Figuring Out Myself

I think I've discovered the problem.  There isn't a problem.  Not a single, solitary one.  This is just how I operate, but now that I'm aware of it...I'm very aware of the problems that come with it.

I've been reading some personality books lately.  I was pegged (and rightly so) as a "scanner" or "renaissance" person.  In addition to that, I do things in cycles, I do a lot of things at once, I am very passionate about the things that I undertake.  However, being that I'm cyclical, I get bored when the excitement wears off.  I move on to something else, seemingly randomly.  Unfortunately, dieting is one of those things with which I'm either hot or cold.  So is cooking.  And that's where I am right now...in the cold.  It's not a plateau.  I'm bored.  More so with cooking than with loosing weight.  It's not dieting...it's South Beach.  Just as it was JC last year.   And WW many times over many years in the past.  Take a look at my chart over there.  I go down and flat and a creep up and down and flat and another creep up then down and flat yet again.  If that's not cyclical behavior, well...I dunno what it might be.  Yes, each cycle is a different length.  It happens that way sometimes.

So, what am I to do about it?  I could go off on another tangent, say, back to WW or off to LA Weight Loss.  But that's not what I need.  I simply need someone to cook for me for awhile.  Until I get back in that groove again.  I called the JC center about 45 minutes ago and made an appointment for tomorrow after work.  It works when I follow the plan, and I follow the plan when it's "new and refreshing."  I'm sure it will only last a few weeks or maybe months.   But if, in that time, I can loose a few pounds instead of gaining and losing and gaining as I have been, it will have been worth it.

I don't expect anyone to ever really understand me.  The fact that it took me this long (and that it took reading several books) to realize it myself says that it's not something that's always obvious.  I'm sure I seem flighty to a lot of people.  I quite often also felt that I was a fraud by changing my mind so often.  Picking up and dropping projects has become rather routine.  It's nice to know I'm not really a failure.  I need to embrace the way my brain works and go with it.