08/18/2008 17:33
Girlz just want to have fun
We had a wonderful weekend
as usual it went by too fast. I only have to wait until 9/6 before I see her again. We are going to a Maroon 5 concert.
I do feel better after our weekend but I still can't shake this mood I am in. Hopefully with school starting next Tuesday that will help get my bootay in gear. Hope all is well :)
XO,
A
08/14/2008 14:39
Fumbling towards nothing...
Before anyone starts to worry...I am still around. I have had a rough couple weeks. I am not really sure what is going on with me. I am rebelling against what was, what is and what will be. I haven't been up to much of anything. Seriously. I haven't been to the gym. I haven't ran. I haven't been eating well. All that translates to an increase in the numbers on the scale. I did clean out my closet Tuesday in an effort to spark a fire to get these last 70 pounds off; that fire lasted about a day.
School starts in exactly 11 days and I am trying to enjoy not having any commitments or making any commitments and trying NOT to worry about a thing. Although there is that little smidgen of me that is worrying about my weight but I obviously don't worry about it enough to actually do anything about it. I guess the good news is I didn't gain 40 pounds like I did last summer. I've gained 10 pounds. So all is not lost.
I have this feeling that something is not right. I just don't feel like myself. It's weird. I have just a very unsettled feeling. I can't seem to get focused on anything. I am not interested in losing weight. There are a variety of things that I am stressed about and maybe they are just occupying too much of my thought process? I don't know.
Thankfully my BFF will be here tomorrow for a girl's weekend. We have afternoon tea at 3 and then a concert that evening. Saturday we are going shopping since it is "tax free" weekend. Should be fun.
In other news.. we have booked a family Thanksgiving get-a-way for four days. After the previous years' thanksgiving fiascoes I made an executive decision that from here on out we will rent a cabin somewhere and that will be our "tradition" The cabin for this year is in the Arbuckle Mountains. Its got a wicked hot tub on the porch over looking the mountains.Our own private lake with a boat and loads of fish to be caught (and released) I CAN NOT WAIT!! No phones... no computers....no school. Hopefully I will have my act together by then.
I met one of my SWK buddies from school last Saturday. We will have ALL our classes together starting next semester and will be able to carpool. Which is awesome because that will save A TON of money! We will also graduate at the same time too. It's just nice to have a school buddy that is going through the same thing you are at the same time.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and for those of you that are having cooler weather please send some to the Lone Star State!!!
XO,
A
08/04/2008 17:45
Spank me and call me worse than mud.
What a crappy weekend. TOM arrived Saturday. I felt like you know what. I did so good all day Saturday until that evening. I was meant to go grocery shopping and didn't so Peter and I went to the "expensive" grocery store just to get some milk. Well right as we walk in he heads for the BAKERY! Then proceeds to tell me we need to have a movie night which translates into let's just buy a lot of junk food and watch TV. So SIXTY bucks later I had two bags full of crap. Dear me. WHY WHY WHY. Of course the left over junk leads into Sunday's crash and burn and I did fine today until I got home from the gym and had a handful of the peanut M&M's that are still around. DANG IT
In other news. My govt. class is OVER. I got my final grade today...an A!!!! Wooohoooo! My PE class will be over Friday but I have already finished all my work for that one... Let my summer vacation commence (what's left of it anyway)!
I have loads and loads to do this week.
- Post office
- Party City for cards
- Bank
- Grocery Store
- Pick up race packet for Sunday's race & get some of that anti chafe stuff for Peter.
- Laundry
- Order books for fall classes
- Clean out chest-of-drawers
- Buy Birthday presents for 4 peeps
- Pedicure (maybe)
phew... I am sure there is more but that's all I can think of right now... I have another list somewhere.
Ok so tomorrow is another day. Guess I best pick myself up dust my bum off and get ready to have a great ON PLAN TUESDAY!
XO,
A
08/02/2008 09:16
Breakthrough...
I made a significant break through folks. I am talking MAJOR stuff here. First of all let me start out by saying how much better I feel. My neck is about 80 percent better, still has a little "twang" in it but nonetheless it is much better. I do believe I can resume regular activities now.
Yes, a break through. Last night I wasn't in the mood to cook. I had started my LAST govt. paper and was on a roll and really just lost track of time. So Peter asks the usual question, what's for dinner. He wanted Taco Bueno...I thought no not TB! So I looked to see how many calories I had left for the day which ended up being around 800. Ok I thought, I can do this. I don't have to get "my usual" there. Lets check out there menu online. After looking at the nutritional info I decided that 2 chicken soft tacos and a skinny cup of tortilla soup would be the perfect solution. I still managed to have 300 calories left!!! This is such a breakthrough for me. I KNOW I made an awesome decision!!!
TOM just got here and I really hope I am going to see some good numbers on the scale this week when its gone. Seems my body is liking the 214-215 range even though I have been kicking butt and taking names at the gym. But I can rest knowing I am doing what I am supposed to do.
Don't have a lot planned for this weekend. I need to take my govt test then I am DONE!!!! What a load off!!! I need to grocery shop and maybe I will clean out my closet and chest of drawers?!??! I like to clean out things. We didn't run this morningx so I need to get my miles in today, think I will just run on the treadmill though. Its going to be 104 today. ouch.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!! Here's to an on plan weekend!!!
XO,
A
07/31/2008 21:08
Quick Update
I am still in lots of pain. I probably should have went to the dr. today but the thought of driving just hurts. I am praying tomorrow I will feel better. I haven't been able to work on any of my school work, read blogs or anything for that matter. :( Thanks for all the get well wishes. Yea!!! Tomorrow is Friday!
XO,
A
07/30/2008 19:42
Wednesday Waffle On
Not much of a waffle on though. This is going to be short and sweet because I can't sit at my pc very long. I woke up with a very painful crick in my neck. I can't look up, right or left. But get this....this guy in scrubs came in my office to drop off bank statements from one of our clients... he asked me if I had a crick in my neck. (wonder what gave that away) I said yeah... Guess what HE'S A CHIROPRACTOR and works for a c;ient of ours who is a chiro too ( I didn't know that he was though) so anyways he asked me if I wanted an adjustment and I wasn't about to turn him down. So I said yes and he adjusted me right there in my office. After that I had a little more up and down movement but still in a lot of pain. So I am not running tonight :(
If my neck isn't better in the morning I am going to go back and let him work on me again, and get some x-rays.
Anyway. Hope everyone had a wonderful day. I was going to make my roundson the blogs but just typing this is really killing my neck. So I bid adieu...til tomorrow :)
XO,
A
07/29/2008 12:59
My Favourite Lunch
I wanted to share my quick and easy favourite lunch! You can make this in under 10 minutes If you have the rice already cooked.
3/4 cup Instant Brown Rice
1/2 cup Black Beans
1/4 cup Sweet Corn
2 tbsp. Salsa
1 whole avocada 6 oz. (optional but oh so good and its counts as my fat for the day)
Calories : 280
Fat: 1g
Protein: 12g
Fiber: 9g
If you add the avocado that would add 161 calories, 15 g fat,14 fiber and 2g protein!
So so so good!
XO,
A
07/29/2008 09:21
Happy Tuesday Morning...I am keeping it real!
Ahhh yes Tuesday, my day off! LOVE IT! I had a wonderful Monday yesterday. Ate on plan. Met teacher girl at the gym. Bosses were out. Had a wonderful evening with Peter. Actually, we went to go see Journey to the Center of the Earth in 3-D. I have never seen a movie in 3-D and it was quite an experience that I really enjoyed.
I don't have a whole heck of a lot planned today. I need to go to the gym of course. I want to start my LAST govt. paper so I don't have to do it over the weekend. I have the usual domestic duties to do. That's really about it.
I know it takes effort to succeed at doing something. No matter what that something is. If at the end of the day I can honestly say I did my best I can feel good about the outcome and I can call that a H.Q.D.. But I have found that I have to be real about losing weight. Every little bit I do counts. Everything counts when I am losing weight. If I don't get in all my water that counts. If I don't eat all my calories that counts (or if I eat to many). If I don't exercise that counts. If I think I can have a small bite of whatever that counts. It all counts. I don't want to sell myself short by thinking those things don't count. I have got out of the habbit of lying to myself about those things not counting. Don't get me wrong its ok to splurge a little. It's ok to miss a day of exercise but what matters is what's in my heart. If I want to eat a little more because I am depressed that's not ok. If I don't want to exercise because I am being lazy well that's not ok either. I know in my heart why I do or don't want to do something and if its for the wrong reasons well shame on me. Today I am the same weight I was at in May but I am at that weight because I wasn't keeping it real. I let myself get away with things that I knew wouldn't help me to reach my goal. 3 months later I haven't gone anywhere. I'm ok with that though. I am keeping it real now and I have promised myself to keep it real until I get to goal. I am also giving permission to anyone who sees me NOT keeping it real to give me a wake-up call.
Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!
XO,
A
07/27/2008 22:27
The end is in sight
of summer school that is!!! Next Sunday is IT. I just realized this today as I was going over my next assignments for government and P.E.!!!!! YEA!!!!! YEA!!!! YEA!! I'm not excited or anything.
I've had another H.Q.D.! That makes eight in a row. I woke up a 7:30 started the coffee and eat my brekkie which consisted of plain quinoa with a little butter spray and splenda with two morningstar sausage links. Something I have noticed when I eat the quinoa is that I don't get hungry until around 1.I am all for that! I will be eating it tomorrow for brekkie too. I finished my paper and then took the test. So I am all done with school until about Wednesday. I didn't work out today (it was my day of rest) but I did burn a few calories washing my ride in the 103 degree heat.
I forgot to mention that Friday night Peter wanted MCD's.... I wanted to run in to the grocery store next to the bank and get a salad. So I opted to get a salad at MCD's. I had enough calories left I knew it would be ok. So I got the Southwest Chicken Salad (grilled of course). Let me tell you.... that is the BEST Salad I have ever had at MCD. There are 420 calories WITH the dressing. Fat 15 and Fiber 7 and 31 protein. Its has 9 points. Not to bad. It really fills me up. It was so good that I ate it again tonight for dinner. YUMMY Folks! Seriously.
Now let me explain about my mantra "lift the knees, hold the egg, don't forget the stick". The doc told me that I needed to lift my knees more and that would help a lot with my stride. The hold the egg is to help me remember to not clench my fists when I run. I need to pretend like I am carrying a delicate egg. and don't forget the stick means not to swing my arms when I run. Its almost like I am twisting my upper body so I pretend like I am holding a yardstick to keep my arms straight. So there ya go.
I guess that's all I have for now. Hope everyone has a great rest of the evening.
XO,
A
07/26/2008 21:17
Oh well...
Yeah so lunch was a bust. I made up for it though. Honestly, I can cook. For dinner I had chicken and dill glazed cucumber. That hit the spot! I didn't succumb to my cravings. Instead of eating crap I drank a Fuze Slenderize. Let me tell you if you haven't tried these yet they are really good and help with my hunger pains. They only have 10 calories per serving and 2 net carbs. I also had 2 pita chips with the hummus I made. That turned out awesome too. Other than lunch the entire day wasn't a total bust. Actually it started out really well. I woke up at five and with no problems. I felt really good. I ate breakfast which consisted of my usual pre-run brekkie. Two packages of weight control oatmeal and a morningstar patty. I stretched for about 15 minutes before I had to leave. I got to the club house around 6:45 and waited for my run buddy to get there. When she got there I got out of the car and she presented me with a little pressie. An IPOD SHUFFLE!!!! Woooohooooo. DO you know how long I have been wanting one of these????? I couldn't get home fast enough to put my songs on there.
Running went better than my cooking. Even at 7 am it was still hot but we did a residential route and a lot of it was in the shade; unlike the lake route. I did a 5:1 ratio most of the 4 miles. The hills really stuck it too me.This will make no sense to anyone reading this but I made up a little mantra that I use to remember what the dr. at my video gate analysis told me I needed to change when I run. Lift the knees, hold the egg, don't forget the stick. I chanted that as I wogged up those hills. Towards the end of the run we met up with this really nice lady who gave us a few tips. I burned a little over 500 calories.
I have been working on my school work off and on today. I still haven't finished my paper and I am using my blog as a *clears throat* diversion. Sometimes I just need a break.
Tomorrow's plans are just to finish whatever schoolwork I didn't finish today and to try and relax. Its is also my rest day (no workouts).
I'm off to hit the books.
XO,
A
