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| Start weight: | 134.00lb |
| Current weight: | 117.60lb |
| Goal weight: | 110.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 16.40lb |
| Remaining: | 7.60lb |
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YAAAAY! Just had to say that I made it not only into the teens but flying through! WI yesterday was 117.6!! SOOOOO happy! Will write more after the weekend, headed to spend the weekend with Mom 
What a week!! Almost the minute after I posted last Monday I started feeling a little sick. By the end of the day, last Monday I had a raging fever of 102! This fever lasted until Friday, and never wavered below 101 even with aspirin and tons of antibiotics. I ended up having the flu with signs of pneumonia! I can't imagine how I became sick in the first place, but never in my life have I felt so lousy. Thankfully, except for a cough, I am all better now. Seriously, took me a while to recover though! The good news is I am still down, although I skipped last week's weigh in. I am curious to see what the scale reads Fri. My appetite while I was sick was very odd, I only craved saltines, OJ and ice cream. 
I indulged in all three. Weird I had not had a glass of juice in 4 or 5 months! Anyway, I should be fine and as of today am back on track! Must do groceries tomorrow and get back into the real world again! Although I didn't have an appetite, I must say it was nice to "eat what I craved" and ignore calories, etc. I'm back though and ready to continue on!! Must go for now but will be back tomorrow for a full story and to catch up with all you other EPers out there!!
Today I am feeling much better and moving forward. My goal is still to be down this week and that is what I am concentrating on, not "relationship problems." In case anyone is wondering, the issue is that we are at the point that we either go forward and get married or stop wasting each other's time. It's been about 4 years, he is 30, I am turning 30, blah blah ... While he is my best friend and we are two peas in a pod, I am still uncertain if he is "the one." I know no one is perfect, but I still do not know if he is "perfect for me"...so that's it in a nutshell. BUT, as I said, moving forward!
I know I said I was only going to eat JC but I couldn't resist trying Cedarlane's LF Garden Vegetable Enchiladas. At 280 calories for TWO enchiladas that is not bad!! They were quite good too! I made a salad and threw some Hot Green Mountain salsa on top with a dab of ff sour cream and the enchiladas on top. It was delish! For breakfast I had another chocolate GNU bar (yes, still not sick of them!), freeze-dried apricots (not as good as the pineapple) and a Fage yogurt. Also went to the gym this morning and did an hour of strength training. All in all, a MUCH better day!
Must get back to work but will update later!!
... of emotional eating. Every time I read about someone who has that problem, I sort of can't relate. Sadly, now I can. I've been "down" since yesterday and feel like the wind was taken out of my sails. It started Fri afternoon. Bf wanted to do happy hour and so I went, but did not want to drink (pointless afternoon calories). For some reason I was starving and opted for a salad with its own dressing and 1 scoop of tuna salad and 1 scoop of egg salad. I was ravenous and ate it all quickly feeling horribly guilty afterward. I might as well have had 5 glasses of wine, that probably would have been better 
. Later I had a handful of almonds and 3 sesame crackers with Boursin cheese. I don't know what came over me?? I know it doesn't sound terrible, like I didn't have a big Mac or anything, but it really truly did add up to a lot of calories. Oh, and to top it off I was feeling down and out since I didn't go to the gym.
Yesterday, had a horrible *fight* with my bf (we never fight) and am thinking about ending our relationship. It's been almost 4 years, but I think maybe he is not *the one.* I want to refocus on eating, etc., but can't stop focusing on "what to do" about our relationship. My girlfriends and I went out to dinner (I was good all day and played in a tennis tournament) and I was okay ordering, but again was ravenous and ate 2 1/2 mini french bread buns. The rest of my dinner was fine, chicken and veggies. Then, to top it off I drank a glass of champagne and 3 energy drinks later...I didn't want to be a downer and go home, so I drank them. I have no idea how many calories were in them, but I am sure there was a lot - and a lot of sugar. I know I shouldn't weigh myself, but I do, every morning. I am up a pound. And, my scale is exactly accurate to that of JC. I hope its not too late to salvage the week?? I don't want my bf to responsible for anything but a weight loss.
The *fight* (I hate using that word, b/c its not really accurate, more like conversation that is leading us in opposite directions) is all I can think about and is leaving me sad, sad enough that I sort of don't care about the weight loss at the moment. This is also the first time I have felt this way since I began. I know this is bad and I need to refocus my energy and think about myself and should motivate to get in better shape, especially if we do end up permanently splitting...but I see now, for the first time what it is like to feel like wanting to give up.
Having said that, I actually feel a little better. I am not going to give up. I am going to try to keep busy, playing in a round robin in a couple hours. I am going to refocus and try to keep my mind off things and be happy about my progress and look forward to progressing more...It's just that he was my biggest cheerleader in my weight loss journey and of course, my best friend and I feel a void right now. I have no one to tell about my eating for the day or exercising for the day, etc. I guess I just need to stand on my own two feet and do it for myself. I admit (although I don't want to), a part of me, did do it for him...girly of me to say, I know.
Well, today is a new day and I am going to really concentrate on "being good." Just had a chocolate GNU bar, banana, and Fage with a sprinkle of Fiber One. I am going to put my relationship issue on the back burner for the day and think about other things and am going to motivate to get back on track - somehow! Thanks for listening...have a great Sunday everyone!! I hope my next post is more upbeat!
Happy Friday everyone! Ugh just lost my long post, so annoying!
So this morning I had my weigh in and am a little disappointed - I am down a .5 lb. Yes, it's a step in the right direction, but it's just soooo slow!! My consultant said - again - its because of all the exercise and again she suggested upping my protein. Maybe I should take her advice this week? I am going to experiment by eating all the JC boxes still in my freezer and staying away from MOMOs. Although I love cooking and was enjoying my own fresh-cooked meals, I do tend to undereat my calories -- just in case. Silly, I know, but I have found so many ways to cook with less calories. But, that may be my downfall, so I am willing to experiment. My freezer is overloaded with boxes anyway!
Also, I am going to add a 130 calorie protein shake to my morning routine before my workouts and see if that helps any. Its worth a shot. If I don't lose more than a .5 lb this week though, I am going to back to my old ways and will just lose slowly. At least it is losing and I least I feel a whole lot healthier than when I started JC. I just wish I could speed up the process a little bit! I know, we all wish that. Okay, enough complaining...
Question for you JC-ers...have any of you found a replacement for the Anytime Bars? I know some suggest the Pria 110 calorie bars, but I find them chalky. I need a bar with the same nutritional benefits as the JC bars and at around 110 calories. I liked - no loved - the cookies and cream JC bars, but they are gone, at least for now. Also, when I am no longer a member of JC (probably 2 months from now) I would like something to replace the bars. I am addicted to chocolate GNU bars for breakfast at the moment, but still need a mid-morning snack with equivalent vitamins. Any suggestions are much appreciated!!
So I found the lazy way to eat fruit! At least its a good way if I am in the car or on the road. I don't like brown bananas so I can't transport them in my bag b/c they bruise, and I like only cut apples and can't do that while I'm driving. Silly, I know. Anyway, these Crispy Green freeze-dried fruits are surprisingly delicious! I found them this morning at Fresh Market and something possessed me to buy them. I had the pineapple on my way home mixed in with my Fage yogurt and it really was quite good! I am not sure I would buy them all the time, but they are nice to have on hand! -- especially if you are on the go!
Good to know I can still eat my bananas. I've looked everywhere online and although SB Diet doesn't allow bananas until Phase 3, I don't see why I have to stay away from them? Still, I am going to experiment. I have no more bananas right now and on Fri (supermarket shopping day, post-weigh-in) I am not going to buy any and see if there is a difference in the % of weight loss. If not, it's back to bananas for me! By the way, I read about the banana thing on the JC message board, I will also ask my consultant Friday. Oh, I was not substituting them for a snack, they were part of my 2 fruits for the day...sometimes I even ate 2 a day!
Did anyone watch WorkOut? Poor Doug. I was so sad last night..it's amazing how someone can be so fit and yet at a moment's notice get so sick. He seemed like such a nice person and really cared about his clients and friends.
As for me and the gym, I need to get my butt there now. Did weights for 45 min yesterday and treadmill for an hour. Probably same today. So annoying though when some people just go to the gym to chit chat with each other or on their cell phones. It distracts me SO much. It's just so inconsiderate to the other people working out!
Oh, discovered another favorite lunch...A flatout tuna sandwich using FlatOut bread (spinach light), a little hummus, sprouts, and veggies, with Bumble Bee Sensations Lemon Pepper tuna packs. The packs with the crackers are also good if you are on the road, just throw it on top of a salad or grab a piece of fruit and some carrots to add to it.
Dinner last night was seasoned Tilapia, a small scoop of brown rice, and steamed sugar snap peas with slivered almonds. This has become a staple dinner for me lately, I need to switch it up before I get sick of it! I had pineapple and another triple chocolate cheesecake for dessert. I let it thaw a little more this time and enjoyed it even more!
Question for you Californians and/or New Yorkers...have any of you incorporated Pinkberry yogurt into your diets? I can't find the nutritional information on it for some reason??
Time for the gym...Tootles!
Is it true we are not encouraged to eat more than 2 bananas a week?? When I started JC in Jan I stayed away from them, but as of the last month I incorporated them in again and eat about 4 a week!! Yikes, say it isn't so!! 
Hope everyone had a great weekend! I'm not really sure why my JC lady wanted me to eat more? I guess I told her I burn about 500 calories at the gym and she said that if I'm eating 1200 I'm only taking in 700. While this may be true, I don't feel hungry and I am short at 5'2" and I eat tons and tons of veggies. Maybe she is right, but it's not like my body is holding on to the weight, it knows its not in starvation b/c I am still losing albeit gradually. She told me my loss was slow, but I am on pace at 1.12 lbs a week, which falls right in the middle of "healthy weight loss." Until it stops, I am sticking to it! As a side note, although I feel I have come so far, I realize I am just about halfway! Still, I feel so much better and am just losing to feel better, I am over the "I feel so fat" stage, so I guess that's good.
In other news, the bf is back and after a number of weeks away could not stop giving the compliments. It was specific too, as I can tell here and there, etc. I am pleased the loss is finally noticeable! Sometimes it is difficult to tell, but like most women jeans say it all! I have jeans ranging from 27 to 29 and when I started this I wore the 29s (the largest I've ever worn) and tight in 28s. Honestly, I think this is what finally propelled me into JC. Jeans are my favorite piece of clothing and I confess to having stacks and stacks of them. I said enough is enough...Now I am back in 27s and feeling good again. My goal though is to be down to a 26 this time.
Funny thing I used to blame being slightly "curvy" on my Mom's side of being Italian. A few days ago after I told her my goal weight of 110 she told me that she remembers when she was 103! I've seen pictures of her when she is younger and I knew she was slim, but 103? Was that possible? Then I said I remember being 103, when I was in CAMP! She told me she was 103 two years, AFTER I was born, meaning at my age now!! There goes my whole theory!! I have no one to blame but myself! I am soooo glad I am finally doing something about it!
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UPDATE:
The new JC triple chocolate cheesecake was surprisingly good and chocolatey! I think I like it better than the other b/c of the small chocolate chips, I just like the texture of crunching into a little something. It was rich, which I happen to like. I think I would order it again! Two thumbs up!
Down another 1lb., yay! Just came back from WI where I bought the new triple choc cheesecake. Looks good, I'll review later. My consultant suggested I up my calories to 1500 and said that is why I am losing so slow. She may be right, but I just can't wrap my arms around the idea of upping my calories to lose more. I know its silly and I should probably listen, but I just can't do it. I told her I would eat an extra banana on those days but she said protein is better, so eat an egg or a small can of tuna instead. That, I can handle, but every day 1500 I just can't. It really is silly though, that I wont even try it. Still, I've been losing so far, so why change things up?
Good morning everyone! Had a great day yesterday -- UNTIL dinner First off I had egg whites on a 100 cal English Muffin with hot salsa and half a Morningstar (veggie) sausage, with yogurt and berries. For lunch I made a mini pizza (yes, again!) with cauliflower popcorn (except I substitute salt for Mrs. Dash table blend and lots of basil) and my mid-afternoon snack was a banana. At 7pm I played tennis with my girlfriend who I used to play with back in high school. It was so nice to be back on the court and after a rusty start felt like I can get back in the groove again! I wonder how many calories that burned? I will have to look that up. I didn't go to the gym as I had planned, but wasn't feeling too guilty until dinner.
My Dad wanted to take me out and I picked my favorite Italian. Now old-me never ordered anything there except Penne Arrabiata -- seriously the best in town. New-me ordered an Organic salad with white beans, tuna, carrots, and celery. Two things though, first I forgot to ask for no dressing and two I couldn't resist the bread...Again, the guilt is SOOO not worth the fleeting joy of the bread. To top it off, I drizzled oil on it, yes oil. I don't know why I do that? I was all set ordering the salad, trying not to think about my beloved penne, and instead I gobbled away on the bread. I really really hope my poor decision is not reflected on the scale this week. I've been making a concerted effort to lose more than a pound this week, just like last week. My bf has been out of town and I'd really like him to come back and notice a difference. He is super encouraging and really sings praises, but I know it's not easy to notice weight loss on someone you see every day. After a couple weeks, though, I hope it's hard NOT to notice! We will see, I have a few more days before his return!
Today's meals were:
Breakfast: (Before Gym) Fage yogurt with diced banana, flaxseed and a dash of Fiber One (just for the crunch!) and (After Gym) a Fiber One Oats & Chocolate granola bar
Snack: Anytime Bar
Lunch: Chicken with noodles mixed with Better'n PB and lots of steamed broccoli and half a Cocoa Via Crispy Bar (just to satisfy my sweet tooth)
Snack: Veggie chips made from zucchini and roasted asparagus
Snack #2: Celery with hot salsa and a few carrots
Dinner: Tonight I played tennis again and really was not hungry for dinner, but I knew I had to eat. I made a Flat Out Light Garden Spinach wrap (90 cal, not on their main website, but you can order it) with a tablespoon of hummus, sprouts, celery, red peppers, tomatoes, carrots and cucumbers. Yum!
Dessert: Smart Ones Mississippi Mud Pie (first time having it, enjoyed it!) - I have searched high and low for the Blue Bunny ice cream, but can only find the bars I am on a mission though, I'll find it!!
Ugh, right now my legs are REALLY sore. I did weights with my trainer for 45 and treadmill for 45 then tennis tonight. I better see results. The anticipation for WI is crazy, isn't it? Sometimes I think its on my mind TOO much, but then I remember, its better to be on my mind TOO much than not at all, as in my past. Old-me, would down a plate of pasta they way I eat veggies now. Pasta, good bread, good french fries, and chocolate are my weaknesses. I rather acknowledge them and limit them and be happy about my figure and health!
