not good
Well, I'm feeling extra blue today. I think Aunt Flo is circling the parking lot waiting for a place to park, but still.....I hate feeling like this. I think part of my weight issue right now is my cothes. I wear looser fitting things, and longer shirts now that I'm Muslim (from an Islamic site, so it's MADE for a woman), but sometimes I still feel frumpy. I've begun wearing my hair in a "wrap" style scarf, with it tight on my head and a nice stylish kind of knot in the back at the base of my head (my "baby steps" to wearing full blown headscarf). I know what I'm wearing is best.....it's modest,and the only person who gets to benefit from seeing all of ME is my husband, but still, sometimes it makes me feel like, "What the heck, I'm already dressing like a sack....what does it matter if I'm fit or not?" Some other Muslims sisters go on walks around this lake, and play tennis, etc, but one is retired, one is a stay at home mom, and the other is a teacher, off for the summer but also out on maternity leave. I feel like a FAT and LAZY slob when I don't go walking. I work from 7:30am - 5:30pm M-Th, and then 8am - 12pm Fri, and when I get done during the week, I don't feel like going around a lake for another hour or two. I feel like my time is evaporating. I need a day planner or something. It's like time is slipping through my fingers, and what have I DONE??! So they get fit, and I stay home and eat. Sick. Even the girl who just had a baby 10 weeks ago is smaller than I am. UGH!!
Anyway, I'm rambling. I know this blue funk will pass, but I just wish I was in a better mood. The weather has been great, but it feels like cloudy days in my heart.
