Yippee

I started going to the gym last week, and I feel pretty good.  I watched what I ate all last week, but not so much on the weekend.  I starting new this week.  I had a piece of delicious cake this morning, but I don't care I deserve it. 

Monday again..

My mom said she would watch the baby in the evenings so I can go to the gym for an hour.  I am so excited because oddly enough I love to work out, I love the way I feel afterwards and the sweat is good for my pores.  I will start tonight.  There is light at the end of my tunnel.

Mystery

This morning I had a short visit at the doctors office to have blood drawn ect.  When I was done I asked if I could get weighed on my way out..  I lost 6 pounds..so weird I feel extra fat and have not really done anything different, except trying my best to eat less for supper. 

Monday

I had a shitty weekend, I think it may just have motivated me to get myself together and take this diet thing by the horns. 

Monday

I had a shitty weekend, I think it may just have motivated me to get myself together and take this diet thing by the horns. 

Mr. ED

So I woke up this morning, feeling good.  My house is clean,  no laundry to do, my baby boy slept in.   I left for work and I was drinking a diet pepsi, and I said to myself.  You know I haven't had anything bad this morning (junk food), today would be a good day to really start keeping track of what i am eating and staying away from sweets ect.  i was just really talking myself into making today the start of a healthier diet.  I got to work settled in, went to a meeting  and then when I got back to my office I pulled a pop tart out of my desk draw and started eating it like it was nothing.  Almost unconciously...  I completely forgot what I was doing.  It was habit, I am not even sure I was hungry???  Eating whenever and whatever is a big problem for me.  I will eat until I am stuffed.  I don't know why.  I wish I could have my jaws wired shut.  Or everytime I was eating too much an annuoncement went off in my head saying whoaaa Nelly, what the hell are you doing, your not hungry anymore. 

someone call the short bus

I have so much to share..need time to figure just what it is.. 

The weather is gorgeous.  It's friday, and I am wearing new shoes.  What else could a girl ask for :)

turtle like start

No, I'm not cherokee:) But I live in SC.  Live, Love and Laugh is a decoration my mom has in her kitchen.  I've always liked it.

I am completely procrastinating on my so called diet.   Well not diet, but whatever it is I am trying to do.  I have been so busy at home and work I can't even find time to shave my legs, grose I know.  So, I have decided this weekend I will catch up on all the little things that I have neglected like really cleaning our bedroom,  take a nap, and cook for my family.  That always relaxes me.  I need some order in my life.  Well, order and sleep would be ideal.

I really want to say thanks to all of you who sent comments.  It is really encouraging to hear that others are going thru what I am and still they continue to try.  The blogs are great and I wish I could sit down and comment to all of them. 

First Day

I've never done this before, so bear with me.  I have a lot of weight to lose.  I had a baby boy 4 months ago, I gained 44 lbs, but I have lost 40lbs.  4 more to go.  The real problem is I have never lost the weight I gained with my 14 year old daughter.  I know...14 years is a huge gap, but Jr was planned.  Anyway, I was married to the devil and spent my entire pregnancy and the first 5 years of her life eating to console myself I guess.  Things are really different now.  I know I can lose the weight some how.  I hope this works, I will try anything.  I want to lose it the right way and keep it off.  I am notorious for losing a lot of weight then gaining it back plus some.  My husband will be helpful and encouraging I am sure, but he has never been overweight, so I don't think he really understands how it effects me emotionally or physically.  I cannot think of one thing in my life that I have failed at so miserably.  I have been sucessful in aspects of my life, why can't I beat this.  i am soooooo sick of being overweight.