I'm feeling soo frustrated, another weigh in another tiny little 0.5 lb loss!! WHY am I only losing 0.5 lb a week?
I'm not going to dwell on it, I have set myself a target of getting down to 16 st 7 lb by Wednesday 30th April and I'm still determind to do it! I have 2 weeks to lose 5lb, am I being unrealistic?
To help me achieve this i'm going to;
* Drink 2.5 litres of water a day
* Eat at least 5 portions of fruit and veg a day
* Aim to walk at least 5500 steps a day
* Eat my 25 points worth of food every day - no cheating and going over!
* Blog every day including what i have eaten and how many steps walked!
And I'm hoping this should work!
On the plus side I must be doing something right, I've got back into my size 18 jeans and jumpers this week and the coat hubbie bought me for crimbo finally fits! Also my bmi was 37 and is now 36 so slow and steady is getting me somewhere, maybe I'm just too impatient, I kinda want instant results but I know that being realistic it took me a long time to get this big and I can't expect it to disappear over night!
I'm soo not happy! For the last three weeks i have only lost 0.5lb when i've gone to my weigh in, 1lb a week i could cope with but 0.5lb? It hardly seems worth going to the meetings!
However i do feel that i have got my head around a few things this week, i've made some changes to how i was doing things and i feel more committed to my diet and exercise than i have been, so maybe that will show on the scales next week?
I hope so!!!
well now i'm going completely off topic but i had a weird talk with my hubbie last night, he's been in a foul mood since i started weight watchers and enough was enough i decided to have it out with him. I know he finds larger women attractive but i was thinking he meant curvey not overweight! Last night he told me that he knew when i was a size 22 and weighed over 18 stone that it was too large for me, that he could tell i wasn't happy and that i looked uncomfortable, but that he really likes how i look now and doesn't really want me to go below 16 stone. He says i seem happier now and more confident, i can get back into my size 18 clothes and that even though i was a smaller size when we met he finds me sexier as i am now.
Maybe i should be happy with that but i'm not, i don't want to settle as being a size 18 and 16 stone, i really do want to get down to 11 st 7 at the very least, i tried explaining this too him but he just doesn't get it (easy for him he's the right weight for his height and can eat whatever he wants), i tried explaining that the reason i'm happier and more confident is because the extra weight is slowly coming off and i feel like this time i can do it and get where i want to be!
We nearly ended up throwing things at each other it was that frustrating! His final comment hurt soo much that i've not actually spoke to him today! He told me that he loves me and always will, i'm the mother of his children and his wife, he just does't want to end up being one of those men who sleep around behind their wives backs because they just dont have any sexual attraction between them anymore, he doesn't think he will fancy me anymore if i lose more weight than he wants me too!!
How am i supposed to take that? I want to be thin and healthy but i dont want to lose my hubbie in the process!
Having set myself some targets actually seems to have made me more committed to my new lifestyle than i have been previously, just the thought of having to admit to everyone if i don't meet my targets has made me think twice about what i put in my mouth!
My plan is too
1. stick to my daily point allowance
2. Aim to walk 4500 steps every day this week
3. eat my 5 portions fruit and veg a day
4. drink 2 litres of water daily
5. avoid any sneaky peaking at the scales as only the weigh in ones count!
So far these haven't been too hard, i've started walking to the main bus stop to catch bus to work, instead off getting on at the bottom of my street as this gives me 3500 of my steps and saves me 50p a day in fares lol!
I spent alot of time last night thinking about this, i dont really have any goals at the moment, nothing that i'm losing weight for, no timescale in mind, nothing and no one to account to and how on earth can i or anybody else tell me i'm not achieving what i could be if im just saying 'i want to lose weight' without being abit more specific???
Now i'm already married, i've just started a new job, we wont be going on holiday this year, and so far it looks like its going to be the most uneventful year i've had in a long time so i'm going to set myself some mini goals just to give myself something to aim for!
I have decided to ignore any weight i lost before doing weight watchers and just stick to what gets tracked on my weigh in card!
1. To lose another 6.5 lb by Wednesday 29th April taking me to 16 st 7 lb, a whole stone lighter than when i started!
2. To lose 10% of my body weight by Wednesday 1st July taking me to 15 st 11 lb, 24 pounds lighter (think thats 112 sausages lighter lol) and hopefully back into a size 16
3. To lose another 4 lbs taking me to 15 st 7 lb by Wednesday 29th July, this is important to me because this is what i weighed on my wedding day before baby number 3 was conceived and i was happy then with how i looked then
My name's Michelle, i'm 25, i'm married with three children (all girls lol), and to be honest i have always struggled with my weight, i was the largest of all my friends at school (i was a size 14 at 16) and having three children and not losing the baby weight inbetween each one hasn't helped!
I've done various diets, joined the gym etc in the past but if im honest i've never actually given 100%, i seriously doubt my ability to stick to anything before i even start it and therefore i never really give anything a fair chance.
I've realised that this is my downfall and that i really need to change my attitude and the way i think, earlier this year i joined slimming world weighing in at 18 stone 4 pounds, i went twice, i tried to follow it at home and went down to 17 stone 7 pounds but realised that i just wasn't enjoying the diet, it seemed so time consuming and i felt i was spending way too much time in the kitchen and my portions were huge so I couldn't see it as being a long term plan, after talking to a friend i decided to join weight watchers on the 06/03/2008
I went to the first meeting all enthusiastic, bought my monthly pass, signed up to the internet, read the info and took myself down to Asda to stock up on healthy low point food, then i missed the next two meetings just because i couldn't be bothered walking down in the rain, the week after that i went and i'd lost 5 lb ( was happy with that ), and this week i'd lost another 2.5 lb.
Now don't get me wrong i'm not knocking a 7.5lb weight loss in 4 weeks, in fact i'm quite chuffed with it, i just can't help wondering how much better i would have done if i was sticking to it 100%! I don't think i've gone 3 days without cheating and i'm lucky if i've done 3000 steps a day never mind 10000!
-----------------------------------------------------------So this is it my line has been drawn, I need a really good kick up the backside and i am repeat I AM going to commit to this 100%
