Week 16, Day 3 - The Medical Saga Continues

I am STILL sick!! Can you believe it???  I'm bummed and pissed about this whole damned mess. I have been sick in one form or another for over 7 weeks now. It started out as a basic cold right after I got home from St. Louis in February. Then it moved into my lungs. I was almost better. Then I started with this whole deal of being lightheaded, dizzy and nauseas around March 28. That's what I'm STILL fighting.  I'm tired of it already!!!

No one knows what's wrong yet.  At least not definitively.  I went back see to my own doc on Monday last week (the 14th). She put me on prednisone.  After 5 days, it did absolutely nothing for me.  So now I have an appointment on Wednesday for a brain CT.  And then I'll have an appointment with a specialist later in the week.

Unfortunately, bad thoughts have been haunting me since I was told I had to have the CT. I've slept horribly the last two nights because I keep dreaming that they find brain tumors during the stupid scan.  It's enough to drive me crazy.  And make me thankful that my ducks are all in a row if something bad really does happen.  My will and trust are up to date and I have loads of insurance (health ins, short and long term disability, and life ins).  Ugh!! I wish I could get these stupid crappy thoughts out of my head and convince myself that it's just an ear infection and it will go away eventually.

I'm not convinced.