Me and my husband got to the gym he went to the basketball court to play and I went to the stationary bikes for my cardio. I did an hour on level one random. The machine supposedly said that in an hour I biked 18 miles and burned 300 cal.
So I finish my cardio and get up to look through the window down into the basket ball court and my husband is sitting on the floor looking at the people play. I went downstairs to where the entrance was and as I opened the door my husband is coming out frusterated. He had not even broken a sweat. I asked him what was wrong. He said that before that group of men started playing him and a group of guys were shooting to select teams. While they were doing this the group of 10 guys come in seperate into two teams and started warming up. The guys that were there before they came in asked if they wanted to shoot for teams. Believe it or not they were all ignored and before you know it the 10 guys were playing full court basket amongst themselves like if no one else there pays 31 dollars a month for the membership
I asked the hubby why didn't he speak up and he said what was the point in starting something up. I said because you want to play bball that was the whole purpose for this gym memership and its not fair that you can not do what you are paying for. He told me to chillax that he would do cardio with me and some of the classes they offered. I don't care I am still upset.
Moving along today I will try level 2 random and see how that goes. I told my husband I wanted to start lifting weights but he tells me just to focus on cardio for now. Any suggestions out there?
This morning I woke up cramping in my thighs and lower back pain. I guess its because of the position you need to be in when you are biking. Hopefully it will not get worse...
Well like many people I just wish there was an easy way to get rid of the fat. If I am skinny my back would not be effected as much. (I have disc digenerative disease) Being over weight puts alot of stress on a back that is already injured for the rest of my life. Plus being skinny would help with my diabetes. My body is insulin resistent because the fat around my cells do not let them observe the insulin needed to bring down my sugar levels.
Like I have said before we (me and hubby) joined the gym the 17th of this month and today will be the first day we attend. Last week was hectic and we were not able to attend. Some where some how I need to find the will power to stick to a healthy plan of living. Slowly but surely I am killing myself by sitting on my a$$ all day and eating what ever I crave when I crave it regardless if I am hungry. The majority of the time I eat because I bored.
Emotionally I am not doing well either. The hubby is depressed over the loss of his job. So his mood swings are insane. One minute he is motivated one minute he is not. One minute he could be smiling and the next he is mad, sad or frusterated. Its effects my moods tremendously. We need to find a way to help each other but we are just not motivated. Then yesterday he comes and tells me that as my husband he has the obligation to inform me that I am getting fatter and need to do something about it. GREAT!!
I am just completely dissapointed in myself. Lets see how this week goes...
This year has been a tough one. January 29th my sister had her second baby boy. Jadiel was born with alot of fluid in his longs and stopped breathing one night. He was rushed to childrens hospital after being stable for the day. He spent his first two months at childrens and also had a blood transfusion before being sent home in the middle of March.
The same week he was let out of the hospital my grandmother was put in with dialysis complications, pneumonia, and severe abdominal pain. Which within a few weeks was diagnosed with stage four cancer. She passed away April 25th.
We returned to Maryland after burying her in PR and that Sunday my husband's car breaks down. So on Monday I get up 2 hours early to bring him to work on May 3rd. He calls me at 11 am to inform me that he had been laid off after 10 years of dedication to the company. So of course he does not have a car so I have to turn around and go pick him up.
Since then we have been in this depression. His is deeper then mine. So I told him we need to get movin and it will help with our moods and energy. So we joined a gym. I know when I used to go to the gym religously and my husband played sports the energy was high and stress levels and depression low.
So I have cleared my charts. And I will start the carb counting, taking blood sugar readings at the appropiate times, journaling my food intake and activities done. Maybe with him going with me to the gym it will make a difference.
I first found this site on 3/20/07. Since then its been nothing but yo yo dieting. For the past 3 years 2 months and 28 days the lightes I have been is 209 the heaviest I have been is 217. I never went back up to my original 224. Thank God. Currently I am at 215.
Since I first started I have tried Curves, profitness, Weight Watchers, Food Journals; calorie, and carb counting. The most successful was a combination of Weight Watches and profitness gym. That was when I managed to get down to 209 and size 16 in pants.
I now live in Maryland and no longer in Texas. The pace of life here is much different and much more stressful. Me and my hubby have decided to change things a bit and we have joined the sports and health center near our home. I hope that I can lose this wieght once and for all.
I have come to accept that there is no quick way to do this and I just have to stop eating so damn unhealthy, and move more. That is the bottom line. I also accept that this is not just eat healthy until I lose it and go back to eating like usuall or I will be back at square one.
But food I think is hard wired into my brain otherwise this would be a piece of cake! Maybe I need some sort of mental therapy. Any who I am going to try this again and see where it takes me.
The scales are finally turning after 3 weeks of going down the wrong way on a one way street
Again I find myself blog surfing. Ladies yall are a great bunch of people. It would be great if I just had one of yall near me so we can excersize together, grocery shop, switch recipes....unfortenately that is not the case. Ya'll make all the difference. The motivation yall give and the inspiration its amazing. Anyways wanted to say thanks to all of yall for being there for me. Even for those who don't comment, just the stories you share and to know I am not the only one out there going through this is motivation.
Well chica's and chico's I will be going to PR manana. See yall when I get back!
I have been taking vitamins for two weeks now right before I go to bed. Let me tell I have noticed a difference in energy. I am up before my alarm goes off at 5 am and full of energy and ready to tackle the new day. Unfortenately by the time the afternoon comes I am dragging.
I am packed and ready to go on Vacay!!!! Going to hit the beaches, the mountains, do a little dancing, a little eating (you can not go to Puerto Rico and not eat their food!) Some swimming and snorkling. I am so ready to go. Yet at the same time its sad. because I am going to see my grandmother who also lives there and she has been very sick for many years and its just getting worse. She has told everyone she is very tired. And I am scared that I am practically going there to say goodbye to her. I cannot travel that often and.....well God only knows this might be the last time I see her.
She has lived a very fullfilling life. A loving husband, 16 children (yes all are hers and her husband) What can I say they didnt have TV back then. Dad is the oldest of the 16 at 54 years old. My aunt is the youngest at 30 years old. We have always been a close family even though they fight like cats and dogs. But thats life withen our family.
So putting the sad part of the circle of life aside. I am in need of some time off and rest and relaxation. Maybe this will do me some good.
I have been blog surfing. Seeing everyones successes. One that I read met her goal today! That must really be exciting! Some of their stories got me thinking.
One young lady wrote about what she misses in regards to food since she started dieting. I started thinking well what do I miss. To tell ya the truth I do not miss eating them. My favorites were mcdonalds breakfast and their double qtr with cheese, Oreos, chinese food. But what I eat satifys me and I do not really miss or crave them. I eat basically the same thing during the week. cereal or cheese sandwich for breakfast, fruit, tuna and crackers for a snack, big ass salad for lunch with a cup of soup, and for dinner it varies.
I just think that I am not excersing enough. At work I will tell myself I am going to go home put some comfy clothes and go for a walk with my crazy golden retriever. I get home, I put on comfy clothes by then its 6:30pm I start cooking dinner and we sit and eat dinner almost 8pm. By then if its not already dark its getting there so walking around the neighborhood is not an option. (my neighberhood is not the best place to be out at night) So thats when i put in my work out videos. But I feel like they are not enough. Especially since the scale is not going anywhere but in the wrong direction.
One lade walked 6 miles a day and broke it up in 2 mile intervals. That would be nice because in TX I actually walked in the afternoons with my dog and it was very relaxing. So to do 2 miles in the morning would require my ass getting up at 4 am. Which its still dark outside (not good idea) Lunch time I really do not have enough time to walk 2 miles but I do walk to the grocery store down the street to get my salad everyday and back. But that is not even a mile.
My husband tells me I do not want it enough to give it my 100%. He says I am giving a 60% at best. Well that is very motivational. He wants me to do this on my own and I want someone to do this with me. When I pull into my neighborhood I see lots of people all different sizes walking, running, and riding bikes. But they all do it in groups of two's or three's. So apparently I am not the only one that wants and excersize buddy. While in TX I always had some to excersize with me. When I would go to curves I had my next door neighbor and when I went to profitness I had a friend of the family. Here in MD its like no one wants to go and try to lose weight. And my entire family has love handles.
So apparently I am going to have to motivate myself or else this is going to go no where fast. I have tried sticking pictures of beautiful models all over my home. Especially on the fridge. And as bad as I want to look like that and not hurt when I move, and be healthy. I can not make myself do it. (outside of my videos)
Anyways today has been a day of thinking, evaluating, so there will probably be another entry to my blog soon.......
So I think I will try swinging at the ball again today. If I practice a few times week for an hour I might just get the hang of this.
In regards to me losing weight and my health. I continue to take my pills and much needed vitamins. During the week I am pretty much OP every day. Its still the weekends that kill me. As far as excersize goes, I practice golf, take the stairs, and do my excersize videos on the nights I do not golf. Trying to drink my 64oz of water. Though I do admit I do not do this all the time. I do not know if any one knows about this subject. But if my body is retaining water, doesnt the more water I drink the more water it retains? That doesnt mean I am going to dehydrate myself, but maybe I should drink as much? Any comments or suggestions?
I am hoping, since I know I will be alot more active in Puerto rico, that I might come back a few pounds lighter.... We will see. I will be walking the beaches, dancing, hiking through the mountains and God only knows what else. I am ready!
My husband also told me that when we get back we are going to do the walks. My WW meeting groups has occasional walks for cancer or other things like that rangeing from 3k-5k. And the hubby says he will go with me on those Sundays. So I am excited about that as well.
One thing is to say you are going to do something. Another is to actually do it. So we will see how things go when I get back from vacay!
Ok I do not know about all that. But let me tell ya. Golfing is no piece of cake. My husband loves the sport. While we lived in TX so did all of his coworkers. I remember one time they all got these camaufloge looking pants and hawaiian shirts. All different colors and they went out to play golf. They were a sight. But since we moved to maryland he has not found a friend to share his passion for the sport. So he asked me to play with him. OMG! So we went and bought me some clubs. Went to the driving range. A couple of things:
1st: Do not wear rings. (I swelled up and couldn't take them off)
2nd: Cut your nails (I took chunks out of my arms with every swing. He offers me and are band after I am bleeding)
3rd: Make sure you stretch your shoulders, arms and back well. (I could barely get out of bed this morning let alone lift my cup of coffee. I am hurting so bad)
To make things worse I didnt even clear 100 ft after hitting the damn ball all day. I did better with the 4 and 7 clubs then I did with my drivers. When I hit the ball with the drivers I could litterly walk a couple feet and pick the damn ball up again and start over. LOL!
So do I get any activity points for all the pain and swinging I did yesterday?
Yes I am back to square one where I started out 2 months ago. I excersized 4 out of seven days. Drank atleast 32 or more ounces of water daily. 2 that I know of I did the full 64. Stayed OP on during the week. Except I will admit I had olive garden twice this week. Once was soup and salad. The second time I actually had a main course. But I didnt even eat it all. And I gained 2 pounds. Can someone explain this to me. I was doing better with no excersize, and with less water then what I am drinking now.
I am extremely upset. Thats why I have been MIA. I feel like I am getting no where with this. My husband suggests that I go try for the lap band surgery. The way I look at it thats a cowardly way out of this. Two months ago when I lost the 4 pounds I was 100% sure I could do this with out some one having to cut into me and go through torture for 3 months of nothing but pureed food. But now that I have gained those 4 pounds again I just feel like giving up and givin in to my husbands suggestion. But the idea of unnecessary surgery to me just does not sound appealing.
I am very frusterated at the moment. And my endo has me taking so many pills, I am just sick to my stomach. She told me that the pills were going to make me retain water. but 4 pounds in 3 weeks of water?? Why bother with trying to lose the weight if the medicine is working against this goal.
I even feel embarressed when I go to WI. I get the same lady each time and she sees slow and steady gains everyweek and she gives me this look like, why you coming here and wasting your money if you are not going to try. (no she did not say it but looks say alot)
So yes I am also feeling like a failure!
When I started this I had 3 months before my trip to Puerto Rico which is May 9th. No I knew I was not going to be in a Bikini LOL! But atleast I was hoping to be one size less. Ya know. And here the trip is around the corner and i am back at square one after 2 months.
(you can not go to Puerto Rico and not eat their food!) Some swimming and snorkling. I am so ready to go. Yet at the same time its sad. because I am going to see my grandmother who also lives there and she has been very sick for many years and its just getting worse. She has told everyone she is very tired. And I am scared that I am practically going there to say goodbye to her. I cannot travel that often and.....well God only knows this might be the last time I see her.
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I excersized 4 out of seven days. Drank atleast 32 or more ounces of water daily. 2 that I know of I did the full 64. Stayed OP on during the week. Except I will admit I had olive garden twice this week. Once was soup and salad. The second time I actually had a main course. But I didnt even eat it all. And I gained 2 pounds. Can someone explain this to me. I was doing better with no excersize, and with less water then what I am drinking now.
