Where's the motivation??

I want to be a teacher. Let me tell you a little about myself:

I've always been a fantastic student, making all A's in High School, and making a 29 on my ACT with a hangover from Hell.  I'm not tooting my own horn, but I'm pretty smart. The thing that makes me so mad at myself, though, is that I am a senior at the University of Alabama, and my GPA definitely does not reflect my intelligence. I have a 3.1, when I could probably have closer to a 3.8 if I had applied myself.  It's not even that I'm spending my time having fun. Most of the time when I skip class, it's because I'm just too lazy to get out of bed and go. But the weird thing is is that I LOVE my classes! I wish I could just live on campus again with a roommate who MADE me go to class... yes... it's sad... that's pretty much what has to happen!

I've most recently decided that instead of going straight to grad school, I'm going to go to undergrad for an extra semester and go ahead and get my certification to teach. I want to succeed. I need help. Tell me how to get my sleep schedule on task. HELP ME! :) Thanks for being so supportive guys!

When it comes to diet things, I'm not doing very well either.  I don't know what's wrong with me. I was doing perfectly at first! I had a glass of red wine and ahi Tuna for dinner and was FULL, but I still ate the sandwich my boyfriend bought for me at Sonic. I WASN'T EVEN HUNGRY!! Weird eh? Anyway... I'm going to walk my poor little dog tomorrow. She's so good. Thanks for listening!

Weekend Woes...

WOW what a weekend! Well after a few too many drinks last night, I completely stopped counting calories, just knowing that it would be depressing! I keep telling myself I'm going to get up and go work out, but noooooooo... I stay up until 3:17 in the morning and then sleep until noon on the weekends. I know it sounds wonderful... like the life of a true college queen... but it's not how I like to live.

I enjoy my life. I really do. I love my boyfriend. I have fantastic friends. I love my classes. I have great parents. I really do enjoy myself too. I think that I have a lot going for me, but all I'm missing is the kickin body to go with it. haha.

Just a side note... I have the absolute best dog in the world!!! She is so wonderful!! :) :) just thought y'all should know!!

Bad Start to First Day...

I don't sleep like normal people. For example: last night, I stayed up, because it's my only "me time", and didn't go to sleep until 4 in the morning. This is not a good idea, because I have class in the mornings, and I have a poor little dog who has to wait for her lazy mother to get out of bed so she can go use the bathroom.

The best day I've had lately was when I got in bed at midnight, and woke up at 8:30, took Ellie (my dog) on a walk, made whole wheat pancakes with homemade blueberry syrup, and sat and read while I ate them, until 10:30 when it was time for me to go to class.

Next... Most of the time I sit and feel absolutely TERRIBLY for my poor little dog, who gets MAYBE 3 walks a week, and who does get ALL of my attention, but it's lazy attention, not play time, not park time, just cuddle time. I keep telling myself that Ellie deserves better, but I never do it. She is such a good dog, and she's so playful!

My problem: I'm lazy. I am one of the laziest people I know. This hurts me and others in so many ways. 1) it's the reason I'm so heavy, 2) it's the reason Ellie doesn't get a daily walk, 3) it's the reason I eat unhealthily sometimes, 4) it's why Gavin (my boyfriend) and I fight, when we rarely fight at all!, and 5) it's the reason I don't go to class.

My solution: one a day vitamin. I'm thinking this will be a quick fix, and it will help me in the short run, at least to get my ass out of bed and go to class.

My support system: Gavin. I do not have many friends, but I do have my absolutely wonderful, supportive boyfriend Gavin. Although sometimes, he's the reason I fail at diets. Gavin is so supportive and thinks that I am the most beautiful person in the world. He would be completely happy if I didn't lose any weight at all. Gavin also eats VERY unhealthily, and I can't help but share when it's there.... the worst is the pizza.

Solution: do it for yourself! This time, I want to lose weight for myself. I want to be able to go shopping and buy expensive clothes, and not feel badly about it because I won't be able to wear them long, but I'm going to wear them out! I'm going to be able to fit into designer jeans again, and I'm going to be comfortable flying. I'm going to look in the mirror and think, wow.... you look GOOD! My ultimate goal is that in March 2010, when gav and I get married, I'm going to wear a size 8 wedding dress. :)

I'm ready to commit my life to losing weight, but I need a support system. Anyone who is up to it, hit me up. I need a critic (other than my mother), and I need someone to care about my health.