Stress Eating Has Caught Up With Me

So, I have been feeling a little plumper than usual.  Avoiding the scale, I ate my way through one very stressful month.  The damage is done.  I weighed in this a.m. at 237.5.  Ouch!  6.5 lbs in just one month of eating like a rhino and not exercising.  I have one week before I return to work and two weeks before school begins.  I plan to drop this before I meet up again with my personal trainer.  Dumb way to handle anxiety.  Next time, I will do it differently.  I will leave the house to have my cheat-o-rama so that social pressure will prevent me from going hog wild at some restaurant.  I will also use exercise to soothe the stress.   I am filled with so much regret.  Rather than wallow in my muckiness, I will go to the gym and the grocery store and put my life back on track.

Two Weeks of Slacking

I have been through some major stress and anxiety lately.  Still no excuse to get lazy.  Training and cardio usually rid me of the tension.  This time, it came between me and my relationship with the YMCA.  After seeing the story of David Smith on Yahoo, this a.m.  I am inspired to get back on it.

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Goal
Purpose:  My weight will be reduced by 100lbs.
Deadline:  October 2008
Action Steps:  Eating four meals, four hours apart which range between 300 and 400 calories each.  They will be comprised of a lean protein, veggie, and a complex carbohydrate.  I will also exercise for at least one hour everyday at 85% of my maximum heart rate.  I will strength train using free weights three times per week.
Obstacles: cold weather, negative self talk, sickness, school work, full time job
Solutions to Obstacles: bundle up and focus on how I won't be ashamed to show my legs in a dress or shorts, replace with positive self talk, take preventative medicine, do school work ASAP, plan ahead

Mini Goal
Purpose:  By December 20, I will lose 10lbs.

Future Goal
Country Music Marathon and 5K in April 2008

There's Something Happening Here

This is what I thought and began to hum as I looked at myself before getting into the tub this a.m. It ain't pretty but it is far from the same old body that I've been living with for years. Skin isn't pulled taught with excess fat. It's hanging loose which means that fat is disappearning from me. Finally. Thank, God. Hallelujah! I have been hit or miss with my eating lately. I got on the scale yesterday for the first time in three weeks. I wasn't any different than at my last weigh in. I had maintained despite the occasionally binge of a slice of cake or a little more bread or cheese or whatever. I'm not condoning my behavior; I am merely acknowledging that on the road to change there are potholes, limbs and other obstacles. Oh, and my body fat has dropped 2 %. Woo, hoo!

I'm No Longer Twenty?

I went out last night in an attempt to play matchmaker between my professor and best friend from high school. I drank way, way too much. I am trying to do pennance today. 30 minutes of strength training after 30 minutes of cardio.

Deja Vous

I lost 1.4 lbs last week. Hardly earth shattering, but I will take it. It is another week filled with regrets. My husband has been out of town for the last three days. Why is this the green light to eat everything in sight? I have done pennance by going without food all day today. I do have a low-fat pork roast in the slow cooker. I don't know why one eats when they miss someone. Food does not equal a human.

Deja Vous

I lost 1.4 lbs last week. Hardly earth shattering, but I will take it. It is another week filled with regrets. My husband has been out of town for the last three days. Why is this the green light to eat everything in sight? I have done pennance by going without food all day today. I do have a low-fat pork roast in the slow cooker. I don't know why one eats when they miss someone. Food does not equal a human.

Biting the Proverbial Bullet

Last Monday I decided that I wasn't going to take it anymore. I have to get the weight off within the upcoming year. I am under copious amounts of stress with work, school and teaching. I am deal with it through exercise. I ate way over my points values last night. I am up at 9 today and ready to go in work some extra hours (see above sentence about being overloaded). I have not worked out at all this week other than walking the dogs on Monday night. I am little nervous about the upcoming weigh-in but know that overall, I ate less this week than I had last week. I have kept off 16 lbs for a year. I will try to focus on that rather than what I haven't been able to lose since last November. Here's too new beginnings! Again!

NEGATIVE NELLY

I have been eating away my depression and anxiety since last Tuesday. You see, something that I thought was going to happen in my near future took a detour. In addition to that, I had another surprise regarding a presentation I had prepared for a conference not showing up on the schedule. Two blows in less than 12 hours were more than I could take. I should be working on a 10 page paper but am tired of spending my weekends doing work. Aaargh! What is wrong with me? I know that I need to exercise for my own mental health. In addition to being down, I am sick with some sort of upper respiratory infection. This is the last week of classes so if I can just make it until Thursday, I will be doing alright. As of this a.m. I am sticking to my weightloss program. I read Alexis' story for further inspiration and know that I can do this. I just need a coping mechanism that has nothing to do with food.

2.5 Down

That amount of weight can drop into my bucket every week and I would not be disappointed. Hallelujah. I did not exercise this week because I am overwhelmed with projects and presentations. I honestly think that stress and burning the oil (midnight or all day) really affects our bodies. Amazing. I have been watching my calorie intake and alternating between 1500 and 2000 with most days being somewhere in the middle or closer to 1500. I don't know what is different this time, it is almost as if I have snapped except in a more positive direction. Thanks for the support and feedback.