09/12/2009 13:47
Here I am
Well...it's been forever. I am kind of, sort of back here. Life got crazy and there was no way I could keep up here. I didn't even have time to read. I sometimes wonder how everyone does it. I have a full time job, go to school, have 3 kids who all play sports.... I am so busy.
Anyway, I am back with my tail between my legs because this weight is creeping right back up on me....well, I should say, It jumped back on me... really bad.... like came up behind me and knocked me out with chloroform.... BAD. I'm actually on the downslide now. You do not even want to know how bad it got. My job last year took every bit of energy I had. It was so emotionally draining, I was like a zombie and the stress was so much it was unbearable.... food was my frenemy. It was so bad that (remember all those fat clothes I gave away?) well, I had to buy new fat clothes again....and then I had to buy even bigger fat clothes. Yes, it was that bad....
But here I am. I need to get things out and gain support so I don't turn to food anymore. So a-blogging I will be. :) I know how hard it is to deal with LIFE and also eat right. If you've had a terrible relationship with food most of your life, it's difficult, but not impossible. So there aren't any excuses.... you eat junk, you get fat... that simple.
I'm back on whole grains, low fat, high protein. Is it hard? YES! But do I want to be fat? NO! So nothing tastes as good as thin feels. NOTHING. There are not excuses for why I got fat. None. I got fat because I ate and I ate a lot. Plain and simple. I got fat because I didn't deal with my stress, I ate it away. I'll be damned if I continue to try and lose weight and see that scale stay the same. If I eat right, excercise and am HONEST with myself that scale will go down. EVERYONE can lose weight. Everyone. I thought it was impossible for me. I thought I was going to be fat forever. I thought, OMG I have PCOS, I can't lose weight. Well, news for you folks, I can and I did and I will again. This time I'm not going to give in to temptation so much.
So here's to a new start.... and I will not sell myself short. I can do this. You can do this.