Disappointed

So last night I plugged in a zumba DVD... they are anywhere from 20 minutes to an hour long. I started out doing them with my cousin and 2 aunts, but to drive there 5 days a week or even 4 for that matter is a 2 hr drive round trip, that's a lot of driving when you've worked an 8 hr stressful day...Any way, i got myself a copy of this "new craze" of exercise disks, went to the basement plugged them in and started.

Every time I did zumba in the group with my family we always did the whole thing start to finish. Last night out of the 50 minute video i only actually did 30 minutes of it.

I find that doing any kind of work out is better when your doing it with a buddy.

I got frustrated cause I want to WANT to do the whole disk, but with out some one pushing me....30 minutes was all I gave.
I'm a little disappointed I guess.

Stepped on the scale this morning and said 262.4 .... just 2 days ago I weighed an even 260.
So aggravating ! 

When I was doing weight watchers a little while back they said that your weight is going to fluctuate anywhere between 1 and 5 pounds through out the day, ( I guess that's why they say not to weigh yourself every day ). But still. I have really been eating as much ... Today after I ate lunch at work ( one chicken breast, maybe a half a cup of mashed potatoes and half a cup of stuffing and a yogurt) I was half way through my yogurt and felt like I was going to vomit cause I felt so full.
I guess that's a good thing tho to eat a controlled portion.

Well that's all I have for today.

Pork chops and boiled potatoes for dinner with a little side salad.

"Weighty" or Not

All the intentions of losing the weight is there, how ever the motivation is absent
Its hard to eat healthy on your own, let alone when your room mates shopping list consists of Devil Dogs and Oreos...When its staring you in the face and if they so happen to be your favorite ! Will power at this point is very important, how ever like my motivation its absent.

I haven't always been a bigger girl, sure I don't care for it but it never REALLY bothered me until I was told that if the weight doesn't come off them my chances of becoming a mother are almost non-existent.
This is NOT ok with me, Ive always wanted kids, so I need to shape up or say good bye to the feature Ive dreamed of.

Not to mention im going to be a newly-wed ! So excited for that part of my life to start too !!  I was proposed to on December 11th 2010...Here we are February 7th 2011 and I haven't even set a damn date yet. A friend of mine asked me the other day.. "Have you set a date" ? I looked at her and said.. "if you think i'm getting married FAT you are crazy" ...

Sounds silly doesn't it ?!?! It does now that its down on paper. But this isnt me, I want the old me back, the me that was skinny not so long ago !

So hopefully now that I've jumped on the ban wagon hopefully I can find the help and push from others who are feeling the same way I am, and we can get this done together !