I'm back!

Well, it's been almost a year since I've posted, and that is mostly due to laziness.  I haven't lost, nor really gained, anything.  I sometimes feel like I am destined to be 180-190 for the rest of my life!!  I am afraid I will blow up if I get pregnant.  I am trying to eat better, but not trying hard enough.

I just got a job in PA, so I will be moving at the end of August, and my DH will stay in MD until the condo is sold, or until he lands a job in PA also.  We will see each other maybe once during the week and every weekend.  Still it's difficult and scary thinking about not having him with me.  We'll stay with my mom until we find the house we want, because it's easier to leave her house than to break a lease on an Apt.  I am a little scared to go to work in Harrisburg, because it is the same building I left 8yrs ago, only now I'm fatter (40lbs) and wear a scarf on my head (I'm Muslim now).  I shouldn't care what anyone thinks, but I do a little.

I think that some of this stuff is causing me stress, but that can't explain the past 7mos, when we hadn't decided on anything firm about moving.

I hope everyone is doing well, and that your weight loss goals are happening for you.  Please keep me in your thoughts and send positive signals my way so that I start shedding some weight!