Monday Ramblings

As you can see, I have not blogged for a long time on EP. I am in a tail spin of sorts. I cannot seem to lose any weight, track my calories, exercise (because of the foot pain), and a little depressed. I went to the doctor on Thursday because I was hoping that he would be able to tell me if my ankle pain was the result of my tripping down the garage door steps...he didn't even look at that. I am not sure if he was in a bad mood or what, maybe not a morning person...but I am totally not happy with the appointment. I have a physical appointment on Wednesday and I am going to have them look at it too. It isn't swollen or anything...it just hurts almost like I strained a muscle of something. Anyway, as soon as my foot starts hurting, the ankle starts more too. Making it REALLY hard to walk on my left foot.

The garage sale Saturday was not very productive financially. I think I made $130...and spent $130. Most was on stuff that I really needed and could use (except the Little Tykes car for DS), but it is still frustrating. I do have about 12 boxes to donate, but now I just need to load them in my car. After I do that, and take the 8 bags of aluminum cans to the recyclers, the garage will look much better. I probably should do that while DS is sleeping! LOL

I am trying to look at this as a new week. A new week of goals, vision (if I can get one), and motivation. Can I lose 50 lbs by December???? Let me do the math....50 divided by 5.5= a little over 9 lbs a month. LOL...I cannot lose 9 ounces a month. CRAP! I really need to do it though. I will be happy if I can lose the 50 by January 1 too, because in December it will be more vanity pounds as Jillian Michaels calls them. ;)

I just do not know HOW to get a focus. I have sooooo many irons and plates going that I seem to only be able to run on ER mode. I know and understand that there are people with bigger obstacles than me. We are all in different "boats", but our goal is the same. Lose weight, become healthy. With that goal in mind...it should at least be 'easier'. But, alas, it is not. Exercise is a part, eating is a part, emotions are a part, commitment is a part, what I am trying to say is that there are MANY parts. Some parts are not a problem for some people, other parts are bigger for some than others. I guess I just need to find out what parts are MY problem (I am thinking ALL of them)!

With all of that, 900 interruptions, and eating lunch right now (tomato soup made with milk with a slice of Pepperjack cheese). Probably not the best of lunches...but better than the Big Don's sub from Donato's that I wanted!!! LOL ;)

I have a lot of things to do this week and today. Here is a partial list. I know that I will be adding more.

Take out van seat
Load yard sale stuff (Tuesday)
Take yard sale stuff to drop off place (Tuesday)
Take cans and chairs to recyclers (Wednesday)
Take chairs apart for recycling (Tuesday)
Get stuff for Mary
Take TV from KM's room to curb
Take out bulk pickup stuff
Gather trash
Take can to curb
Dinner
Laundry
Change our bedding
Change Brianna's bedding
Write out questions for doctor visit
quick pedicure-DONE (myself..so not a good one even) LOL
New shoes (Tuesday)
Drop off Dad's bag of stuff (Wednesday)
CR ONeal about rental-DONE
Call about jewelry buying-DONE
PT places-holding off til July after insurance changes
PT appointments-holding off til July after insurance changes
Call Urban Active about summer rates-DONE
reserve library books-DONE
write customer letter-DONE