Yep, I know, I'm posting again, lol. I just felt like it though! Um and WHY are some letters Italicized and some are not?? lol. WEIRD! LOL! That is REALLY odd! lol.
Anway, I never really blog about what I eat, I find it too hard. But I had my up's and downs. I made my kids Waffles this morning and didn't have one YEAH ME! lol. But then had these left over Mini Burgers from Chili's (3) and 4 White Chocolate Covered Oreos BOOOOO!!!!!!! lol. That's when I was like, "What the heck?!?" and came on here, lol. THEN I got off and worked out YEAH ME!!!! lol. I didn't snack too bad, I had a few of these pretzel things and Powerade instead of Coke, I know I should have just had water, but I wanted something flavored and I'm STILL trying to get over this AWFUL cold thing. It's the worst I've EVER had!! HONESTLY! What else??OH! THEN! I made WHOLE WHEAT Spaghetti with 1/2 cup sauce and 1 biscuit for dinner. I didn't even eat half of what I gave myself, which wasn't much, so THAT was good too, and I didn't have anymore cookies either, and I TOTALLY wanted them too, lol. So I did pretty good I think for day 1! Now I just have to get better tomorrow! I need to go buy some Yogurt tomorrow and start having that for breakfast again, plus A-man LOVES it! Well, I need to do some school work and get my kitchen cleaned up. Talk to you later!
Wow, I can't believe how long it's been since I've been in here. Maybe that's one of the reason's I've slipped up. Life's getting more hectic and I'm failing at it. I need to do more school work and work out more. A-man is 2 now, as of November 19th and dropped his 1st nap and doesn't always take his 2nd one either most days. Thus, I have gained back some weight. NOT TOO BAD! I've caught myself before I've gotten out of hand, but I shouldn't be back up into the 140's again. I need to be down into the low 130's. I'm back at it though. I ate like CRAP at lunch right now and realized this is RIDICULOUS. I have a new man now and I want to look as sexy as he makes me feel. I need to stop the madness. I need to not get too comfortable with being the size I WAS. My pants started getting tight. I knew I'd be DAMNED before I went back UP a size! So I jumped on here. Here I am now, committing myself to working out everyday this week. Wednesday I'm going to have to get up early since I have court but I'M DOING IT! I'm going to Tahoe with my man on the 12th and I want to look GOOD again. I was 138 when I met him and I'm up to 144. NO FREAKIN WAY! I'm not doing this yo yo crap again! I worked TOO DAMN HARD to get lazy and put it all back on! So I'm recommitting myself to getting in shape again. Not to mention, I'm going to have to go for fittings for my Bridesmaid dress soon! Like I said before, I want to look good up there, ESPECIALLY now that I have someone to look good for! I'm excited to get back to it. I'm not going to weigh in until next Monday, but I'll post blogs as I feel the need to.
Can someone tell me why it took me SO LONG to lose this weight?!? If I had ANY idea being this thin would feel THIS GOOD I would have done it A LONG time ago!
I'm going out this weekend 2 night in a row. I NEVER get to do that! My Dad's investment company is having a relaunching party Friday night and I'm going to stop by for that for a couple hours and then Saturday I'm going out with my brother and his friends, he invited me to that as well. I am SO excited!!! I was talking to my brother on the phone last night and he asked me if he had told me what his one (FREAKING HOT!!!) friend said about me. I said no. He said, "I DIDN'T?!?" I said, NO! WHAT!?!? So he says, "Damn Justin! You're sister looks fucking GREAT!" LOL! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL?!?!? DO you have ANY idea how HOT this guy is?!?! He's a MARINE! This guy is a piece of ART! lol! I'm talking carved out of STONE! lol! Tan, muscles, AHHH!!!!!! LOL! Now, he's got a girl, but the fact that he said that about me makes me feel AMAZING! He's a HOT guy, and the fact that a guy like THAT would say that about ME give me a HELL of a lot of hope!!!
Now also, in about 3 weeks I got invited to go on a weekend trip. I've been talking with this guy for a little while, he has this dirt bike race out on his property, with a big BBQ, live band, and all sorts of stuff. This isn't the stuff girls like me normally get invited to. This is what the pretty popular girls got to go to! I can't even believe how much the world has opened up just by losing weight.
Wrong or right, whatever, it is what it is. I'm just glad I'm finally a part of it! I'm sick and tired of being fat. Of thinking I look good, only to catch my reflection and realize, nope, you're still fat. No more!
Ok, I got off track for awhile. At least I didn't gain weight. I didn't exercise for awhile though. That's not o.k. I need to lose my tummy and tone up my arms. I'm really starting to look good, I want to keep that up. I'm SO close to my goal, I can't give up now.
My brother's wedding is May 16th. and now that I'm single I want to look good. I'm in their wedding, I'm going to be standing up there for all to see. I have been the fat sister for as long as most of them have known me. I'm tired of that. I want to be Justin's HOT sister-that's now SINGLE! lol.
So here's the deal. I figure I only have about 15 pounds to go. I'm at 146, so o.k. 16 pounds, lol. Thanksgiving is 10 weeks away. WOW, that doesn't sound too far off huh?? I think 16 pounds in 10 weeks is doable, don't you think? I think so! That isn't even 2 pounds a week! I think as long as I exercise I can do it. My girls are playing Volleyball now, so as long as I get out there and bump the ball around with them, which I LOVE to do, and I exercise in the mornings, which I did this morning and REALLY enjoyed, I think I can accomplish this! THIS IS IT!!!!! This is the homestretch!!!!! I can't believe I'm here after all these years of being obese! Not just fat, not just overweight, OBESE! I'm being honest here! My BMI was at 35.8 when I started here, but at my highest ever, 203, it was up to 37.1, sheesh! I'm down to 26.7 now. That is a FREAKING HUGE improvement!!!! When I get down to 130 it will be at 23.8, normal range. I can't even remeber the last time I was within normal range. I was excited back in 2005 just to be in the plain "overweight" category, how sad is that?!?
I'm totally going to do this!!! I'm SO excited about this!!!!!!!!!! My Mom died back in November of 2004. She lost weight pretty rapidly. She was normally around 140/150 her whole life, like me, (well, you know, when I wasn't pregnant, or being dumb) but then got into a size 6, then down to a 4, then a 2. Well, unless, God forbid I get cancer like her, I won't ever be a 2, but I tried on her 6 dress pants today and they're a little more snug then I'd like, but if for some reason I HAD to wear them, I'd be ok with it! They actually look kind cute! lol. I was SHOCKED! I'm in a 7/8 right now. I really am in shock right now. I started at an 18 people!!!!!
My purpose for this post...don't give up. Don't EVER let ANYONE make you feel like you're not worth it. Take time for yourself, find a work out you like and stick with it!!! I REALLY recommend Yoga Booty Ballet!!! I have tried SO many systems out there and this one is SO much fun! I've never stuck with one and seen results like I have with this one. This is cardio with toning all in one. You burn and tone all in one FUN work out. It's not hard to follow at all. I'm not a dancer, I'm not a Yogi, it's easy and fun, and a GREAT work out. I absolutely love it and it is one of the best investments I've ever made!
Well, I wanted to get back into a routine and start working out since I'm back to the lowest point I was at before vacation. Yesterday I had to pick up some papers from my lawyers office. I had JUST got done showering from my work out of my 45 minute Yoga Booty Ballet and the girls in the office said they were their way out the door to go walking. They asked me if I had a stroller for Anthony and if I wanted to go with them. Even though I had already worked out, I figured, WHY NOT! So I went! I worked out for 45 minutes, showered, lol, then walked over 2 miles just a few minutes later! LOL! I was tired but was pretty darn proud of myself! I would have NEVER done that before!
Plus, today I'm at 148!
Not only that, but my ex plead "No contest" to Corporal Injury on a Spouse. I finally feel some vindication. His sentancing is September 17th.
Weigh Update after Florida and Question about Challange?
So, we left for vacation on the 10th. I was up to 152, BOoooo! I was bummed. I wanted to be down to 145. Because of that though, I was more careful on vacation about what I ate and how many drinks I had, I know those pack on calories. So we left from Long Beach on the 12th and flew into Ft. Lauderdale. On the 20th we went up to Orlando for WDW/ Hurricane Fay, lol. One night it was DUMPING and we were trying to get on one last ride, so we sprinted across the park. While I was running I had to keep pulling my pants up, lol. I knew that HAD to be a good sign! I weighed myself yesterday and was back down to 149! I am SO happy that not only did I not GAIN weight on vacation, I LOST IT!
And if anyone who's reading this is in the Weight Loss Challange, I'm trying to find out where to go. I guess I need to find Endurer I was told. I never received any e-mails about what to do. I heard from one person I'm in the Pink group I guess. Anymore info would really be great! Thanks!!
You know, I'm quite proud of myself! I've been REALLY trying hard to get through this plateau I'm in. I've been stuck at this weight for awhile. My body is used to this weight. This is the weight range I normally was in high school. My size 9's are baggy on me. I'm where my body is comfortable. But I know I can lose more. So I'm trying to press onward.
Last night I was up until about 1:30 a.m. it's been REALLY hard for me to get to sleep lately. Anthony woke up at 7:00 a.m. I REALLY wanted to go back to sleep, but knowing I'm leaving for Florida soon I know I need to keep on working out, lol. So I put on my workout clothes, went and got Anthony a bottle and came back down after to work out. I did NOT want to, but I knew I needed to. After I did I was so proud of myself. My knee hurt, I was tired as all get out, and I worked out anyways. And you know the best part? I didn't even "reward" myself like I would have in the past! My "reward" was being able to buy a few shirts in the S and M size that were on sale at Mervynn's on the clearnace rack, not trying them on, getting them home and having them look AWESOME! THAT is the reward! No food, your body looking ROCKIN' is the reward! No, why it took me 12 years to learn that exactly is BEYOND me, but I learned it! I am SO excited!
OH! I and my friend took a pic of me from behind, of me puching the kids on the tire swing, and I don't look like a big fat ass! LOL! That's a first! LOL!
Well, I wanted to get off the meds. I actually did for a few weeks, but it's WAY too hard at this point. I'm working out and eating less and it taking FOR EV ER to lose the weight still. I'm bouncing around 149-152. Yesterday I was 140 today I'm 152. It's annoying. It was ALSO annoying to get up at 6:30 a.m. get all the kids ready and out of the house by 8:00 a.m. only to NOT have my usual doc see me! That totally bummed me out. What can you do though?
So I went ahead and got back on the Topomax and Phentermine. I guess technically as of today I'm back up to 152, so I still have to lose 22 pounds to get me down to 130. My goal weight was 135, but I think maybe I should try for 130. We'll see. I can't even remember BEING that weight ever, so I'll have to see what I look like when I hit 135 and see how I feel at that weight.
I joined the weight loss club thing on here, so I hope I get an e-mail soon! I think that would be good motivation for me!
So today I had to go out and get a new suit, since I'm taking the kids to the waterpark tomorrow. I figured I should take some pics of myself sicne I haven't done that in awhile.
The first pic if of me and my brother this past Christmas. I was up to 196. At 5' 2". Yeah I know. So anyways, I'm down to 149 now and I look a WHOLE lot better. The pics make me realize I shouldn't get TOO comfortable, but at the same time, this is the best I've looked since my Senior Year in high school.
So I'm back into my work out routine this week. I was sick last week and wanted to fully recover.
I stepped onto the scale today and discovered I am at 150. 150! That's the highest I'd let myself go in high school before I knew I had to bring it in. I'd bounce between 140-155, normally I was 145-150. I can NOT believe I am in my HIGH SCHOOL WEIGHT!!!!! I feel SO MUCH BETTER about myself right now. I had bought these Cruel Girl jeans for my birthday, 3 pairs of them. This one pair was a little on the tight side, and I never actually wore them out. Well, I wore them yesterday, and they fit, REALLY WELL. I was SO happy. =)
So I am 15 pounds away from goal. WHOA! LOL! I can't believe I'm actually DOING THIS!
Yeah I know. 
So anyways, I'm down to 149 now and I look a WHOLE lot better. The pics make me realize I shouldn't get TOO comfortable, but at the same time, this is the best I've looked since my Senior Year in high school.