Ha!! Yeah, me!! Yesterday morning I stepped on the scales and was really sad to see the number that was on it. Accepted it because of what last week, but none the less wasn't really happy. When I came home in the afternoon, my mom had picked the boys up and told me I could go grocery shopping before coming home, which is of course a lot easier. Well, while there, my gremlin snuck up, and started talking.... "why don't you just take a bag or two of sweets home and make yourself really comfy tonight. There's a cold sore on your left eye coming and you are so tired after working today and after the stress all last week." No, I firmly told the gremlin and stuffed him back in his bottle and put the lit on. I didn't do it. Even better, I stuck to my meal plan all day AND did my exercise with Leslie. Which was hard but I did it!! Did have a few raisins to go with my book in the evening, but that was it. Whooot!!
This morning, again on plan, I had my breakfast etc. And at lunchtime (it's 1.30 pm now) I went downstairs and did day 1 week 1 of c25k. Yup, I started over, as I could do nothing last week. And then had my chicken salad and some yogurt for lunch. Yay, me!!
And now my gremlin is teeny-tiny and well put away in his bottle. :)
Ok, folks, here I am, getting back on that wagon! I will do it and I can do it. Finally got to work out again tonight, with Leslie, after not having had time or energy for it for a week!! It was a bit hard but I pulled through and I am so proud of that!!
My weight is pretty well up, as I knew it would be after a week of pretty disasterous eating. But I accept that. With all the stress and strain I really needed the extra, cheap calories to keep me going. Enough of that now, though. I have 2 months untill I go to Germany and I really want to be different till then. I also think I still have a fair chance of reaching at least some of my june goals, if I really commit to them untill the end of the month. So here I go!!
Well, life is starting again. Slowly, but it is starting. My baby boy is a lot better, even if he is still very spotty. I was even able to take the two outside earlier to play. Which was wonderful, we have such lovely weather.
Eating is still not quite what it should be but as my hubby said last night on the phone I really need the extra energy right now. He'll soon be here to support me and that will make everything easier. So I guess I am here warming myself up, getting ready to jump on that bandwagon again! :)
The weather here is absolutely beautiful. And my baby is slowly getting better, too!! So life is good. I am still pretty beat and terribly tired, but I think this weekend will get us all back to normal!!
I can't wait to work out again!! Just have not had the energy for that those past few days.........
mom. Despite the thoughts I had last night of perhaps not being one, I just realized I am :) At least most of the time. I am feeling a bit fragile and vulnerable right now, after a night of almost no sleep because my baby boy had such a fever, was itching all over and in pain...... I did all I could for him and eventually he was able to sleep, but before that I again had to put the cream in his eye... poor soul, he knew what was coming so he tried to close his eye. Which meant I had to force it open to get the stuff in. Then just held him close, told him he was such a strong, courageous boy and that mommy was sorry but she had to do it in order for his eye to get better.....
I just spoke to my hubby, wanted to let him know how things are over here and just hear his voice to hearten me up. And he actually thanked me for taking such good care of our children :) Which made me realize it's not "just to be expected". I have gone quite a way beyond that these past few days and again I have seen I will do anything to make my children get better. Even if it means having to be a little mean to them in order to get the medication in. There's just no other way about it, baby boy is 26 months old and doesn't listen to reason about his eye.... :)
And then my mom actually just told me she would not want to do it..... and that she admires me for pulling through with this. She would if she had to (don't we all) but she is glad she doesn't have to do it. In fact, she is travelling away today and won't be home till Sunday. Just came to take my big boy to playschool, to save me the trip of that.
I have already called in at work to say I won't be there till next week. No way around it, baby boy needs a full time nurse and he needs me. That will have to come before work for now.
Sorry about this non diet post, I just had to "write it out". Needless to say I am not worried about my weight anymore. But do we ever realize how much we love our children? More than anything!!
nurse Betty!! My poor baby is so ill. Really, he's running a terrible fever still and is just covered in red spots all over. I really mean ALL over. Poor little soul. And he's being so brave and plucky about it all. Doesn't whine at all, cries relatively little and hardly scratches. He does want mommy all the time, so nursing him is pretty much all I do right now. Thankfully, my big boy is a darling and made my life very easy today, even if I couldn't do much for him. Was stuck holding sweet little Adrian all the time. And now he went and got a spot on the white of his eye. Which is pretty dangerous. So I will have to torment him 5 times a day, putting anti-viral cream in his eye, to protect it. At least now I have a reason to be thankful for my herpes simplex infection in my left eye. Firstly, because I know enough to know it's something to worry about and that has to be treated. And I know how to treat it, too. Hey, I started putting cream like that in my own eye when I was 9 years old. So I know how to do it. And I know how it hurts. Terribly. It's really bad and I feel so sorry I have to inflict this on him. But I am doing it to prevent worse things from happening. So, in being terribly cruel to my baby, I really am being a good mom, doing all I can to keep his eye from being permanently damaged.
Needless to see, everything has to be put on hold while I get him through this. Workout and diet along with the rest of the stuff. It's simply not something I can work with right now. Darn, I am crying............ well, guess that had to come sometime. To be quite honest, I am very worried and frightened. And pretty much on my own. This did have to come up before hubby came here, didn't it. Right now, I feel so small and helpless. But I am not letting this get the better of me. I have stood tall and strong through so many things in the past few years, I can manage this too.
Do send some good vibes my way, will you? I sure can use all the support I can get right now!
Off to watch my baby now. He sleeps in my room, which makes it a little easier.....
chickenpox!! Geez, is it ever going to end!! My baby boy had been in a bit of a bad temper lately, and I was beginning to think I had a changeling there.... well, on Saturday night he was running a high fever and starting to get some red spots. Poor baby has the chickenpox. Badly. He is getting SO MANY new ones today.... *sigh* And I bet that since my boys spend a lot of time together it is just a matter of time untill the big boy gets them, too. So I spent most of yesterday with my baby boy in my arms, poor soul, he's really pretty badly off. I did get around to doing a 25 minute workout last night though, which did feel good and today I am making my "miracle soup". And I stuck in there and didn't buy any sweets, though I was badly tempted to do so.....
Thankfully tomorrow is a holiday here in Iceland. But I do fear work won't see much of me for the rest of this week, as my mom's going away on wednesday morning............
Speaking of which, she's babysitting for me now for a couple of hours, so I better make the most of those to do some work!!
Everybody says it should be, anyways, being friday 13th. But I say it's going to be a good friday. I feel good, even if TOM finally did arrive today..... I guess it's all a matter of how you look at things. After cramps and partly pms for days now, I am just very happy over the prospect of this whole thing being finally over in a couple of days!!
My scale keeps being a brat. It seems to be completely stuck and I COULD let that get to me, but I won't? Why? Well, first, I have been a very good girl all this week, watching what I eat. I have been making very good choices foodwise and that really works for me. Also, I have been working out. I did day2 week1 of C25k yesterday and I LOVED it!! I really feel great and think this is going to work for me really well. :) And now I all of a sudden, even if my belly is blown up with water and TOM, really feel a difference in my clothes. So taking my measurements at the end of the month should be good! Yay!!
Hubby gave me a nice surprise yesterday. He called me and told me he'd gone shopping and gotten me some really cute tops. Yay :) Now, I know many would get real nervous at that, but my hubs has such great taste and a good eye for what suits me well!! So I am really excited, the things he described sound so good.
And I got my tickets for my trip to Germany at the end of August. Ok, so it's work, I will have a conference to go to for 3 days, but I will also have time to myself just to relax - along with permittance to go SHOPPING!! So guess who's all motivated and wants to get her body rocking over the next 10 weeks! :)
I just noticed I have been a bit quiet lately. It doesn't mean that I have slowed down or anything. Quite the contrary, actually!! On Tuesday I did my first session of C25K - and did it well!! I felt a lot better than I thought I would. Obviously, my workout with Leslie are starting to pay off!! THis week I have also been watching my food after falling very badly last weekend, eating loads of sweets. So because of that and because TOM is still lurking but won't really make an entrance, my weight stayed the same between weeks. I am ok with that. Mainly because I can see so many things are going on with my body right now, I am getting a lot firmer and stronger and that makes such a difference!! And as soon as my hormones get back to normal, really watching my food intake will probably get easier!
Today will be day 2 week 1 of c25k. I actually finally got my act together and started using the fitness room we have in the basement here at work. It's great!! I look forward to going again. Slowly working on getting a good workout program up and running for myself.
My hubby will come soon!! He has booked his flight for July 8th and is coming to stay!! We are all so excited!! I actually made a plan for the boys where they tick off a day at a time to see when daddy comes :) It'll be so great. And he's going to go and buy me something tomorrow. I hope the outfit I want will still be available. I really would like to have it....... tell you more about it soon!
Better get to work now......... will visit everyone as soon as I can!!
My gremlin got me yesterday. Pretty badly, too. I was PMS-ing like wild and therefor had a bad day of it yesterday. I felt tired and icky and I got angry and/or irritated SO quickly all the time... *sigh* But TOM is quietly knocking at the door this morning and I already feel a bit more like myself again. Not quite but I am getting there. And in a way I am happy it's PMS. I would hate to think that grumpy woman of yesterday, who was having a bad hair day, a bad eating day... just a bad day, period, was me in a regular state. It wasn't. Isn't. It was just my hormones that got the better of me for a while there. And I am so glad they are subsiding a bit right now.
On a happier note, I took my mom and the boys to A, a town about 50 km from Reykjavik, to visit my brother and his family and see their brand new baby boy, born last thursday.... :) Just getting out of my flat and away for a bit did me a world of good. I had wanted to go there for ages now, but never made it because of sickness, work, fatigue etc. But now I finally did and we had a great time. The boys loved playing with their cousin, who's 5 years old, and I took my niece, 10, shopping for ingredients for waffles (she really wanted some). She got to find the things and pay (big thing at that age) and when we went back, I quickly jumped to say hi to my former german teacher and ever since friend, whom I hadn't seen for years! It was great to see her, and we plan to "really" meet in July, when she gets back from the Fijis! (gosh, would I like to go!!).
Well, after baking, my mom getting curtains done for the bedroom etc., the two of us went to the hospital to visit my SIL and the baby boy. He is ADORABLE!! Such a sweet baby. Made me want another one.... almost.... I'm good for now, even if I don't know what I will feel like in 2-3 years :)
Just writing all this out is helping me. I feel better already and am glad that part of the monthly ordeal is over!!
