Lets face it

I suck at this.  It's been over a month since I've posted.  I'm not losing any weight, so why bother.  I'm not gaining either, so that's good.  In fact, Lisa mentioned to me this morning how I maintain so easily.  That should make me feel good, right?  Not really.  It kind of means I'm lazy.  Otherwise, I'd be losing weight.  That's not a good thing for the self-esteem.  I don't think I'm a lazy person.  *sigh*

Here's a good one for you.  The thought has crossed my mind that if I lose weight I will need to buy new work clothes.  I can't afford that right now.  At least not until I get a new (full time) job.  One more reason to feel OK when I'm eating the chocolate or drinking the Dr. Pepper.

So, I'm stressed.  The holidays are here.  My job keeps me at work on the weekends even though I only work part time.  So I miss quality time with my family because they are at school during the week and off on the weekends.  I'm part time, so I'm not making as much as I'd like to, which really hurts this time of year.

I'm not a negative person but I need something good to come my way.  I understand that I should be grateful for the things I have and I am.  Really.  I must keep the faith.  But, honestly, sometimes I'm just not good at it.  I do know that eventually everything will work out.  I just wish it was on my time table.

My apologies to those of you who actually have it bad and just read thru all my completely unnecessary whining.  But, thanks for listening.  I just needed a good ear.

nothing good

i was reading a book last night that talked about changing the things we can and accepting the things we cannot.  I do not see it as whining.  It is the moments that we are uncomfortable that prompt us to change, to something better, to the next level.  

Vent On.

It's okay, we all have those days. I personally am here thinking of what I want to post and can't think of anything but what is wrong right now, but it's certainly okay to get it right somewhere.

Being thankful for what you have is a great thing, but like people are always telling me, sometimes opportunity doesn't come knocking at our door, we have to seek it.  And with determination, I'm sure you can get where you want to be.

I still have work to do myself.  The house, the land, the horses, the breas lift.  I want all that.  And I will do it before I die.

Good Day!

B

ps.  and if no one has told you here at EP.  I am extremely proud of you for serving.  THANKYOU.