Ugh! Don't you hate how you start off strong & do so well?  You stay focused for about 2 months and 12 pounds...then wabble and then another 3 pounds.  Then it happens!  You hit a wall, your focus goes to crap, you gain 5 pounds over the holidays...and why?!?!  Cause it's what you do!?!?

That's my story.  Only it usually ends with months passing by and 10 to 20 more pounds falling ON to my butt and mid-section!  Nope!  Not this year baby!  Monday starts back strong!  I'm back in charge!

I've tpld the hubby he is going to do this with me...cause it wouldn't hurt him one bit!  LOL!  I've got to find some in person support!!!  I need that badly, and what better way to get it but from the person I can't hide from! 

I've also come to the realization that diets don't work for me.  I have three kids, no life and stay at home.  The only way a diet will work for me is if there is no food in my house!

I can use a diet as a guide, but not as the end all/win all.  That just sets me up for failure big time!  So, I'm going to have to stick with portion control.  Also, with 6 small meals a day instead of three.  My iron has dropped...as usually happens when I make drastic changes to my diet as well as up my activity levels.  Believe me no pound is worth the dizzy fainting spells and fatigue that come with low iron.  (Nor the sour stomach of taking iron pills!)

So, as per the advice from the doc the last time this happened....I'm going to make sure I eat foods high in iron, not skip meals, watch my portions and do moderate exercise until everything balances out.

I look forward to meeting small goals as well.  Instead of having a daunting goal that I'm not reaching sit before me...I'll set it to the back of my mind.  I'll replace it with small 20 lb goals that I'll reach sooner.  (And actually reach it!!)  This will give me the boost to keep going! 

I moved my long term goal to the end of June.  That is when we have this summer's big beach vacation to Florida.  I want to look like I belong on the beach and not at sea world.

So, as New Year's resolutions go....here's to looking forward to the goals of the future all while using the mistakes of the past year to guide the way!

Best of '09 to everyone!

~K

I think you are right in saying diets don't work -- the word "diet" brings to mind a temporary thing.  But we have to change our lifestyle and habits... forever and ever!  Has to be that way.  Your ups and downs sound a lot like my story as well.  Good Luck