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  • Name: ModernOwl
  • City: Denton
  • Region: Texas
  • Country: United States

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I have been thinking about starting a blog like this for a while. I've never really blogged before, and I'm usually pretty bad at keeping up with things like this. I'm also bad at keeping up with weight loss methods before I get tired of it or unmotivated. I am really going to try to make a big effort to keep up with this, and hopefully it will motivate me to kick my weight loss into high gear.
Here is a little about me - I'm a 23-year old graduate student studying music performance at the University of North Texas. I have lived in Missouri for most of my life, and moved here last August. This is the first time I have lived on my own, and it definitely has its ups and downs. I work at a fast food restaurant, and I also teach music lessons to middle school students. One of my biggest struggles is dealing with being in a long distance relationship. I have been with my boyfriend, Phillip, for 3 years, and these past few months of being apart have been very hard. I really feel that he is the love of my life, and it is so hard not being able to see him every day. We have a very strong and special bond, and I think this time apart will really bring us closer in the long run. It already has brought us closer together, and I am so excited about us finally moving in together in May when he graduates college.
Anyway, I always have all of these thought rolling around in my head, and I have always imagined myself being able to express them through a blog. So I have finally decided to follow through with it. One of the main things I think about, to the point of obsession, is weight loss and body image. I have pretty much always been chubbier than I would like, and I am very ready to look and feel the way that I really want to. I am 5 feet 8 inches tall and I currently weight around 176 lbs. I have been able to lose about 10 lbs. since moving to Texas, but I am at a sticking point and very unmotivated at the moment. I would really like to weigh 150 lbs. and just get all of the excess fat and flab off of my body. I don't really have a goal date, but I figure I should start with a smaller goal. I would like to try to lose 5 lbs. by February 11th. That is the next day that I will be able to see Phillip again. We are meeting in Arkansas (which is halfway between Missouri and Texas) and spending the weekend together for Valentine's day. I think losing 5 lbs. in about 2 weeks is a realistic goal, and I really need some extra motivation to get these pounds off.
I currently don't have much of a work out routine. Last school semester I did a lot of exercise on the elliptical machine in the school gym for cardio. I'm getting really bored of the same machine all the time, and I would like to try to work out more at home. It is more realistic for me to work out at home since I won't always have access to a gym. I have looked up some exercises on the internet that I would like to try, and I also want to find some good youtube videos for exercise. I really like to dance as well, so I want to incorporate that for cardio.
Anyway, I think I'll close it out for now. It's almost midnight and I better get some sleep for teaching tomorrow! I will try to be back on here tomorrow to continue. Any advice or helpful comments would be much appreciated