The turtle......

is back!   That's really quite what I feel like right now, I am terribly slow still and need time for everything I do. But it's getting better......

So my goal for October is getting fitter again. I was doing so well with running and everything and now I feel like a tired little something again. Well, tired tall something

I will write again soon with more thoughts. Right now I am trying to work my way into working again after having been VERY sick for a week. It hit me harder than I thought it would......

Went missing.......

..... and now I am sick. It´s not good and I am not happy about it. I have basically worn myself out lately with overly much work, which I have to get done between 8 and 4, as my children go to kindergarten and I must pick them up. I have been teaching a great deal, which is fun and I really enjoy it, but it takes up a lot of energy and a whole lot of time in prepairing etc. Well, I overdid it and now I am at home and sick. I have a cold sore on the lid of my left eye. And my eye is so badly swollen I can hardly open it at all. To say nothing of the terrible pains I have in my face and head because of it, the general weakness and pain in my body (it´s an infection of the nerves so it gets to pretty much everything, especially when the very short, vulnerable nerves of the eye are involved). Plus it makes me depressive, which also has to do with the nerves being badly infected.   And, to sound a bit vain, my looks don´t help. Having the left side of your face all puffed up, the white of your eye brightly red and the lid and lower side of the eye so badly swollen and red that you can hardly open them up doesn´t do much for the self esteem. My poor baby boy didn´t like to look at me this morning.   I don´t blame him, I know it is because my eye looks as if it really hurts. Which it does. A lot.

I can just get so angry with my body for failing on me like that. I like to do my best at all time but sometimes I go beyond what my body can take and refuse to remember that this poor body of mine has gone through a lot in the last couple of years and is totally worn out. And needs to be built up again gradually!!

I am sorry for the very lowbeat post.... I guess I just had to get this out. Writing it out is better than crying, as that hurts too much right now.....

I hope to be back again soon being myself......

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Update at 3.50 pm.
I now know why I feel so down and so horribly bad. It´s not a cold sore. It´s shingles.......  And I am terrified. I have been there before and I know what is coming my way. And it´s not pleasant at all. I hope to be back in  a couple of days, feeling a little better......   Please keep me in mind.........

Going strong!!

Hi, everybody!!

Hear me ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! Things are going really great and I feel absolutely wonderful!! I have stayed OP for 9 days now and I love it. Well, pretty much OP, sunday was a toughie, because of the dinner we had and a birthday party in the afternoon with the most scrumptious chocolate cake I have ever seen. But I had planned for that and used my activity points for it this week. And was promptly rewarded with a 3.3 lbs loss this week. And that's with all the sport and runs I do. I tend to get heavier when I start working out with some persistance.

Also, yesterday I got a compliment!! From a female colleague! She said it's very obvious I have lost some weight   That did good, because the scale doesn't really say so.....  at least not quite as much as I would like it to!

I am also extremely busy at work right now, as I have a whole lot of teaching to do. Alongside with the normal, day-to-day stuff I have to do anyways. So please bear with me for a bit, this should get better after next week!

I am back!!

I am back, girls! Really, I am! I am still processing some thoughts and plans, but I also decided it was time to do something. So, I bought myself a 3 month phase with weightwatchers online, simply because I realize that even if I am mostly able to cope on my own and without control, right now I just simply can't summon the strength to do that. Thus I decided to help myself along a bit by having that extra pressure. I want nothing more than to be healthy again and feel well in my body. And having that online thing that I actually pay for using should help a lot. So far I do very well with it and today marks day 2 OP. 

Also, this kind of gets my inner motivation going. I am a bit of a  competer, especially against myself, and so I plan to go very clean on this. I have 12 more weeks until my 32nd birthday and I am determined to have a big change in my body and my overall feeling untill then. i would love to be able to treat myself to a bit of a shopping spree on my birthday - in a smaller size than right now, preferably!!

I still have a few little ideas flying around in my head which I really want to write down and so have more control of. For now I am set up with a good skeleton of a plan and great instruments to work with. Just a the right time, too, I might add, as my big boy has a severe cold right now, which has him coughing at nights..... subsequently I don't sleep very well. Always a huge danger zone for me, as that tends to let me slip. But not this time!!

Not completely lost....

I haven't gone missing permanently. The week in Germany was great, but took a lot of energy, and getting back meant thousands of things to do in the household.

Right now, I am terribly busy at work, as things are piling up and we have teaching to do (a lot of it) over the next couple of weeks. So I really don't know how much time I will have to be here. I hope it'll get better, as I find that extrapounds always helps me.

I also have a lot of things going on in my mind right now, I am reevaluating a lot of things and I need a bit of time to do that. So please bear with me, ok?

SILVER!!

Iceland won silver in handball at the olympics!!! That´s nothing short of amazing and we are all SO proud of our troup!! You have to remember that Iceland has about 305.000 inhabitants and for us to bring forth silver medalists in handball is terrific!! GO ICELAND!!!

The team will arrive home on wednesday and there is bound to be a huge party to welcome them. And I won´t be there. I am leaving for Germany early tomorrow morning and will be gone till friday. I don´t know if I will have the chance to post, so I will see you guys on friday!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!

ICELAND WON!!! WE ARE IN THE FINALS!!

OMG!! OMG!!! This is soooooooooooo cool!! Iceland just won the semi finals against Spain in handball. 36-30. SUCH a great game!! I am so hyper right now, it's not even funny!! This tiny nation (we are about 305000) and we are in the Olympic finals, baby!! 

More than anybody even dared to dream to dream of!! And what does it show to me? EVERYTHING is possible. And suddenly I realize that I am going to make this. I will succeed in what I want!!

GO ICELAND!! Sunday morning (7.35 am) icelandic time will see me in front of the TV, ready to cheer my team on!! 

HEAR US ROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!

Ooooops.....

I have been quiet lately. For a good reason. I guess you could say I fell off the wagon again with a big thud. I got a very bad cold and the hormones in my body are acting up so crazily, I don't know what to do about it.  My weight is out of hand, as is my eating, my TOM came again this weekend, only about 9 days after the last time, I got bad migraines....... do I need to say more? The stress is really taking a toll of me right now and I can only pray it'll get better soon.

I do have a trip abroad to look forward to, though, I leave on Monday morning, heading for Germany, where I will parttake in a conference being held by the german customs. I think it'll be very interesting.

In any case, I may be a bit silent for a while now, so please bear with me. And do send me some strong vibes, I am fighting to get back on track!!

Going to watch handball now!! Iceland is in the olympic semi-finals! YEAH!!

Going strong!!

Completed 4 days OP and the 5th has already started!! I feel great!! My scale didn't really show a difference this morning, even a small gain, but that has to do with the fact that I ran yesterday and didn't stretch. Silly me. I am really trying to work on not being so focused on the scale all the time. Perhaps I will just try to stay away from it untill wednesday next week, when I have my next weigh in. Wouldn't it be nice to see a really nice change then? That's what I am hoping for!

I did my c25k yesterday, week 3, and it felt good!! It's astounding to see what difference there already is in my constitution, and I can't wait to get it better!!

On Saturday, the 23rd, there's the Reykjavik marathon and my boss is encouraging everyone to take part. They offer 3, 10, 21 and 42 k. I think 3 might be fun, but I am not sure whether it's too early for me. I don't want to rush anything. Thoughts anybody?

Yay me!!

3 days OP and a new day starting. So, day 4 OP here I come!! I will admit to not having gone to the gym yesterday, but that was only because I was finally able to get myself in the mood to tackle the huge pile of clothes I had to iron.... hubby isn't really good in folding shirts, so I basically had to wash all his good ones and iron them up. So yesterday I spent over 1 1/2 hours ironing! And I am so glad I am done. I made up for that by being super good with my eating and so it was a good day. I also think a day off now and then is good, so I don't overdo it. I don't want to burn myself out in a couple of weeks and then fall flat on my face!   Besides, today at lunchtime I plan to go and do my day 2 week 3 of c25k. Look forward to seeing how that will go.

And I can actually report a loss for Endurer's challenge this week!! 1.5 lbs!! I am really happy about that, as I only started on monday, last week was very bad, and had actually gained weight over the weekend, so I have in fact lost 3 lbs.

On a great roll here!! Yippie!!