07/06/2010 00:24
Summer Woes
Well, THIS is what I get for ignoring this blog and working 3 jobs during the school year: I've gained almost 20 pounds! TWENTY. I'm heavier than I've been in almost five years. And this week, the week before summer school starts, I tried to go hiking on a trail I'd done a couple times about 2 years ago and I thought I was going to DIE!
Wake-up call! :(
I'm discouraged and disgusted, and I hate even thinking of setting a goal, since I haven't actually met one for my weight in 5 years, but... I need to. I'm humbled and embarrassed by even writing this; I hate it; I hate my body right now; I hate my lack of endurance and pep.
So... summer school starts tomorrow and maybe that will actually HELP get me back on track. No more vacations or trips planned (one just got cancelled, and even though I was quite disappointed, it's probably for the best). Just time to get on track, to work out regularly, to eat AT HOME, to do better...
Last summer: 216lbs
Last time I weighed in: 228lbs
Current weight: 247lbs.
GOAL: By Christmas --> 200lbs...
That's still quite "obsese" for my 5'3" frame, but it's back to where I was 5 years ago. Back to having more hiking endurance. Back to not looking disgusting in EVERYTHING I wear...
<sigh>
Wish me luck--and pray!