Quite literally. I had some issues with posting and then got out of the habit and forgot where I even went!! A lot has happened since I last posted in here. I've been dating such an amazing man, Chris, for over a year now. We've actually known each other since we were in 3rd grade together. My mom taught us in 5th grade. Our Mom's were friends and teaching partners for a Developmentally Disabled class. We lost both of them to cancer, within 2 years of each other. We share a bond that most don't. He is one of hte best men I have ever known. He is so good to my children and treats us with love and respect. Nice change from the 13 years of abuse.

 

So here I am, once again, trying to get back on track. Chris proposed to me on our 1 year anniversary, April 21. I had a BIG wake up call...I went into a bridal salon and am too big to try on ther dresses I wanted to. That was embarrassing. I knew I needed to do something. Chris is currently in Ithaca, NY at Cornell University getting his Master's and with no child care, I've had to stop working for the summer. Looking at things positively, which is hard to do sometimes, I have plenty of time to work out!! lol. So this past Sunday I started working out. I always overdo it then get hurt and can't work out for week and then get out of the habit, so I'm starting off slow. This week I'm working out every other day with my YBB DVD's. Then for the next 2 weeks I will do YBB in the morning and run every other day. For the rest of the time I will work out 6 days a week, YBB in AM and run in PM. I'm new to running, so I can't run for a very long time, but I figure getting out is good both mentally AND physically.

 

So for the time of truth...I'm up, BAD, 198.5 on Sunday. Down 2 pounds as of today, and no pills this time. I've enjoyed trying new foods, wine, and new places (NEW YORK!! =) ) and I enjoyed it too much, lol. After the proposal and the dress experience, I knew I had to get my butt back in gear. Hopefully my friends are still on here and I can make new ones to help keep me motivated! I want to be a beautiful bride!