Taking on 4a.m.

I can't make myself go to bed early enough to get up at 4:00 in the damned mornings.  As much as my brain wants to, my body will not cooperate.  This morning, I hit snooze until 4:30 when E woke up (she hadn't been up all night...miraculously).  I got her back to sleep and then showered, but I didn't get my workout in.  What's my problem?  Lack of motivation or lack of sleep?  I tend to think it's the latter.  I get 6-7 hours on average, and I know it's not enough. That's with getting up at 5:00.  Getting up at 4:00 cuts me down to 5-6...assuming the kiddo sleeps through the night. 

Something has got to give!!  For the time being, I guess it's going to be a.m. workouts.  I just can't do it.  The girls will get used to me working out in the afternoon.  Right now, I know it's difficult for them.  They're not used to me doing my own thing and pushing them aside for any amount of time.  I hope that as they learn that I'm a happier (not to mention healthier) mommy after getting my routine in, and a lot more fun that way, they'll let me do my thing.  I know it's tough on them.  Nothing about our lives is easy right now.  But with change comes growth...I'm sure of it.  Hey, maybe they'll even join me eventually. 

Maybe I'll tackle 4a.m. again someday.  For now, it's just not going to happen.  I'm not going to force myself.  As long as I'm getting the work done, does it really matter WHEN it gets done?