Bad Start to First Day...

I don't sleep like normal people. For example: last night, I stayed up, because it's my only "me time", and didn't go to sleep until 4 in the morning. This is not a good idea, because I have class in the mornings, and I have a poor little dog who has to wait for her lazy mother to get out of bed so she can go use the bathroom.

The best day I've had lately was when I got in bed at midnight, and woke up at 8:30, took Ellie (my dog) on a walk, made whole wheat pancakes with homemade blueberry syrup, and sat and read while I ate them, until 10:30 when it was time for me to go to class.

Next... Most of the time I sit and feel absolutely TERRIBLY for my poor little dog, who gets MAYBE 3 walks a week, and who does get ALL of my attention, but it's lazy attention, not play time, not park time, just cuddle time. I keep telling myself that Ellie deserves better, but I never do it. She is such a good dog, and she's so playful!

My problem: I'm lazy. I am one of the laziest people I know. This hurts me and others in so many ways. 1) it's the reason I'm so heavy, 2) it's the reason Ellie doesn't get a daily walk, 3) it's the reason I eat unhealthily sometimes, 4) it's why Gavin (my boyfriend) and I fight, when we rarely fight at all!, and 5) it's the reason I don't go to class.

My solution: one a day vitamin. I'm thinking this will be a quick fix, and it will help me in the short run, at least to get my ass out of bed and go to class.

My support system: Gavin. I do not have many friends, but I do have my absolutely wonderful, supportive boyfriend Gavin. Although sometimes, he's the reason I fail at diets. Gavin is so supportive and thinks that I am the most beautiful person in the world. He would be completely happy if I didn't lose any weight at all. Gavin also eats VERY unhealthily, and I can't help but share when it's there.... the worst is the pizza.

Solution: do it for yourself! This time, I want to lose weight for myself. I want to be able to go shopping and buy expensive clothes, and not feel badly about it because I won't be able to wear them long, but I'm going to wear them out! I'm going to be able to fit into designer jeans again, and I'm going to be comfortable flying. I'm going to look in the mirror and think, wow.... you look GOOD! My ultimate goal is that in March 2010, when gav and I get married, I'm going to wear a size 8 wedding dress. :)

I'm ready to commit my life to losing weight, but I need a support system. Anyone who is up to it, hit me up. I need a critic (other than my mother), and I need someone to care about my health.

Hi there : )

Don't be down on yourself. You've recognised what you'd like to change, and now you can work on doing it a small step at a time.

Are you sure you're 'lazy'? Most people who think they're lazy really aren't - it's the people who deny to high heaven that they're lazy who might be! Are you maybe overwhelmed by how much you want to change, or setting yourself overly high standards, or anxious, or depressed, or something? If you can identify specifically why you don't want to do what you'd like to be doing, it'll be easier to change.

All the best with your weight loss, and hope you enjoy EP.

Rach xxx

Thank you!!

Thank you so much for your support!! :)

You gooo!!!!

The more you get up and move, the more you'll FEEL LIKE getting up and moving!!! Personally I know how you feel tho...I'm lazy too (Just not when anyone is around). Sometimes when my hubby goes to work I sit on the couch/computer chair and do nothing for HOURS. Talk about a way to pack on the pounds!!! So I really do understand...but I've been forcing myself to get up, and get moving. I get out of bed, make coffee and try to stay on my feet walking or cleaning or SOMETHING distracting befor I sit my butt down. When I sit down, I wont be up for a while....I've made myself a time that is me time Monday-Friday. I love to watch Dr.Phil, so on those days I wake up, walk, clean, etc and then at 3 o'clock I sit my butt down and watch Phil without feeling guilty or bad for doing it. Then, usually the cleaning is done, the walking is done, and I have nothing left for the rest of the day I do whatever. If that means be lazy, then be lazy!!! I know you'll be a size 8 when you get married and congraduations on that. I was a size 16 when I got married, and I wish I would have lost the weight before we said the 'I Do'. If there's any way I can be a support to you, I want to be! We can do it together, we will not fail this time! Like you, I cannot afford to fail for my health ether, so I will be a support to you in that way as much as I can! ~HUGS~