damn computers!!

i just spent like 15 min. writting my heart out... and it LOST IT!! grr.. well I'm down 3 pounds.. don't feel like going into it again... yeh for me.

This is actually still March 25th...

I had a big fight with my 15 year old son today, first thing I wanted to do was have a glass of wine!!! Can't do that... on week one of South Beach, no booze, till third week!! GRRR! Snuck a cigarette instead! Tasted like when I first started smoking 20 years ago.. either that or the smoke was REALLY stale.. i've had it in my car for at over a month now! ( it was the last one I have)

I also had a HUGE urge to eat something BAD Thought about it for along time and finally went over to my friends house and vented and she feed me a suger-free fudgicle!! MMmmmm! Stayed over there till my husband put the kids to bed and came home. The house is quiet now ( it's 11:15 p.m.) The fire is on, the cat is sleeping beside me.. life is calm again. I'm thankful for the friends that I have, and my two teenagers, even though they can be trying at times. I wish my husband would get more involved in disipline, he just dosn't notice...*sigh* ... well.. I guess I should go to bed,, I have a job "test" tomorrow, to see if I can type and use about 4 diffrent programs. Pay is good if I can get it... almost out of Unemployment so need to get a job, can't be picky anymore!! **HEAVY SIGH** goodnight all....

Hmmmm

Well my weight lose has stalled already.. I'm only on day 7...I thought I'd keep going down as long as I wasn't cheating. Oh well...I'm still happy with the results so far 3 lbs in a week , without really exerciseing is really good. My Gym opens up again today after the holiday so i'm going to go do a real workout today....here's hoping...

Feeling better....

Well I went and worked out in the garden all day, had a turkey salad for lunch...hmmm I wonder if it was the turkey that made me gain weight.. it was a ButterBall, not exactly low fat or anything....oh well.. i'm behaving with my food today and doing lots of exercise...well.. not lots.... but I went outside...see what my numbers are tomorrow.

Argggg!!

Well, I gained back a pound!! I did SOOOO well yesterday too. I drank, like, 3 litres of water, only had tukey, no stuffing, cranberrys, or mashed potates!! I made my fake mashed potate4s out of califlower and made a huge salad and watched my family pig out!! No chocolate....ARRG!!! I even waited and extra hour after the first weigh in to have another B.M. and tried again.. still the same.. well I have to go and find something to do... can't stay in the house waiting for B.M's!! Hopefully better day tomorrow!

All I can say is WOW!!

I feel great! I've lost another pound!  I also ate 1 brownie and 3 muffins yesterday ( black bean browine and flaxseed muffins, but VERY good!) I'm never hungry, I never thought a diet could be like this. I'm going to make a pancake with syrup for breakfast ( flaxseed again and no-sugar maple syrup, but who cares, I havn't had pancakes in years, with out guilt!) I am actually getting to WANT to weight my self, granted i'm still HUGE 204 pounds isn't model thing yet, it isn't even healthy yet. I think I am still in the "obese" rank from the dr. point of view. I think i'm going to go for a long walk today as it's not raining, and fairly warm out there. bye for now!!

Slowly, slowly

Well another day, another pound!! Yah! So 3 days and 3 pounds is good. I think I'm going to throw some exercise into the mix today as well

But first off to my girlfriends who is making no-sugar maple syrup!! MMMM, I found a flax pancake and some crepes we are allowed!! I LOVE have the internet, just type in the diet, and all these site come up with amazing cook books and hints and stuff. Well, off to concer the day, good luck today people!!

Day 2

Well it was a GOOD morning, i'm down 2 pounds already!! And i've only been on this diet for TWO days!! If this trend continues, i'll be down 14 by the time phase two kicks in! Yahh!!

Have to start somewhere...

Okay.. so it's time to diet again!! I keep thinking I look great, untill I see pictures friends take and say, "Who's the big girl?" and then realize it's ME!! I was slimas a child and young adult, so I still think I'm about 130-150lbs.... i'm now 207lb!! ( Who's the big girl !?!?) So my girlfriend is a doctor and she started on this diet for her health, sure wasn't to lose weight as she started at 135!! She's now down to 122lbs.. but she feels healthier. I want weight loss as well as health, my granfather died when he was only 46 from a massive heart attack... i'm 38, oh, and I also just quit smoking 2 months ago as well! This is my year to shine, there is nothing I can't accomplish!!