In the last 6 months I have lost and gained 25 pounds. UGH!!! I am totally disgusted with myself and I have nobody to blame but me. I went back to old eating habits even worse than they were before. It's terrible.
All I can do is buck up and move forward. I've vowed to start eating healthy dinners prepared in advance by me so there will be no wondering what's for dinner when we get home from work. That just leads to pizza or chinese or whatever else is terrible for us. NO MORE.
So unhappy with the big backwards movement, but all I can do from here is press forward and get back to a healthier me. Pat has agreed to go for a walk with me after work tonight so that will be a good thing. We need to start doing that nightly. I love that he supports me in this.
(Not to mention that he's also put on some weight). I guess living together does that to you unless you're careful. Well from now on we're going to be on top of this darn food crap!
I can't believe it's already October. I don't know where the end of summer went...except to say that it went back on my body!!!
We had to have a pay cut at work, which is why I stopped going to Jenny Craig. But since then I haven't been able to keep up the momentum. I really needed that weekly weigh-in and support.
So it sucks and I'm back up to 203.2 as of last Thursday. And after this weekend and what I've got planned this week I don't think it's going to get any better.
Ugh. I need to get my life under control. All aspects of my life.
Yeah, totally moved backwards over the past month.
There have been a lot of things affecting my life quite negatively. First we had a 25% pay cut which meant I needed to stop Jenny Craig. There was no way I could afford that with the pay cut.
Then my fiance moved in. While on the surface this seems like a very good thing (and it is) it's made my weight take a step back. I've taken to eating like him again and since we've been so busy with the move we've done a lot of eating at restaurants lately. NOT GOOD.
Yesterday marked the 365 day mark until our wedding. I do not want to weigh 203.2 pounds on my wedding day. SO...
I need to get back under control. I'm weighing in on Thursdays at home and I'm tracking it. I'm going to continue blogging about it because I have to. If I'm talking about it then I'm thinking about it.
So is this a start over date? More of a back on track date. I'm upset about the weight I've put on, but the only thing I can do now is work hard to get it off. And more.
Well...due to some financial issues I've had to stop going to Jenny Craig. I'm sad. I'm going to miss it. I always looked forward to the weigh-in and the meeting with Beth.
Now I'm going it alone. I've made some bad food choices this week, but I'm done with that. We've had a stressful week and some late nights that didn't correspond well to healthy eating. But that's over and now I can stay on track.
Pat mentioned this morning that he wants to start exercising. We need to. Maybe we could just go walk around the track or something. It's not very fun, but it works
So that's what's going on. The wedding planning is still coming along, although I've had to stop putting money away for that as well. For now I'm trying to live as cheaply as possible. It sucks, but I know we'll get through this.
Oh - and Pat is moving in soon. That will be good...and weird. I've never lived with anyone. Yikes!
Wow. I just have to say that I honestly did not expect to lose this week, but I'm beyond thrilled that I did!
This weekend was rough with a bridal shower on Saturday and a family reunion on Sunday. Tons of food and drinks, but I guess I didn't do too badly.
My scales were still up at home - but I only officially go by the Jenny Craig scale (it's actually the heaviest one anyway).
195.1 feels great. And it was my second goal to hit. I am 0.3 pounds away from losing 10% of my start weight and I can tell a difference.
So now I need to set a third goal. My lowest weight on weight watchers was 185.2. That is 9.9 pounds from where I am now. So that's my next goal to hit. Lose 10 more pounds and be at the lowest weight I can remember being at as an adult.
I am still following the plan pretty closely, although sometimes I substitute a Healthy Choice dinner or a salad at a restaurant. I drink a TON of water. I eat bunches of fruits.
I also went back to the gym twice this week. I'm no gym princess by any stretch of the imagination. It's HARD for me. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I also jogged for 3 of those minutes. It wasn't easy. I'm hoping that it will get easier.
I want to meet with the trainer there because I would really like to work on my arms. I know that I'll need to do weights in order to tone them up, but I don't know where to start. I am hoping they can guide me.
Life is amazing. The wedding plans are coming along, slowly. I'm getting my condo ready for Pat to move in. Life is just so great. I hope you're all doing as well as I am! Even better!
I wanted to be at 195 today...but I'm not stressed. Actually my initial time frame for being at 195 was 7/26 so I shouldn't beat myself up since I upped the weeks.
I am beyond thrilled with my 1.2 pound loss this week and my overall 20.3 pound loss. Life is GREAT!
I am also going back to the gym next week on Tues & Thurs (at least).
I think I did ok. Pat's scale flipped between 189.5 and 189 this morning! Yippee! When I weighed in last week I think it was at 191 so maybe it will be around 2 pounds. That would be awesome!
I'll update after weigh-in, of course!
Oh - and this morning when I was getting dressed I actually looked at myself side view in the full length mirror. I didn't hate what i saw. Yes, I still have a lot to lose, but this was the first time that I thought I looked kind of ok. This is huge!
Down another 2.2 for a total loss of 18.6! I'm in ONEderland again!!
My mini-goal is to be 195 by July 19th and today (July 5th) I'm 197.9 so I think I can lose those pesky 3 pounds and hit my goal! Then I need to set the big goal....
The morning I weighed in at JC, Pat's scale said 195.5 and I was 200.1 on the JC scale. Of course there would be a difference due to clothes and scale accuracy and food/water consumption. But the great thing is that yesterday morning, Pat's scale said 191! WHAT? Holy! I certainly hope that correlates to the JC scale.
I am bummed this morning because I forgot my All Bran at home. Yes, I'm an old lady that needs the fiber in her diet! Hey, I swear the stuff is delicious with some fresh strawberries or blueberries or a banana and some splenda. Breakfast is a treat for me!
So I ate a yogurt and some green beans. Yes, I am a nut. But my weirdness has allowed me to lose 16 pounds without feeling deprived or upset or anything like that. I guess it's just changing the way I'm thinking.
Not to mention that I want to look smokin hot in my wedding gown next year.
Oh - and I danced on my DDR for 30 minutes last night. My first time exercising. Hopefully I'll get to it again this week.
I'm down to 200.1. I swear that "1" is getting so close I can taste it! And it tastes like Jenny Craig food!
This is a total of 16.4 and it's awesome. I'm so happy and Pat is proud of me and it's great.
It's definitely a struggle, but it's so worth it.
I NEED to figure out how to get some exercise in though. Maybe I should walk the stairs in my building at lunch or something. I need something to fit into my day, that's just the type of person I am and I really hate all physical activity.
But for now I'm losing with the food changes, so this is a good thing! I'm feeling so much better and I can't wait to wear those skinny jeans in my closet.
OH - I did wear one pair two weekends ago. Granted they were the bigger of the skinny jeans, but I still hadn't been in them in almost a year! It felt great!
