08/06/2007 12:09
and another thing
I have noticed that I have started waiting until my DH leaves and then I'll eat stuff I'm not supposed to. He never says anything, but I think maybe I feel guilty about what I'm eating. It's shameful, really, that I am sneaking or hiding to eat. I have become the one thing I never thought I would be: an overeater. I realized last night that I like the way food is in my mouth, like a warm brownie (one of my favorite desserts), it just feels comforting.
I wonder when this began? Why is it happening? I know I've been overweight almost since I moved to MD (and got online). Maybe I should look long and hard at myself and find out what is possibly really bothering me to make me embrace food the way I have.