frustrated- but trying my best

I am trying my best to stay focused and motivated. I have not lost my target amount for the past three weeks.  I am getting discouraged and frustrated. Not frustrated enough to cheat but I'm not happy.  This past week I went back to just shakes-that’s it. I had no bars, no soup-, and still no target number. What more do I have to do?

I have started walking on the treadmill and I am enjoying it. My goal is to run a 5k so I'm going to start this 'couch potato to 5k' jogging plan.  I want to start it but I'm afraid. I don't know why I'm scared since I used it before I hurt my leg and was up to 2 miles. I guess it seems like so far away. I'm not sure I’m up to doing it again. My mini goal was to be 185 by 10/18. I haven't seen that number since collage (much to my shame). Oh well I'll keep moving.

It's time to workout

Ok so right now I'm at 12lbs gone. I feel good about this because I recognize that without making weight loss a priority I could have gained 12lbs in this time. It's sad but true. So far I've been doing well and sticking to the plan. I am not really tempted to cheat. Whats happened is that I have a fascination with watching other people eat. I hope this continues because I never want to go back up! I'm trying to figure out how to cultivate this new form of people watching into my life long term. I want to remember this a year from now and say "Nandi, you don't need to eat fast food. Go to the food court and watch other people enjoy it-but dont touch!"

I've also decided that I need to start working out. I always feel better when I add exercise. My job is stressful and it allows me to decompress. I've been watching Fat March on abc and it's inspired me to start walking again. Ultimately I would like to run a breast cancer marathon in honor of my aunt who passed this March. I  know she would be proud to see me motivated towards living a healthy life. Good Luck to any and all who may read!

Back on track

Well I've been away for a while. So much has happend. I have been healing my leg and finishing my exams. I have been back on track for a few weeks and I'm feeling great. I have been careful of my eating. I joined a new program. I am on the optifast plan and it's been working well for me. I did a lot of research before making this decision. It's too expensive to enter into lightly. lol!! So that's where I'm at. I have to admit that i do miss food. I gaze longingly as my sister eats. Sometimes its not even good food but like a frozen dinner. But I say to myself is eating this food worth 5 lbs? Do I want to taste this more than i want to be slender? I dont think so!!!!

Choices, choices

Well, I guess today was an ok day. I'm really having a difficult time. I think I'm being unrealistic. I'm trying to do the core plan but I love carbs and it's been really hard. I'm thinking of going back to flex. I was somewhat successful before but I thought that going low carb would be better. But seriously-it aint working. I feel like I have to be realistic b/c I want/need/must be successful in reaching my goal.

the goal

I rejoined weight watchers after losing 20lbs and keeping it off for several months.  I'm in graduate school and my relief in the semester being over caused me to unfortunately celebrate with fast food. It tasted good but I gained back 15lbs . The purpose of this site is to create accountability and support. I'd also like to inspire other people to take charge of their life and become healthy. My goal is to lose 75lbs and become fit. My aunt recently died from breast cancer and I want to run a race in her honor. I am currently doing the core plan because I know how carb crazy I am. In order to motivate myself I bought my first bathing suit in 10 years. I am going to put it on and take pictures every two weeks . Scary- but I'm determined to be successful. Several weeks ago I broke my ankle, so exercising will have to wait; or at least be modified. I've been thinking about doing some pilates and abs until my ankle heals. Good Luck to everyone trying to be healthy. Please send your thoughts and encouragement.