I'm still sick and I've been trying to keep up with my new week goal.... salad for lunch. But to be honest, I've only done it twice this week... but that's because I've been skipping lunch a lot (due to my sickness). But I feel a lot better now and I should be all better within the next couple of days... so there's no reason for me to not meet my goal.
I did take a picture and this is my typical salad. Minus the avocados... which I don't usually put in but I was at the store and they just looked so good.
Lettuce, tomato, cucumber, bell pepper, radish, avocado and home made dressing.
The dressing is always dijon mustard, balsamic vinegar, olive oil and salt & pepper. I usually put a lot of vinegar because I like it but it's always different.
So, this time I put [1/2 an] avocado, but normally I have a hard boiled egg or nothing. I don't have to worry about lack of protein because dinner makes up for that.
This is good for me because I don't eat enough vegetables and dinner is usually some meat/poultry/fish and potatoes or rice or pasta or polenta or... you get the point.
I think I'm gonna continue with this goal for another week before trying to make a new one... because I might fail introducing a new one at this moment.
And it sucks that the weather is getting better here because I want to go out. But that's what got me sick in the first place. The first day the weather was starting to get better, I went out and decided to be a tourist and I guess I wasn't dressed well. It wasn't cold to me... but really it was cold it's just that it wasn't cold compared to the days before. And it was really windy which I wasn't expecting.
Anyways... the good thing I got out of that day was that I walked a ton... many many miles. But now my throat hurts, my head hurts, my stomach hurts... you get the point.
I did want to make a new week goal... but I don't know how that's going to go since I don't have much of an appetite. But my new week goal is that lunch will always be a salad. I did that a few times last week and my jeans already started to get a little loose. So I'm excited to see the results when I make it everyday from now on. :)
I've decided to keep last weeks goal for another week because I haven't been making it. I've been out and about all this past week and now my sleeping schedule is even more messed up than usual. But I think now that the holidays are over I can make this weeks goal. :)
I was having internet problems... so I wasn't able to post but I did come up with a new goal for this week and its to have a set sleeping schedule. The latest I sleep is by midnight and the latest I wake up is by 8. So far... I haven't met goal but I'm getting there slowly. And I also increased my water intake to a minimum of 2L a day. I'm thinking my next goal will be to have scheduled meals or something like that. These weekly goals are so slow... but I feel that this way it doesn't seem like I'm changing things too much and I'm more likely to follow. And plus.... even if it's slow... I've wasted a lot more time doing nothing in the past.
I have drank my minimum for yesterday and today. I'm really proud of myself... because I wasn't sure if I could do it. I usually limit my liquids out of habit because I refuse to use public restrooms. Sometimes, if I'm going to really burst and absolutely can't do anything about it... then I will use public toilets... but only for number 1. I have a problem. :p
Anyways... drinking a lot of water has been good because it doesn't really give me a chance to drink anything else. I've only had a cup of not water each day.... and that's pretty good for me. I've been drinking a lot of diet coke lately too because it keeps me off the chocolates and pastries. But I've been wanting to cut down and now it seems to be working. :)
I know I still have a week... but I'm wondering what my next goal will be. I don't want to make my goals too huge so it's easier for me to make it a habit.
It took me a while but I really am back. I went away because I just wasn't feeling the whole diet thing for a while... but I gave it some time, it passed and now I need to get back to losing weight.
I did gain weight while I was taking my break... but I don't know exactly how much. My scale is broken. :( I don't know when I'm going to get a new one... but hopefully soon. But still... I don't care... it's not a big deal to me. Because NSV are what matter most to me.
Anyways... I did gain some weight... and I wasn't happy about it. I started to feel more uncomfortable than usual and started to fear that I might gain even more. I think my weight gain had mostly to do with my baking. I was getting into experimenting with the oven and cakes. So first thing I did was cut out about 90% of the sweets. And now I can tell I lost a little bit of the gained weight because my wedding ring is becoming more loose. YAY! But I still have soooo much work to do.
I have decided that I'm going to just set little goals for me slowly. So.......... goal #1: Drink more water. I have a 1,5L bottle with me that I MUST finish today. And I'll work from there.
So, even though I'm not going to be able to update my weight and my graph will not be moving... I'm back. :)
I just received all the old comment notifications in my email and I didn't even know there were so many. Sorry I haven't been coming onto this site. I'm bad, I know. I've been avoiding it really. Because I was doing so bad. I was eating way too much, when I wanted and however much I wanted. I know I gained some weight but I've also been avoiding the scale like a madwoman. Yes, that's me.... a madwoman. And I've decided to still not go on it. I'm done with the scale. I'll only weight myself when I HAVE to.... probably only at the doctors. I'll go by how my clothes fit for a while... until I can face the scale again.
Good news... I have decided to start counting calories again. I even made a website so I can post pictures and stuff to actually see how much I eat and what (x amount of) calories look like. So, hopefully I will keep it up. My goal is to post daily. :)
I will check in on everybody soon. Hope everyone is doing great!
wow~ I just noticed that EP has added some new things to the site!
I should work on posting more often... like I used to. But lately I haven't been much interested in the computer. I get that once in a while. I just get tired of it. Does this happen to anyone else?
Anyways, I guess I haven't been doing too bad... but it could be better. I've been going over my calorie limit almost everyday... and so that's something I really need to work on. My goal is to stay in between 1300 and 1500 daily but honestly, if I'm under 2000 I'm a happy camper. But I made goals for a reason... so I need to work on it.
Counting calories is really difficult! I use them up so fast and it makes me mad most of the time. But I did notice myself not eating anything I don't know calories for. Like, for example, the other day I wanted a cookie and I looked all over the box and couldn't find the nutrition label so I didn't eat it.
But I'm kinda sad that most things here don't come with nutrition labels... so I can't eat it. Well, I can but I won't. It's just easier for me that way.
Ok, so I've decided to start a new plan.... new style.... something I think will make it a lot easier for me to finally lose weight. Actually, it's not new at all... but I'm changing the thinking part and therefore it's new to me.
I have decided to not diet.
Well.... what I have decided to do is.... become a calorie nazi. So I'm going back to counting calories and that's all there is to it.
I have finally realized that losing weight is nothing but calories in and calories out no matter what you eat. So............... calories it is. I am going to aim for a daily calorie intake of between 1300 and 1500.
I can eat whatever I want... but I will always stay in between those calories. I'm not saying that I'm going to eat 1300 calories of McDonalds a day or anything... because that wouldn't work. One meal from McDonalds takes up a majority of my daily calorie intake... making me hungry later in the day and more likely to pass the limit.
BUT if I do want to eat McDonalds... I'm not going to stop myself and work it into my calories.
So with this plan... there is no such thing as cheating. And I think because I know there is no such thing as cheating... I won't eat as much of the bad stuff. And I mean "bad stuff" as in high calorie food that doesn't keep you full for long because it's the size of your fist.
It's all a mental thing for me. I've realized that.
Because when I'm following a diet plan I feel so bad all the time when I cheat and it's so easy to cheat when you're not allowed to have many things on the stupid plan. And all the diet plans out there are nothing but plans making you eat less calories with a mask, if you really think about it. Did that make sense?
So basically, after rereading this... I realize I'm pretty much doing weight watchers without the points... kinda. I'm just counting calories instead of turning them into points.
I've actually done pretty good for my first day. I had a hard boil egg white for breakfast and a dish of rabbit stew with potatoes for lunch. I'm not sure what dinner will be.
Oooo and another thing I have decided is to only weigh myself once a month.... making it seem even less like a diet. And the main reason for this is so that I don't become obsessed or discouraged because I know that I will be losing weight very very verrrrrrry slowly this time.
I did weigh myself today... and I am up almost 4 lbs (227.4 lb) from the last time because I have been very bad for a whole week. So from now on my weigh-ins will be the first of every month. :)
I just binged on some chocolate cookies and peanut butter. I guess it wasn't that much... 3 cookies and 1 tablespoon of pb... but it's a lot compared to how good I've been doing. And I feel horrible.
I don't know what's wrong with me... these days I'm so motivated with losing weight but there are days when I just don't feel like it. I just don't want to not eat the things I want. Sometimes I feel like I could live off of sweets.
I know I'm just going to have to put this behind me and keep trying... but it doesn't stop me from feeling bad. I will get through this. Tomorrow is a new day... again. Actually, not tomorrow... but starting from now.
One good thing is that I've noticed that I've gotten a lot better at only eating when I'm hungry.... with exception to the current binge.
