New Plan...
Ok, so I've decided to start a new plan.... new style.... something I think will make it a lot easier for me to finally lose weight. Actually, it's not new at all... but I'm changing the thinking part and therefore it's new to me.
I have decided to not diet.
Well.... what I have decided to do is.... become a calorie nazi. So I'm going back to counting calories and that's all there is to it.
I have finally realized that losing weight is nothing but calories in and calories out no matter what you eat. So............... calories it is. I am going to aim for a daily calorie intake of between 1300 and 1500.
I can eat whatever I want... but I will always stay in between those calories. I'm not saying that I'm going to eat 1300 calories of McDonalds a day or anything... because that wouldn't work. One meal from McDonalds takes up a majority of my daily calorie intake... making me hungry later in the day and more likely to pass the limit.
BUT if I do want to eat McDonalds... I'm not going to stop myself and work it into my calories.
So with this plan... there is no such thing as cheating. And I think because I know there is no such thing as cheating... I won't eat as much of the bad stuff. And I mean "bad stuff" as in high calorie food that doesn't keep you full for long because it's the size of your fist.
It's all a mental thing for me. I've realized that.
Because when I'm following a diet plan I feel so bad all the time when I cheat and it's so easy to cheat when you're not allowed to have many things on the stupid plan. And all the diet plans out there are nothing but plans making you eat less calories with a mask, if you really think about it. Did that make sense?
So basically, after rereading this... I realize I'm pretty much doing weight watchers without the points... kinda. I'm just counting calories instead of turning them into points. 
I've actually done pretty good for my first day. I had a hard boil egg white for breakfast and a dish of rabbit stew with potatoes for lunch. I'm not sure what dinner will be.
Oooo and another thing I have decided is to only weigh myself once a month.... making it seem even less like a diet. And the main reason for this is so that I don't become obsessed or discouraged because I know that I will be losing weight very very verrrrrrry slowly this time.
I did weigh myself today... and I am up almost 4 lbs (227.4 lb) from the last time because I have been very bad for a whole week. So from now on my weigh-ins will be the first of every month. :)

