02/20/2007 19:14
One more day past
What the F !!
I wrote a long text about today and all has disappeared !
That's totally strange !
then i cut the B.S and just write about my eating habit today :
Breakfast: One fiber bread two glass of chocolate milk
Lunch: spaghetti yummmi
Dinner: salad include tomato, rocola, javoneh, cucumber umm :)
Snacks: candies at 20pm
And what is going on btw me and my feelings? they are just fine, it was like i began to miss my luv in the afternoon, when it was so romantically snowing outside and we both love snow and always called another when its snowing, and i missed him a lot then. I just laid back and let my rules decide over me, the rules is simple:
play with my mobile game, then i will forget my feeling ! and it does work :)
and after an hour i just went out for a 20 minutes walk, to feel the cold whether and the feeling of being lonely.. oh i certainly don´t want to go back those days.
Now i just want this week be over, if we hadn´t fight over stupid ski, he would follow us now to on night carouse to Finland ! now he wont ! But I will go to visit him on Sunday to talk and find out about what is in his mind ? if he has been feeling who is it to be alone here by nobody in Stockholm ? and if he find other ways for us to make things works.
I have to think myself more, the bad things with my emotions are, that I´m always calm in the beginning of the circle, by time passing, like one or two months, then real feelings catches up with my heart ! so i´m not sure if i can trust on what my heart and minds says right now ! from my past relations and experienced, i would definitely say that the depression period will comes ! but maybe i have grown up enough to handle this ?? WHO KNOWS !!
God bless all in love couples :) I love NOT to be SINGLE !
Good night