Went missing.......
..... and now I am sick. It´s not good and I am not happy about it. I have basically worn myself out lately with overly much work, which I have to get done between 8 and 4, as my children go to kindergarten and I must pick them up. I have been teaching a great deal, which is fun and I really enjoy it, but it takes up a lot of energy and a whole lot of time in prepairing etc. Well, I overdid it and now I am at home and sick. I have a cold sore on the lid of my left eye. And my eye is so badly swollen I can hardly open it at all. To say nothing of the terrible pains I have in my face and head because of it, the general weakness and pain in my body (it´s an infection of the nerves so it gets to pretty much everything, especially when the very short, vulnerable nerves of the eye are involved). Plus it makes me depressive, which also has to do with the nerves being badly infected. And, to sound a bit vain, my looks don´t help. Having the left side of your face all puffed up, the white of your eye brightly red and the lid and lower side of the eye so badly swollen and red that you can hardly open them up doesn´t do much for the self esteem. My poor baby boy didn´t like to look at me this morning. 
I don´t blame him, I know it is because my eye looks as if it really hurts. Which it does. A lot.
I can just get so angry with my body for failing on me like that. I like to do my best at all time but sometimes I go beyond what my body can take and refuse to remember that this poor body of mine has gone through a lot in the last couple of years and is totally worn out. And needs to be built up again gradually!!
I am sorry for the very lowbeat post.... I guess I just had to get this out. Writing it out is better than crying, as that hurts too much right now.....
I hope to be back again soon being myself......
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Update at 3.50 pm.
I now know why I feel so down and so horribly bad. It´s not a cold sore. It´s shingles....... 
And I am terrified. I have been there before and I know what is coming my way. And it´s not pleasant at all. I hope to be back in a couple of days, feeling a little better...... 
Please keep me in mind.........
