Today has been a fairly good day, eating wise.  While I didn't eat "healthy" I was able to stop eating at 1600 calories.  I am ok with that.

I also came to the realization today, that I am worrying more about work, than I need to.  I have to let go of my insecurities and move on.  The company always thought I was good before, and while I know I have let them down a couple of times, I trust that they still think I am good at what I do.  I honestly do try hard and I want to be the best, and I am loyal to them.  Hopefully they will always see that, and always want me as part of their team!!

I am thankful for today.  I feel blessed to have such a good life. 

Today I didn't do as well as I had hoped, but still not super bad.  Probably stayed at less than 1700 calories:

Breakfast:  1 c. honey nut cheerios, and 1 c. milk

Dinner:  2 slices of toast with margarine and 1 slice ham/2 small slices cheese

Supper:  2 pork chops (broiled), 3/4 cup of pork & beans, 3 dill pickles

Snack:  Ham sandwich and 2 handful of sour cream and onion chips. 

I know it wasn't great, but not the end of the world either.  Tomorrow though is going to be tough as we will be on the road most of the day, and eating at fast food places.  I am not going to beat myself up over that either, I will get back on the wagon on Friday if I overeat tomorrow.

Today was a good day, but not "great". 

Breakfast:  1 cup of milk    Snack:  1 pudding,   Dinner:  1 order of wedges  Supper:  4 slices of toast with ham 

Even though it wasn't great, I think I am going to allow myself a cup of milk and a couple of carrots as an evening snack.

I have a bit of a headache today, and not sure why.  I am also feeling a bit tired tonight.  But that is OK, because I will hit the hay early tonight.  Actually, if I was smart, I would just hit the hay and not have the evening snack!!  I hope to do better tomorrow.  My plan for tomorrow is to have cereal for breakfast.  Yogurt and an apple for dinner, and maybe a small supper. 

I put in my RS DVD tonight and did one song....it is a start.

I have been struggling since the new year, but tomorrow I am going to be back on track.  I got news today that I may be considered for another project.  This really excites me and now I want to lose the weight, so it will be easier for me to do my job.  This is the boost I needed!!

Last night I really did want to eat, so I forced myself to go to bed early.  It helped!  I got up and weight this morning and I am back to what I was the day before Christmas.  I am happy with that.

Last night I started thinking about some new years resolutions for this year.  One of course is to start eating sensibly.  But I came up with another two for myself.

1.  Try to be the best I can be at my job,and at home.

2.  Try to learn something new every day.

It is so important to me to be good at my job, and for people to think that I am the best.  But that takes work, and I need to start putting the work in, if that is the reputation I want to have.  I want my bosses to be able to count on me and depend on me.  I want to come up with the ideas to make things work better.  So, that mean I have to work harder at it.  In order to become good, I think that you have to keep learning all the time, which brings into play my second resolution - Learn something new every day - whether it is a new word or something about someone, just anything.  You have to keep feeding your brain information in order for it to keep expanding its knowledge.

Today was a fairly good day for me.  I felt good.

I cleaned house most of the day, and while I didn't do terrific with my eating, I don't feel that I did really badly either.

Breafast:  1 english muffin, ff. yogurt

Dinner:  1 small ham & lettuce dinner buns

Supper:  1 bowl homemad hamburger macaroni soup and 1 small dinner bun.

However, tonight I am wanting to eat, so I think I am going to have to head to bed right away. 

Today feels like a wonderful day.  I am glad the holidays are over, and I can start to get back on track.  There is alot of food left in my fridge that I should get rid of, but hopefully DH will eat it up pretty quick.  I stepped on the scale this morning and it was 249.  I thought it would be at least 250, so I am happy with that.  Next Christmas, I hope to never see the 200's again!!

I am glad today is over!!  I overate unbelievably.  BUT, I am ready to start again tomorrow.  I allowed myself today, but all day, I was looking forward to getting back on track tomorrow.  I have already put four 1-litre bottles in the fridge, of water to drink tomorrow (I will flush all this extra food out of my body!!!), I have lettuce, carrots, yogurt, fruit etc for eating, and I am ready to get back on track.  It is a good feeling.  I know I don't like the fullness that I feel tonight.