Update on Mel and Baby Roche

So I have officially gained back 26lbs and I am 26 weeks pregnant. I know that after the baby is born I will have no problem losing the weight again! I am determined to get to my original goal of 165 and have lost 100lbs of my original weight! It is the hardest thing to gain weight but I am creating a life by gaining and I know that I am not eating all the unhealthy things I used to eat! I miss blogging but I am afraid that I will be watching EVERYTHING that I eat and I became obsessive about it before and I can not do it again. I will be back on soon enough! Will check back again soon!

Im gaining...

and freaking out! I am up to 190. I was 185 when we got back from our honeymoon. I am sure that had to do with drinking. I have been eating well for the most part through my first trimester. I am so scared of gaining yet I want to be able to not worry about it and have a healthy baby! Swimkatt did it, I can do it! Love ya T

A new addition to the Roche family is coming...

So you read right...I am expecting! I am 11 weeks and we are happier than ever. I know I have not posted in a while and this is due to my weight gain. I will be on here and there but I am distancing myself due to the fear of wanting to continue to diet. This would not be good for my baby and I. I will update my weight because I am gaining already. I was 186 when I went to the Dr a month ago and I weighed myself this morning and I am 190! So I will check in!

Back from Wedding madness and lots of changes

So I am back from all of the wedding madness. I am offically MRS ROCHE now! I am so excited to begin our family and life together. We had an amazing wedding and I have posted pictures! See me at 177! I got back from the cruise and weighed in at 187! Gross! I was all swelled up from the salty and rich food on the boat. I am sure the alcohol was not helping either. I want to diet like I was before the wedding but right now I am not able to diet that hard and diligently. So in the mean time, I think I am going to go back to WW and do that for now.

oh and one more thing...

Did you know that SWIMKATT will be my photographer at my wedding?! YEP!!! I am so excited, she and I met on here back over 2 years ago and she will be flying into FL on Thurs! She and I have become great friends and I am stoked that she will be here!!!

yep almost to the goal I set

So as I get down to the last week before the wedding. I am at 177 as of last Tues. I will weigh in again tomorrow. I hope to be at 175 as I set that as a goal before the wedding. I will post more later! 4 days and counting!

Ohhh and by the way

I think I can make it to 175 now. I dont think it is out of my reach! I am just afraid of losing so much that my dress does not fit.

2 weeks from Saturday!

I went to the Dr yesterday and I am down 2lbs. I am ok with that. She still wants me to lose more, but I explained to her that I am comfortable with what I am losing. I don't want to lose it more rapidly.

I am wrapping up all of the loose ends with the wedding arrangments. It is definatley stressful to say the least. I have appt after appt. The week before the wedding is prom week and so work is crazy. On top of my finals being this week.

I am sorry that I have not been able to check on my friends, I think about you all during my weak days, I wonder, what would she do! HUGS

4 weeks and counting

So I know that I originally had this idea that I was going to lose 20lbs before the wedding. I think that is about possible. So as of yesterday I am 183.6 and I am content with the idea that I can get down to 175 before May 10th. This means no more starbucks donuts (my favorite) I am watching my sugar and carb intake.

I wanted to quit smoking or at least cut back a bit and I am scared of gaining weight. The sad thing is that I like smoking. I actually hear that from a lot of people too. I smoke less than a half a pack per day. I dont smoke from the time I get up until I leave work. So the real question is, why do I smoke?? I have been chewing gum and trying to cut back.

Warning...This is a vent!!!

So let me share with you all my frusterations...(bare with me because I am about to vent!)

I have been BATTELING my weight it seems like my whole life. 3 Years ago at 265lbs I dieted and got down to 210lbs.
I am so frusterated now more than ever! I decided since I have plateaued for over a year and we are taking a break from TTC yet still charting to try a dr regimented diet. Well, I started 3 weeks ago at 189 and stopped because I got the flu, well I began the diet again after picking up my wedding dress.
I weighed myself this morning and was at 185 and I was all happy and proud that I have lost more weight. I go get my dress, try it on and it is TIGHT! The girl conviced me to order 1 size bigger and it is still tight. As I was in my dress, I was crying my eyes out. I feel like I just can't lose the freaking weight. Not to mention, one of my bridesmaids is 7 months pregnant and got a size 14 dress (one size smaller than mine)

I am trying to keep it together and stay on the "eat healthy" kick but my willpower SUCKS these days. Any of you girls have ideas for me that may help me?????



Thanks for listening to my horrible gripes, I feel much better now!