Quest for Success

I have to believe in myself that I CAN do this!

My Profile

  • Name: Endurer
  • City: Washington
  • Region: Arkansas
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 167.6cm
Start weight: 207.00lb
Current weight: 199.20lb
Goal weight: 165.00lb
Lost to date: 7.80lb
Remaining: 34.20lb

My Calendar

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Before After

Still here, still fighting

Wow!  I just realized that it's been about 5 months since I've posted!  How's everyone doing?  I've been keeping up with some of you on Google Reader, but that's about it.   I miss you all.  I don't know why I go away and stay so long! 
I was doing very well with going to the gym about 5 days a week for an hour or an hour and a half at a time.  I was doing the strength training 3 times a week, and then what happens?   SCHOOL STARTS!!   My son is now in high school and playing football.  If there are any other high school sports moms out there, I know you can feel my pain!  So I'm lucky to get to the gym at all now.  I do at least try to go on Saturdays and Sundays; something is better than nothing.  My weight is holding steady at about 199 so at least I'm still in Onederland!
I promise to stop by more often.  I need the encouragement and support from you ladies, and I have to give it back to you in return.  I won't be such a stranger from now on.  You all hang in there! 

When is the scale gonna move?

Good morning, EP!  How's it going for ya'?
It's been about 3 weeks since I've started hittin the gym hard like a maniac, and yep, you guessed it--the scale is not moving!  Even if I did not change my eating habits at all (which I really haven't), the huge increase in cardio and weights should be doing something.  But alas--nothing.  I'm not giving up, though.  I think I'm becoming addicted to my gym. I love that place.  There's always something fun and challenging going on there. 
I already know what my problem is.  Same story, different day----MY SWEET TOOTH.   I do great with my food, but after eating, my sweet tooth starts acting up and it is bad!! I have armed myself recently with sugarless gum to help curb the cravings, so we'll see if that helps.  I have to do something! In the meantime, I have found my new motto:
That's cute, huh? 
I've been working out 5 days a week for at least an hour, plus last Saturday I walked/ran a 5k.  I did okay.  My left calf was aching like crazy and for some reason, after about a mile and half, my right foot and leg went to sleep!  How in the heck does that happen?!  That lasted for almost a whole mile. I was scared to run during that time because I really could not feel my foot and I thought I might fall over flat on my face!  It's Springtime, so there are plenty of other races to choose from.  The Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure is next month so I have to get ready for that one. 
Have a great weekend, and to all the mommies, Happy Mother's Day!!

This week's plan

 Man, I can't wait for my arms to look like this chick's!
Anyway, the scale was down 2 pounds from last week but I celebrate cautiously.  My scale does not like me and could very well be up 5 pounds next week!
The plan for this week:
Monday: Zumba (1 hour), weights (30 mins)
Tuesday: Boot Camp (1 hour)
Wednesday: Rest (I need it after boot camp!)
Thursday: Kickboxing (1 hour), weights (30 mins)
Friday: walk/run 2.5 miles, weights (30 mins)
Saturday: Girls on the Run 5K Race
Sunday: Rest
Yes, you read that right--I have a race on Saturday.  Am I fully trained for it?  Nope!  But I'm going anyway, and I'm going to enjoy it!  I did complete all 5 days of exercise last week, but probably undid it all with the way I ate this weekend.  I must do better!  Weekends are not party days!  
Hope your weekend was better than mine! Have a happy Monday! 

Boot Camp

 Remember a few weeks ago, when my mojo was MIA and I mentioned that I needed a boot camp to get my boot-tay in gear?  Well, ask and you shall receive!  I looked on the monthly activity calendar at the gym, and lo and behold, there's a 6-week bikini boot camp!  It started yesterday and will be (only) 1 day a week for 6 weeks.  Now yesterday was supposed to be my running day, but I could not miss out on boot camp!
Now, the devil on my shoulder has been whispering to me the whole time "You can't do it!".  So, I get there and as usual, I'm the biggest one in my class.  It's full of tiny, perky 20-year olds and a few older ladies with a little weight on them, but I clearly have the furthest to go. **You can't do it****
The instructor breaks us up into 2 groups, and takes each group into the classroom and explains the class.  Now get this--she says there will be sweating, crying and throwing up!  Did this heffa just say "throwing up"?  Huh? ***You can't do it***   2 girls did walk out at that point but I was determined to stick it out and at least see if I could do it.  I have NEVER backed down from a challenge and I was for dang sure not gonna start now!
Ladies, this little 90-pound, 4'8" instructor lady kicked our tails!!!!  Running, push-ups, jumping jacks, jump rope, climbing over picnic tables, step-ups on the picnic tables, wall squats, regular squats, lunges, running up and down a (very steep) hill, mountain climbers on the ground, more jumping jacks, medicine ball abdominal workout, and for the grand finale--more running!  I looked like I had been in the woods fighting lions and tigers and bears when I got done!  Shirt drenched and dirty, knees filthy, hair wet--just a HAM (hot azz mess)!
You know what, though?  I loved every minutes of it!  I will be there every Tuesday at 6:30, sweating and panting, but I'll be there.  Not giving up.  So take that, devil!  I win!

The Week in Review

As I look back over last week, I must say that I am extremely proud of myself.  I can't believe I waited so long to join the YMCA--me and my whole family love it!  We have been almost everyday since we joined and there is literally something for each one of us to do.  It is fantastic!  Here's a recap of my exercise last week:

Monday: 30 minutes on the treadmill with incline
Tuesday: 1-hour CardioFit class (very fun!)
Wednesday: 1-mile run/walk at the track
Thursday: 1-hour Kickboxing class (Wow!  That's all I can say! )
Friday: free day
Saturday: 1-mile run/walk on treadmill, 30 minutes of upper-body weights, and 10 minutes of ab work
Sunday: today I'm planning a free day but if something comes up, I'll be sweating again today!

Now keep in mind that on the weekdays, that this is what I did after work. During my lunch break I also walk a mile around a loop at work.  So in my mind I've done pretty good!

My plan for this week is to increase my run/walks to 2 miles on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and do an exercise class on the other days.  I can't wait to try the Zumba and cycling classes.  I'll let you know how those go! 

Foodwise, I had been doing great until Friday and Saturday.  Let's just call Friday the candy catastrophe and Saturday the cake chaos.  I won't even fill in the gory details--I just promise to do better! 

Take care, my fellow EPers!  Happy Sunday!

The chocolate pie

 Yesterday one of my coworkers brought in a fresh-baked chocolate chess pie that her mom had made for Easter.  Well, as we all know, sweets are my weakness.  Not only did I have a slice for breakfast (I know--bad! ) but I had a slice after lunch, took the rest home because she didn't want it, and had another slice after dinner.  Why, oh why did I take that pie home!   Thank goodness I was at least able to go to the Y after work and burn a little of it off!
The scale was down 2 pounds this morning from yesterday so I wonder where that pie went?  It may be hiding out and will show up on the scale in a day or so.  One thing I do know though, is eventually, it will show up!  I don't get to eat half a dang pie with no consequences! 
I'm doing much better today, at least.  Very well actually.  Just got finished with a walk at lunch time and I plan to go to an exercise class and do upper body weights at the Y tonight. 
I've got my mojo back folks--let's do the dang thang!

It's my Anniversary!!

Six years ago today on a very beautiful and sunny Spring day, I married my husband.  We have had some great times and some not-so-great times, but I thank God for him. I wouldn't trade my family for anything in this world, and today, on the day that we are also celebrating Jesus' ultimate sacrifice for us, I am also celebrating my anniversary. 

Monica and Shane

The "EB" is our little love signature

Have an awesome Easter Sunday

P.S.  Yes, I am now a member of the YMCA!!  Can't wait to go tomorrow after work!

Today is MY day!

 You know, as mothers we sometimes put the well-being of others before our own. That's okay to do on occasion, but we have got to learn that if we don't take care of ourselves first, we will be no good to anyone else. 
I have been putting off joining the YMCA for over a year.  Yeah, it's a pretty steep cost but it's something that if I really wanted to do, I could have done it.  Well, you know how it goes--we need this for the house, we need a new lawnmower, we need new furniture, yadda yadda yadda.  Well all that stuff can wait!
Mama needs to do what she needs to do to get my workout on, rain or shine, sunny or snowy!  So, my plan is to stop by the Y on the way home and become a member. That way I'll be in the car by myself and won't have anyone to talk me out of it!   I'll keep you posted tomorrow on what happens. 
I've been doing pretty well with eating lately.  I try not to eat after 7 pm, but I think that may be a little too early, seeing as how I don't go to bed most nights until after midnight.  I'm used to eating/snacking every 3 hours during the day, so that's about 5 hours of no food at night. Not good! I guess my body just needs to get used to it.  That remains to be seen.
Well, that's all I've got.  Happy losing!

The Wedding Dress

So, Saturday night I was watching an episode of the Biggest Loser on some channel (not NBC) and they were showing what I guess is an older episode of TBL.  I don't even know if it's this season's or not, but it was the one where Nicole was eliminated.  They then showed her trying on wedding gowns after elimination and when they showed her comparison pic going from a size 24 to a size 16 gown, I just lost it!  I don't know what came over me all of a sudden--I was crying like a baby!   So I just prayed and poured my heart out of God and confessed that I cannot do this by myself.  I am going to need His love and kindness to get through this.
I then had the idea that I would love to go to some sort of "boot camp" in order to get a jumpstart on my weight loss.  I did a little research and found a camp in the mountains of N.C. called Wellspring. It looks like it will be great fun....until I looked at the price.  Almost $4000 for 8 days?!?  Don't think so!!!!   So if anyone knows of anything similar for much less dinero, let me know!  I'm up for the challenge. 
Well, it's Monday.  We all know what reputation Monday has--start-over day!  I'm just going to do the best I can do.  I plan to go running during my lunch break (can you say sweaty mess?!).  I'm still not eating much meat and I'm going to do my absolute best to cut down eating sweets dramatically!  (Pray for me, especially since TOM's here!  )
Have a great day! 

The words people say

 This picture has absolutely nothing to do with my post today--I just think it's so cute! 
Anyway, I was reading today's post on one of my  favorite blogs and she was talking about basically erasing the negative things that people have said to us about our weight and replacing them with the kind and loving Word of God.  I got to thinking about this, and immediately 2 incidences came to mind, both of which have to do with past male friends saying something about my weight. Now mind you, they didn't say it in a mean way whatsoever, but it hurt.  I never realized how much it affected me until today.  These hurtful things are constantly playing in my head! 
Also, when all of my family gets together, I look around at all of the women in my family and 99% of them are obese or morbidly obese.  I think to myself--perhaps this is just my destiny.  How in the world do you beat the genes that were passed down to you? But you know what?  Numbers do not lie.  If you put out more calories than you take in, you'll lose weight. Period.  I think it's harder for some than others though.  I still haven't figured my body out; just what will make this weight drop and stay gone?  What do I need to do to increase my metabolism?  And last, but most importantly, how can I kill this sweet tooth?  That's my biggest downfall--sweets.  You know how a recovering crackhead can't just have a little bit of drugs and still stay sober?  I'm thinking I'm going to have to let these sweets go completely and cold turkey.   I'll think about that for a while.
It's going to be a beautiful weekend here and I wish the same for you!  You all have a great one and I'll be in touch!  Take care and happy losing!
Edit: I just noticed that EP has my location as Arkansas!  I don't live there!  I've tried to go in and change my settings but it won't save it.  How can I fix this?!?!