2nd Chance

Okay so I have reflected on last month. It was bad. But this month I have to do a better job! I've changed my goals and made them more attainable. I want to either weigh 115 or fit into a pair of unforgiving size 3 jeans, none of those stretchy ones for me. Today I started out well, I had a green smoothie which consisted of many veggies with a splash of fruit. I have not snacked mindlessly and right now there is so much junk foot in the house--including the creamy carrot cake for father's day in the fridge. Ahhhhh! I don't really want it but I do.
I'm also going to try Jilian's 30 day shred becuase it got loads of great reviews~
Hopefully, by august, I can blog in my new, healthy self! 

What?! Why?! How?!

AHHHHHHH!!!!! Sorry, I really had to get that out of my system. I keep on gaining weight. I HATE. The. Stupid. Yoyo. Effect. Why did I have to be cursed with it! I hate it! Augghhh! *smiles* Thank you for listening to my rant. I feel tons better now, I guess I have to eat less becuase I will admit that I have been chowing down. But I love food so much and I've even been excersisng (Turbo Jam and yoga) But I did not excersise yesterday, maybe I should have! I feel sooooooooo bad and I'm kind of hungry right now! But not really. IDK! aljhdalksfhlafh! I have to lose this stubborn weight if I want a senior prom date! I have to have my perfect year with my perfect clothes in my perfect body! Sorry if I sound like a total brat but I am! And I'm sorry for being so shallow and selfish but I can't help it! And I'm sorry for having no modivation or willpower but I'm trying! And I'm sorry for being overweight! Gahhhh! *sigh* Wow, that was nice. I guess its good to let it all out!

Ugh. On Sunday my diet goes out the window.

So today I ate. And ate. And then ate some more. I feel so fat! But I did not eat as much as I would have if I was not on my weight loss program. I would say the worst thing I ate today was my bag of takis. But I think I only ate about half to a little more than half because I tried my best to share, share, SHARE. Right now I just had an enchilada but I tried to make it as non fatty as I could. So it was a fried corn tortilla, boiled potatoes. chedder and jack cheese and fresh romane lettuce. And I only ate one. YES! But I've been muching on tortilla chips throughout the day, I don't know why I love chips so much! Argh!!RIght now I'm sipping some DDP (diet dr pepper) and water to make it semi okay XD.

Sayonara!

I'm weirdly not hungry anymore

It's so weird, I'm never seem to be actually hungry. I woke up this morning and I did not want to eat but my stomach was grumbling loudly so I forced myself to eat. I'm not an emotional eater. You see, I'm a little sad. Sigh, I don't really want to explain why. But I'm not depressed or anything, I mean I'm still happy but yet sad about it. Okay, fine, I'll spill! Hahaha. My little sister (8mnths old) seems to hate me! Like, whenever my parents give her to me she cries like crazy! So now I'm kind of hurt so I don't really pay attention to her anymore so she hates me even more, I guess. Whatever. I know she's just a baby so maybe she'll grow out of it. (?)
I've lost 2 pounds like like 3 days! Yay! But I've actually started exercising! It makes me feel gooooooooood.

See you later!

Morning Cravings

Ah!!! So its the morning of my new weight loss program. Its been OKAY meaning not so great. So I had a medium sized pancake, tea, and a piece of beef about as big as a cell phone. I should have ate oatmeal! Maybe? idk. I'm skill kinda hungry but I should not eat anymore so I'm sipping tea and chopping on a piece of Orbit gum. And my mom is making flour tortillas! They are like crazy yummy but insanely fattening! And I'm craving Takis! Kill me now, please. SO I wrote 540 on my arm, that way I can see just how fattening it is. Hahahaha I'm pretty sure it will look weird to a passerby XD

Talk to ya later!

I'm new!

Hi! I want to lose weight by the time school starts!
Okay, so I am overweight--and these are not the ramblings of fat-thinking skinny girl. I. Am. Fat. Why? Because I looooooove Hot Cheetos and Takis. *sigh* I have no willpower But I'm working on it! Today was pretty bad. I ate 2 bags of Takis. Thats 540 calX2. Which is 1080. In like 30 min. Argghhh! Now that I'm reading it I feel really bad! But now I feel so bad that its like 'why exercise?!'
Please support me and I will support you! I need helpppppppp. *cries*

Talk to you later!
Mari ♥