as I'm giving serious thought to going up and strangling those rude, nasty little children! Loud little brats! Here it is barely 8 am and there is probably 20 of them running up and down the stairs in our apartment lobby! GRR! Anywho - try not to eat too much candy this weekend! I know this is a hard holiday to avoid it but it's better than Thanksgiving or Xmas at least right? LOL!
Now on to the more dissapointing news . I've done a bit of soul searching the past few days and I think it's safe to say that I've come to a rather important decision. I'm not a horrible mother, or wife, or person in general. I'm not a horrible housekeeper or anything like that. But boy do I sure have my issues with it when I have a computer in this house. I just can't do it anymore. Unfortunatly that means that yes, I'll have to go back to using the library computer to check up on all my girls (and some guys ) but I'm going crazy. I was doing very well beating my insomnia before I got this darn thing. I was sleeping reselessly but sleeping none the less. I spent infinate amounts of time with my kids and my house was always spotless ! I used to pride myself, and bragged quite regularly, how clean I always keep my house. Now it's pretty much gone to Hades . If there is one thing I cannot stand it's a dirty house ! I was just in the bedroom and seen clean clothes still in the hamper from 4 days ago! Can you believe that shit? I am disgusted with myself ! This is completely unlike me. It's like my life here online is more important than cleaning my house or spending time with my kids. I'll say it's not any where near as hard to tear me off of it as it used to be but it's still not good . I hate treating my kids this way. I'm tired of being awake for days on end as well! That's for sure! If I ever hope to lose weight, I have got to start getting a good nights sleep! This is ridiculous! I'll go 2-3 days without sleep! It's nuts .
So I have come to the decision that for the benefit of my kids, and me as well, I'm going to relinquish my computer and my internet at the end of this week. Probably today . I am sorry to have to do this, as I have great friends on here. However, right now, at this point in my life, I feel it is the only way to make things work and better for my family . My kids are my life and right now, I'm not treating them very well . I have many goals set out for myself over the course of this year, as well as many mini goals for each month. I am going to start reaching and acheiving those goals starting with Aprils list. March is almost done so it would be silly I believe to start with March. We'll skip ahead to April and wipe a clean slate. I have many friends with whom I would love to keep up a penpal with! Also I will be posting still via the library. I am not sure exactly how often I'll be posting, but every Monday for sure! That is my official WI day so I'll def be on then! I also have to keep track of the National Woman Challenge and post on there regular when it kicks off on Mothers Day this year. For more info click here------> http://www.4women.gov/woman/index.cfm A friend and I are going to start a team. I am hoping to gather a few more members before the official registration sometime next month. I'm super excited about it!
Anywho- I guess that's about it for right now ! I'll be back later to post again I'm sure! If I'm not, then make a note that I'll be checking in on my blog on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays! Hope to see ya'll then!!!
I'm reving up for Easter weekend. We have a lot of plans. Saturday there is an egg hunt at the college. We've never been, but our neighbor takes his kids every year. He said they put "coupons" in some of the eggs for a free bike, and free McDs meals. I think it sounds pretty good. I hope Alex wins a bike ! That would be soo cool! Leland is still to young to participate much. He's not walkin yet or anything. He gets to have an egg hunt at the inlaws on Sunday. We have to go Friday afternoon and buy some stuff at walmart. We need Easter baskets and such. My bils g/f bought 2 bags of already filled eggs so we don't have buy as many. Jay had the idea of buying a few of the BIG eggs and hiding money in them for the kids. That would make their day !
On to weight loss. I've really decided to stop worrying about it so much. I'm gonna do this my way. I'm gonna start on SOBE in April. I'm ordering some Phen-D on Friday. It's an herbal version of Phen with the same effects and none of the side effects. I have a friend who is on it and she has had wonderful effects. So far she's lost an average of 1.5-2 lbs a week. A total of 10.5 lbs last month. I think that sounds about average honostly. I know for a fact it's possible to lose 10lbs month. I've done it. Back in '06 I was going to the gym everyday (workin my tail off -btw), watching what I ate and watching my calories, and I was losing about 9.5lbs a month. I was perfectly happy with that ;) I hope to get back up to that again. Other than that, it's all I can do. Just work my tail off.
Jay and I went and looked at a house today for rent. It's got a HUGE yard and looks good. Alex was stoked about the yard, of course . If we move, it will be at the beginning of April and that means that my treadmill will have to wait until next month . It's worth it to get the hell away from our neighbors though lemme tell ya!! So that's all for now I think. Talk to ya'll soon. Off to FIT.
Those who read the entry before last, know that I had a mental break down . I'm working on it, really. Reading my comments from my girls (no kidding) brought tears to my eyes. I know who my support system is...and I know that my support system will never fail me . I'm sorry I flipped out on ya'll yesterday. I'm a Libra...what can I say? When something is close to my heart and means this much to me, I get kinda attached. Leave it to my girls to keep me grounded. It's times like this I miss Jade...already and it's only been like what 3 days??? I will get thru this! Ya'll should see my fridge after yesterday...OMG I went nuts Talk about bein in need of support...whew! Ok check this out!
My freezer door
My Fridge Door
Side of my fridge
Tell me that's not a good enough support system huh? LOL!
LOL! I am loving the new layout this site has! Very conveniant! 
I need to post this somewhere! It's an attitude I need to remember. I keep thinking - who cares if I'm fat? I'm married, I'm not looking for a man, why do I insist on being skinny. It has nothing to do with my health. Grr! Okay changing my attitude as of today!
. I've done a bit of soul searching the past few days and I think it's safe to say that I've come to a rather important decision. 
I'm not a horrible mother, or wife, or person in general. I'm not a horrible housekeeper or anything like that. But boy do I sure have my issues with it when I have a computer in this house. I just can't do it anymore. Unfortunatly that means that yes, I'll have to go back to using the library computer to check up on all my girls (and some guys 
) but I'm going crazy. I was doing very well beating my insomnia before I got this darn thing. I was sleeping reselessly but sleeping none the less. I spent infinate amounts of time with my kids and my house was always spotless 
! I used to pride myself, and bragged quite regularly, how clean I always keep my house. Now it's pretty much gone to Hades 
. If there is one thing I cannot stand it's a dirty house 
! I was just in the bedroom and seen clean clothes still in the hamper from 4 days ago! Can you believe that shit? I am disgusted with myself 
! This is completely unlike me. It's like my life here online is more important than cleaning my house or spending time with my kids. I'll say it's not any where near as hard to tear me off of it as it used to be but it's still not good 
I have many friends with whom I would love to keep up a penpal with! Also I will be posting still via the library. I am not sure exactly how often I'll be posting, but every Monday for sure! That is my official WI day so I'll def be on then! 
We have a lot of plans. Saturday there is an egg hunt at the college. We've never been, but our neighbor takes his kids every year. He said they put "coupons" in some of the eggs for a free bike, and free McDs meals. I think it sounds pretty good. I hope Alex wins a bike 
! That would be soo cool! Leland is still to young to participate much. He's not walkin yet or anything. He gets to have an egg hunt at the inlaws on Sunday. We have to go Friday afternoon and buy some stuff at walmart. We need Easter baskets and such. My bils g/f bought 2 bags of already filled eggs so we don't have buy as many. Jay had the idea of buying a few of the BIG eggs and hiding money in them for the kids. That would make their day 
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. It's worth it to get the hell away from our neighbors though lemme tell ya!! So that's all for now I think. Talk to ya'll soon. Off to FIT.
. I'm sorry I flipped out on ya'll yesterday. I'm a Libra...what can I say? When something is close to my heart and means this much to me, I get kinda attached. Leave it to my girls to keep me grounded. It's times like this I miss Jade...already and it's only been like what 3 days???
Talk about bein in need of support...whew! Ok check this out!
