need some buddies

not feeling motivated and need someone who actually cares, im sick of being like this i am now 19st so why do i keep eating rubbish?

where is my gold membership i paid for grrr

no reply off extra pounds,no gold membership and my money has been taken out of my bank its been 4 days now!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

here i am again....

dam just wrote a whole blog and messed it up and lost it grrrr great start lol.

here i go again...

hello,

been off the wagon for a while and ive gained most of the weight i lost last year i am roughly 18st 7lbs but thats going off my dodgy old scales anyways...

ive just ordered some new scales which should arrive tommorow morning (fingers crossed) so when they come i can log my weight,ive already done my measurements

alots been happening for me and my health in past few weeks ive just been diagnoised with polycystic ovaries or pcos for short.

me and my partner are trying to concieve at the moment and was a bit of a shock when i found out but the best thing for me to do is to lose weight.

on wednesday i am getting a mole checked which has changed colour which i am worried about so getting that checked to make sure everythings fine.

over weekend became very ill and sunday night couldnt sleep as i couldnt breathe my asthma was really bad and inhaler wasnt helping  i felt like i was coming down with a cold and had the shivers but they went and my chest got worse so i went to the doctors yesturday and he said i have a nasty chest infection and i am on 8 pills of steriods aday now for a whole week,plus ive been given some penicillin tablets to help get rid of sores on my boobs (caused by being overweight) so you can imagen im out of it lol.

as you can see asthama,sores on boobs are a because of my weight and not eating healthy has made my immune system weak so i get ill easily so it made me decide enough is enough!! 

so here's the plan...

goals

7lb aim at a time

drink more water

cut out carbs

30mins exercise bike a day

reasons

to be healthy

to be happy

to wear nice clothes

help me bring back my confidence

to make me proud

 

ok so we didnt have a nice summer here in the uk as per usual tut but now i have my head screwed on i will aim to get to goal for next summer and who knows i might be able to show off my figure like this

plus the fact that my boyfriend fancys her lol.but theres no chance of me wearing a bikini in this country if we have a repeat performance like this so when i get to goal im gonna treat myself to a nice holiday

 

shell xx

hiya

i am hoping to make more weightloss buddies and can chat on here and through email or msn, anyone up for it?

this year i want to lose 4 stone i think i can do that actually i know i can do that. I am going to go to boots and weigh myself  i know i have gained but at least from now on i know what my start weight was for this new start.

oh yes and the measurements need updating too  hope to speak to some of you soon xx

need to get back on track

anybody got any words of encouragement? i need to lose at least a few stone before xmas other wise i wont enjoy it again xx

yo yo shell they should call me

well had yet another bad week and avoided the scales like the plague!! gonna start to do the slim fast plan tomoz to get me back on track. x

result!

started being really good on monday i weighed in on friday (today) and ive lost 2lbs woooo hard work pays off xxx

omg

i just wrote out a whole blog and when i went to preview it and tried getting back to edit i lost it!! oh well here i go again.

been bad all last week to many take aways and fizzy pop.Not only do i feel guilty but i feel really unhealthy.My skins bad,hairs not as silky as it can be,I feel bloated and feel tired all the time.So why do i continue to be bad???

well one thing is for sure i am not waisting any more of my time being unhappy.Todays a new day  i have printed off a chart so when i do things like 30mins on my bike,drink 8 glasses of water i tick them off.I need to find somewhere to hang it.I am going to take it a stone at a time im not thinking of the 7stone i need to lose just as long as i can try and lose each week and give it my 100% effort then i will be happy.

i got my first tattoo its on my foot its really nice it hurt abit but was worth it.so i know its only on my foot but in summer i want a nice figure to go with it lol so i can walk around in my flip flops and bikini and show it off but i dont think people will be looking at my new tattoo but my new figure.

before i pick up a can of cola im gonna think of those size 10 jeans i want to be slim more than any amount of cola.

reasons for doing it:

be fit and healthy to feel and look sexy for my boyfriend to be able to bath with my boyfriend to be able to try new sex positions for my boyfriend to be able to pick me up and spin me around to fit on a ride at the fair comfortably to shop in normal shops to prove people wrong to be happy to gain more confidence

well now im going to get on my exercise bike to see how unfit i am lol.

i feel positive this week!!

 

shell xx

slipped again!!

When i have a day of being positive it only last a day but i know deep down i can do this  i just need to focus and be stricter on myself.Me and my fella had tgi fridays last night we shared a big starter and then i had burger and chips my belly feels really heavy today and yesturday after the meal i just felt sick i need to listen to my body more when it says im full and to be honest i didnt enjoy the junk food and know in my heart i want to be slim more.

Ive been meaning to drag the exercise bike from the garage and never get round to doing it but after ive wrote this i am going to bring it in and do 30mins on it.I need more action in my life and i need to take control i want to be a size 14/16 for summer  i can do this i can,i can, i can!!

Ive drank cola all last week too so no more of that and no more takeaways not even as a treat im sick of them yuk!! my treats from now on are going to be something nice like jewellery or a manicure after ive lost 1 stone.

Im getting my first tattoo on sat my fella is paying and i cant wait  im having a design on my foot will post a pic when its done,my boyfriend treats me like a princess ive never had money spent on me when its not for an occasion hes the  best and im so loved up i cant wait to feel sexy and wear nice underwear for him.Im 23 this year and im not planning on wasting anymore of my life being unhappy with my weight.

 

right best get on my bike!!

be good

shell xx

feeling possitive

 

Id love to have her figure she works hard to keep in shape dancing is the best form of exercise i hope i look this good when i get to goal i dont want no saggy bits lol.Im really possitive today im going to focus on my first mini goal and not my total goal of losing 7stone.

Get to my 10% goal of 15st 1lbs

get into a size 18

drink more water

regular exercise

mositurise daily and use cream to help tighten skin

I am going to aim to get these goals done by the end of april.Im going to finish the rest of the house work and then im gonna try and do my hip hop work out its an hour so i hope im not two unfit to do it,when i was a few stone lighter i did it 5 times a week and lost 5lbs a week.I dont want to lose weight to quick but i think its important for me to get active.

Im going to look into going swimming during the week while josh is at school as im still looking for a job i dont really like to swim but i love water aerobics so hopefully i can find a class.

need to get moving

 

shell x