ive descided not go back to beauty college i dont know whether its what i want to do yet so im gonna get a job and help pay off my debts! i keep thinking how i want a photoshoot when im my perfect size just so i can show off my new body that keeps me going.I really fancy this guy but im to scared to tell him probably because im scared of regection and the regection would kill my diet.I just want to be seen as normal when i was on holiday men use to talk to my friends and blank me out i still think its because im big but then maybe its because im shy.
Im 22 now and i aint getting any younger i dont want to stay fat threw all my 20's :-(
its a long journey ahead but i keep thinking 7lbs at at time lets see how i go on ....
i had a great time in magaluf a week was enough for me as i was missing my son.I didnt eat half as much as my friends and there slim but i dont think i gained on holiday so thats a bonus my scales stayed the same at 18st 8lbs.
Im sick of being overweight lads ignore me like im some alien i told my friends to watch out to show i aint being paranoid.Im so glad im single though i dont want to date again for a while i need to get my life sorted first.
Next summer i hope to be somewhere near target,7lbs at a time for me. :-)
I felt like i lost some weight and i was right :-) my first week and i have lost 7lbs what a buzz hehe!! I know that its unhealthy to lose that amount every week but soon as it was my first that was expected.Hopefully i can lose 2lbs a week from now on i cant wait till next weigh in!!
Feeling really good just did a 16 min workout on my exercise bike its programmed and the one i chose helps burn fat so im sweating loads hehe but ive got a buzz out of it
One thing that really suprised me was my monitor on my bike actually works after months of not working i thought it was damaged because it had been in direct sunlight but today it descided to work!! Was it a sign ? lol who knows.
Im going to go on again later,i dont know whether to do my dance workout aswell then again i dont want to do to much as it is only my first week and with all this weight ive had problems in past where my knees have been burning up and hurting so much i can barely walk just because i did my dance work out everyday.
Im looking forward to saturday weigh in but im not if that makes sense? i want to do well but i dont want to feel dissapointed if i dont lose what i thought i might.One day at a time thats all you can do.Ive been keeping track of everything ive ate which really does help.
Not long now till my holiday i will prob cringe at the pics but then they will defo be a before photo i can use when i get to goal.
its nearly a week since being healthy and last night i had a naughty day i aint gonna let it bring me down though!!
Today is a new day and im alloud a treat i just wont have any now untill next week.
I had a chippy tea and had 2 egg on toast as a snack i was a bit down yesturday because me and my ex had a row but hopefully today i wont need to speak to him or see him again so he wont bring me down.
I am going to do my dance workout today as well as 20 mins on exercise bike to make up for it.I will weigh myself on saturday fingers crossed!!
Hello,my name is michelle and i live in greater manchester,uk.
I have been over weight all my life but got really obese when my son was ill in hospital in 2003 i went from 12stone 7lbs to 19st 2lbs in just over 3 years
I am a comfort eater and when anything went wrong or id been called fat at school i would always binge out on junk.
I am a size 22 now but one day i WILL be a 10/12
I have just split up from my bf of three years which was my choice i just drifted apart from him.When i would stop over all we would do is laze around and eat take aways and i probably gained three stone while i was with him.Now im single i dont have to go up to his and eat junk i can make my own choices now and my mum supports me to eat healthy where as my ex would always say start your diet monday i think in some way he didnt want me to lose weight because i might meet someone else.
I still live at home with my mum and i have a 4year old son whos is my lil star he has delayed development so he doesnt act like a 4year old he still cant walk or talk yet but i pray one day her will.
joshuas story is already written up on myspace blog so here the link www.myspace.com/shellytotsuk i havent the time to write it up as my lil monkey is due home any time now,so go have a look!
I am still at college and i will be studying nvq level 3 in beauty therapy in september hopefully one day i can go mobile or just do work as well as a job other than beauty.I really love to do make up so even if i can do wedding make up on a sat that will make my dreams come true
in my spare time i love to go out clubbing/cinema/bowling/shopping etc with my mates
and i love spending time with my family!
On the 28th july i am off to magaluf for a week on a girly holiday and i cant wait!! hehe.
dinner: 4 pieces weight watchers bread and 2 slices of ham with a bit of light mayo moisten the bread.
tea: dunno yet prob something with chicken
Yesturday i did 20 min on my exercise bike and today im just going to tidy up while dancing to my stero and maybe tonight when josh is in bed will do 20 min on bike.
This time i really think that i am going to change my shape and the way i live :-) i will be so glad when i wave bye bye to the 22 pants so thats my first goal to get to a size 20 hopefully before i go on my holiday!!
i thought it was damaged because it had been in direct sunlight but today it descided to work!! Was it a sign ? lol who knows.
hi there