monday.

tom is here and im back up to 223.4. so im really watching what im eating today. and when i get home from work tonight, im going to work out.

boo.
ive been having weird dreams lately. and just weird signs about babies.  signs that are pushing me to do better at losing weight. my doctor said i needed to be 200 lbs before i got pregnant again. selina has been pretending her dollies are babies. she wraps them up and rocks them and sings them to sleep.  she needs a sibling.

still stressing about money. i really need a job that pays me more..... everythings going to be ok...

YMCA

so im thinking of joining the ymca. the only con ive come up with is money. but i think if we just make sure we're not buying unnecessary things, we can afford the $58 a month. and it's that price for the whole family. and whatever other children we have later down the line. workout classes and gym equipment. plus discounts on other classes. like swim lessons for my daughter. my parents want to pay for them, but it's $60 without a membership and $30 with one. they want her to take 2 sessions. so, saving like $2, but maybe paying for exercise will help motivate me to workout on a regular basis. and it could help me lose that next 20 lbs that i need to lose in order to get pregnant again....

lots of things to think about. and almost all of them money related....
in other news: husband called me this morning to tell me that a house we looked at  several months ago is still on the market and the price went down. it was a house we both really really liked. with an area for a vegetable garden and a clothes line in the back. it's a nice area to raise a family. backyard needs some landscaping, but that's not anything major.... =) we'll qualify for a loan that covers that house, but now im worrying about monthly payments.


but everything will fall in to place. i know it will.

finally!

well. i am finally well.
a surprise party is finally in the end stages of planning (all that's left is execution)
and the scale has finally moved!

i am .4 lbs away from my dance party goal! i am SOOOOO CLOSE. so a little extra push this week. a little less food. and a little more results. =)

it's been an eventful week. we had a tsunami warming and evacuation about an hour and a half from where i live on friday morning as a result of the earthquake in japan.  we were very fortunate and not a single person was hurt. our warning and evacuation systems worked almost without a hitch. which is fantastic seeing as this was the first time they've ever been used "for real" (as opposed to the "tests" they had been doing.  so, good job oregon. you're doing swell.

i still haven't heard anything about the 2 jobs i applied for other then that they're "under review." i just dislike waiting.

im in the middle of working on a few scholarships so hopefully, i wont have to pay for any school this term.... ::crosses fingers::

and now, as i finish this, the fireplace is roaring and just calling me over with a good book and a nice cool glass of water. =)

sick

nothing's changed

im sitting at 3 weeks with no change now. and i feel like i dont have a lot to say. i found a motivation to get me to work out. for every 5 days of exercise, i get a new book. so im going to exercise exercise exercise. maybe break the plateau before it really sets in and i get fed up and give up.


books are a good motivation. =)

start of a new week

i dont know how many second chances im going to give myself. i was doing SO well in the beginning, but now, i just guess at my calories and i don't do anything for exercise. and im starting to see the results. i havent really changed weight for a few weeks now, or if i do, i just bounce right back up... im getting really frustrated with myself.

but today starts a new week. im going to try my best to be more active and count my calories. nothing that i cant do. ive done this all before. im ready to get back on track. i NEED to get back on track. for me and for my family.

I have 3 weddings to go to this year. one in may, on in july and one in august. i will be fit and fabulous by then. i am determined.

disney movies are STILL making an impact on my life.

my house is sick

you know that daunting sick when no one wants to move? yeah. thats what we all have. we were supposed to go to a big family dinner this weekend but we ended up not going so we wouldnt get anyone else sick... backtrack to last monday. selina started screaming a terrible panic-y scream and told me that it hurt while grabbing at her privates. so i took her to her dr the next morning instead of gymnastics.  selina cried when i told her we couldnt go.  then, because shes not potty trained yet (but we did try to go on the potty! she tried SO hard)., we had to do a catheter.  my poor baby.

ends up with no uti, just some soreness we thing. but all that day she would cry and panic when she had to go potty. it was heartbreaking....

but all is better now. now we just all have colds and cant breath through our noses.

weight wise, things are staying the same. which is suprising because i didnt exercise at all last week, nor did i really watch what i was eating and i definatly didnt track anything.  but ive stayed the same. my goal for this week will be to work out 3 times. 30 minutes each day for a total of 90 minutes. i think thats doable.

=)  that's it for me. im off to work, but ill be back tomorrow.

something better

2011 seems to be the year for change for me. not only am i back on track for losing weight, but we are halfway to buying a house.

and now, as of yesterday... i am going back to school.  it's a local community college here in town. im going to get my associates of applied science in early childhood education.  it's been 3 years since ive been in school and im scared. BUT, i need a job where i won't dread going to work. i need something that will make more money to help support my family.

im excited, but im scared of failing. of not following through. and of not having enough money to go through...

but im a different person than i was when i was in college the first time.  im much more responsible. and i understand the importance of education. and i want to be more than just a good role model for my daughter. i want to be my daughters hero. i cant do that if i dont like a part of my life.

and to top things off... we are potty training today. daddy bought selina a new princess potty complete with sounds. they made a deal that she wouldnt have any more diapers if he bought the pretty potty.
so today is a no diaper day. the potty is out in the middle of the floor.... i hope this works.

ugh... weekends

weekends are not my favorite things. which is very very sad. i used to love weekends.

down a couple more pounds. so thats good. calories have been within my limits. 
so things are going well again.
sorry this is so short, but ive got to take off for work.