Well...there hasn't really been anything much to tell over the past couple of weeks. I've still been trying (most of the time) and I ahve finally got a new swimming costume so I can start that up again. I phoned up the local gym about class prices, thinking I could do one or 2 a week with a friend, only it turns out it's £6 per class!!!! I nearly fell through the floor....talk about extortion! Considering I live in the North, aren't things meant to be cheap up here?! Oh well....I'm starting the C25K programme so hopefully that should have me working up a bit of a sweat and I'm still working on OH letting me have a cross trainer all of my own so I can exercise more.
Just checked a website and it says if I eat 1400calories a day and do 200 calories exercise a day I should lose 2lb a week and be at 11stone1lb by 22nd March which would be ok. That should take me back down to around a UK 12. It would also be 20% loss!!! Woot!
I know I can do this, and Remi is much mroe supportive than he used to be! I guess the rest is down ot me. I just feel so low sometimes when I think about what I have done to my body! I'm only 23 but have spent the past 10 years or so dieting...and to be fair, I think 'silly dieting' is why I am where I am. I mean when I was a teenager, my idea of a good diet was to eat hardly anything, but what I did eat was rubbish! Then I went through a phase of saving my lunch money for spending at weekend (which was a double bonus, weight loss AND extra shopping money). Wow...just realised how droney and preachy I was getting there! I just feel sad with myself for the situation I ahve got into.
On a brighter note, we are thinking of booking our next snowboarding holiday which gives me a weight loss goal to work towards in terms of getting fitter so I can stand more than 2 hours on the slopes. I'm aiming for full days this year! :)
Anywho....I'm sure I have bored anyone reading this to tears now, so I'll pootle off now and get some tidying done!! Hey...it'll burn a few more calories!! :)
Ok, I'm attempting AGAIN to start posting. I don't promise I will be an ultra regular poster as I am on a few support groups and am hoping to put more time and effort into those. But I will try and at least post weekly....surely even I can do that?!
Anyway, since last posting...nothing has changed...apart from my weight has maybe gone up a little!! I have now started my new job and am hoping this will give me the motivation to lose the weight.
My plan is to start running (although I imagine it will start with gentle sauntering!!!) but hey, you gotta start somewhere right?! :) Anyway, I am going to get swimming more often and am planning on getting a waterproof MP3 player to kick me into action. Next week, a new gym opens quite local to me, so I also plan on doing a few Aerobics style classes too.
It's frustrating, I know I can do it and I know I can cut out the chocolate....but I get lazy and tired to saying "no, I don't want a cookie" or "no I can't go for a meal because I'm dieting and am going swimming instead". I don't know about everyone else, but it sometimes feels a little like your life is on hold while you are losing the weight?! I know once I'm happier with my weight, my life will start again as I can eat a little more (not what I'm eating now, just maintainable food) and I will be into exercising so much by then that it will just be the same as brushing my teeth daily....but until that point, it's like everything is on hold.
I'm hoping to apply to be a police officer soon too and with the fitness tests (I know they aren't hard but I want to fly through them...not scrape past) so I want to get really fit. I daydream sometimes about how I will look when I lose weight, and I feel really motivated, but then the next day, that motivation has disappeared!
I guess I'm no different to every other person on this site, we all have food issues in some form...so here goes to another challenge!!! xx
I have been told I have to update and keep updating again…so here goes! It’s been quite some time since I last wrote anything on here…things just kind of get on top of me a bit sometimes and it’s always blogging that suffers. My diet hasn’t been going too well…I have been sticking with the gym fairly regularly, and eating ok most of the time, but it’s not enough. I need to always exercise on a regular basis including doing come classes each week AND I need to stick with eating healthily. I seem to do well all week until weekend and I go over the top Fri/Sat and Sun!!! I need to cut out this bad behaviour if I’m ever going to get down to a super slim UK10. If my mum can do it…so can I!!
I now have a diet buddy so I am much more accountable now too. I think I’ve been fooling myself into thinking I’m sticking to it when I’m not really. I go away in 2 weeks and I’m REALLY annoyed with myself for not losing weight before I go…I could have reached goal several times over by now but instead…I messed about so I’m off on another fat holiday! L
This will NOT happen again. When we come back…I’m going to look at booking a holiday to the Caribbean or America or something big so I feel more pressure to get into good shape to go. I’m going to try some more fun activities again too…like roller-skating and snowboarding again. I went bowling last night and my legs really ache today from all that lunging to roll the ball.
I realise this probably isn’t true, but I feel like lots of things in my life will click together again when I’m happy with myself…I think I manifest things which makes me more unhappy.
Anyway…enough of me moaning and planning….her goes another try!!
I have managed to leave it 10 days since last posting anything! I can't believe it...that time seems to have flown by! I'm currently sat at my desk eating my office famous pasta and sauce and really enjoying it. I ahve just been for a walk arounf the park 3 times to up my step count.
I have decided to run the Race For Life on June 1st..we are running as cheerleaders so I msut get my legs in some kind of decent shape by then. I'm aiming to lose 7lb by my birthday which is May 11th (2 weeks and 6 days). I think if I really get with it for the next 3 weeks....I should do it.
I'm feeling really excited today...I should hear this week if I ahve an interview for a new and better paid job!
Summer is on the way and everything is good! I'm feeling rather motivated too...I just can't help but think of the finish line...I'm not even half way yet but that finish line is keeping me going! :)
Well, this is just a quick catch up really. I have had a bad few days diet wise...I went way over one day, and got in trouble with my mum for it. So I'm back on the straight and narrow and eating healthily again and NO MORE BAD DAYS!!!
I am also embarking on a new idea o be a more positive and generally better person...I am going to pay 3 compliments a day. I'll make the effort to notice something nice about people to compliment them on.
Back on a dieting note...I start kickboxing tonight...woohoo...6-7pm! I can't wait. I think we are going Sofa shopping tomorrow too...can finally get a really nice corner sofa.
Finally - 4weeks and 2 days till my birthday and 12weeks and 2 days until we go on holiday! YAY.
I'm really annoyed with myself at the moment!! This past week...I have done sod all exercise!!! I go on holiday to Majorca in 13 weeks and I'm NOT going as a whale again! I have been really lazy and haven't done ANYTHING from my list of daily activities. So...I'm going to throw my list away and aim to do as much as possible each day instead. I mean, it's not like I have suddenly gained 7lb or anything but...I have started having anxiety dreams about the holiday! I know...stupid right?! Normally, I have dreams about missing the planes etc because I overlay or get stuck in traffic. You want to know what the latest ones are.....that I get on holiday and don't fit into anything I have with me because I'm too fat for everything. I know it's rediculous but it stops me from getting excited...I feel more stressed than anything!!!
But on the plus side...these dreams ahve made me even more determined now not to go and be like that. So tomorrow I'm going to put last week behind me and get on with it. As my 1stone (14lb) treat, I had nail extensions done and I'm going to start back on the sunbeds this month. It's about time I started caring a bit more about how i look.
Ooh...off the topic of weight loss....I'm applying for a new job as a detention officer for the local police force. I can't wait. Fingers crossed I will get it as it's quite a bit more than I'm earning at the moment! Although the application form is rather difficult...if I can do it...it will deffinately be worth it. Would earn and extra £350 a month after tax! Woohoo!!
Did I mention before I'm starting kickboxing again? Well I am! I was quite fit when I went before.. and it would be useful if I get this job...knowing a bit of self defence. Right, I'm sure I have bored you ladies quite enough for one evening, so I will go and watch a DVD and awake in the morning fresh faced and ready to fight the world!
P.s. I can't wait for my Monday weigh in...here's hoping it's a loss!! :)
Ok, I'm really rather annoyed today! I weighed in this morning and had gained 0.6lb! I know it's not much but I have been trying really hard...I guess not hard enough though!! I go on holiday July 7th and want to be looking sweet in a bikini by then. I ahvea new programme though to challenge myself...it bascially consists most days of this:
Walk 10k steps a day
1 hr at the gym daily
walk to and from the sunbeds (2mile total) 3 times a week
10 minutes of ab work daily
kickboxing twice a week
and a morning run (for as long as I can manage before work)
So if all that lot doesn't do it...nothing will!! I have the will power to do it and I know I'm perfectly ca[able...so no more late nights at work for me! I'm doing this and I'm going to be successful!!
So now i have my positive affirmations out of the way...work has been a mare lately...far to much work...not nearly enough people! we are having a big switch around and I have spent the last 2 days doing 1 job...my other jobs are piling up around me!
On a happier note...I spent all my Tesco clubcard vouchers yesterday...I got 12 blockbuster rentals, £30 to spend at Santa Fe restaurant, 2 tickest to West Midlands Safari and 2 tickets to Drayton Manor. I'm planning on buying some more when we get our next batch! I was really pleased...lots to do in the summer!
Anyways...I'm off to browse eBay for more things can't afford!!
Well, I’m feeling marginally better today than yesterday. The weight I seemed to have gained has now gone down slightly…so I’m back to 13, 2.2lb. As Long as that last lb is gone by Monday, I can deal!!
I’m rather looking forward to the weekend. I have been thinking about the advice that sodium could be causing the gain on the scales…so I’m spending Saturday making freezable low calories meals that I can throw into the oven!! I’m going to cut salt out of my diet as much as possible since those pre-packaged ready meals CAN’T be any good for you really!! AND, if I make it all fresh I know what has gone into it. I’m not overly sure on what I will make, but a few ideas are Pasta Bakes, Veggie Chilli, Veggie Lasagne (using brine soaked peppers instead of pasta!)…any more ideas would be appreciated! I think we will have Tuna one night and Salmon one night too….so all in all…I should have a good mixture. Also, does anyone know how to make a good low calorie sweet and sour sauce? I want to do some nice stir frys, but don’t like using ready made sauces if I can help it! ALSO…any low cal curry sauce recipes?!
I’m going to be super organised next week. I’m going to chop all my veg for my daily pasta too, so I don’t get onion fingers just before work in the morning!
Haven’t decided if I will go to the gym tonight or not…am feeling a little achy so might take the day off and go tomorrow instead?!
I have discovered a super face wash…Dr Murad! I had never used it until someone at work recommended it for Acne…my skin is looking so much better and I have only been using it for about a month or so! I can’t believe the difference to how it was at the beginning of the year…no more painful red spots for me! Tehehe…
I was really excited the other day….a few weeks ago I brought a pair of work trousers that were a little tight around the waist….well I tried them on a few days ago and the fit!!! I couldn’t believe it...and they look much better than my other work trousers!
Anyway…I’m at work (again!) so I better go get some work done!!
Surprisingly…considering it has been a while since I last blogged, I don’t have that much to tell. I’m still losing weight and working out daily. Although I’m trying to add a little more to my routine, like walking a bit more (either outside or on the treadmill) and doing a bit more at the gym! I’m determined to reach my goal in time for my holidays. I don’t think I can bare the thought of another holiday being paranoid about being fat. So this year I WILL walk along the beach in a white bikini and feel fantastic!!
I owe a BIG apology to my fellow FIT girlies….I hope you all forgive me for being so lazy where the blogging is concerned. I promise I am going to start trying harder again!
So, I’m off to the gym tonight…and I have to thank a FIT member (though I can’t remember which one) as I have stolen your Motto “Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels”.
Also, another thing I read on someone else’s blog (once again, I can’t remember who’s) is that you know what something tastes like, so why feel the NEED to eat it! I have to say…this has actually helped me where chocolate is concerned! It’s now 4 weeks and 3 days (not that I’m counting) since I last had a piece of chocolate! I even resisted over Easter.
I am feeling a little low though at the moment…I have been sticking to my 1200 calories a day and have been exercising plenty and I have gained 3lb in 3 days!!! Now I’m HOPING it’s water weight. I don’t suffer with TOM as I have an injection which stops it all. So I don’t know what I am doing wrong. I was really pleased I was almost at the 1stone mark…and now I have been put back to 10lb again! I seriously hope I have a weight loss on Monday for FIT. I’m not giving up though…if I give up, then the fat me has won while the thin me stays hidden! I have so many reasons for wanting to reach 10 stone (140lb). I want to get back into my boarding trousers, I want to look good in a bikini on holiday, I want to make OH happier (not that he isn’t happy, but I know he would be happier if I was slimmer as I would be the old me again!), I want the confidence I used to have!
Anywho…I’m at work at the moment so I better get back to working! But I will update on how I’m doing tomorrow….I promise!!
Well I haven't really had chance to blog at all this week. I've been really slack with checking the site too...but next week should be better. ON a plus, part of the reason I have been slack is that I have been busy working out and getting my lunches etc prepared fresh for work! So I guess it balances itself out! Looking frward to my weigh in tomorrow for FIT...I'm hoping for a good loss. I've done really well on food and exercise all week. I'm still getting frustarted though with not SEEING the changes...even though I do FEEL better in myself. I went shopping with my now very slim mum (she was a UK size 20-22 and is now 8-10!!). I went into NEXT to look for some jeans for the party...I was gutted that I had to buy a pair of size 18!! Although they were big around my waist...they were tight on my thunder thighs. I was determined until yesterady never to buy an 18...but I had ot cave. Although hopefully they won't fit me for long and i will be back down to a 16!
It was the engagement party/buffett last night. I got there and Sarah said "I was going to buy you a Cheese and tomatoe pizza (mmmm...pizza) but I know your on a diet and thought you wouldn't eat it, so there isn't really a veggie option as such" and to be honest...I was really pleased that I wouldn't feel pressurised into eating while I'm dieting. I had a few nibbles but deffinately nothing over 450 calories which took me to my daily allowance. SO I was pretty pleasesd...also, I was driving so I couldn't even let alcohol ruin it!
I don't know if anyone else finds this, but when you are dieting, you feel really unsociable! Everyone around me was eating and drinking while I sat there with my sugar free Ribena! Nevermind though...at least I ahven't ruined my hard work so far.
I'm currently debating whether or not to go to the gym today. I was going to go horse riding but it's really windy and the horses get a bit skittish in the wind so I ahve rebooked for next week instead. I missed my Fridya workout because I ate too soon before i planned to go and thought I would throw up if I went. Hmmm...it's 2pm, the last admission is 7pm and I go to my grans at 6pm. so I ahve 4 hours to go to the shop to buy my bell pepppers etc for next week...I might go after that and go straight to my grans from the gym!
Anywho, I hope all the F.I.T girls are doing well. I ahven't had chance to check up on everyone properly...but tonight when I get home from grans, I'm going to try and sit down and get updated!
Ok, I won't drone on anymore...I'll go finsih getting ready and go to the shop and TRY and drag my lazy ass to the gym! teeheehee...
