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Size 33 waist??

I sure am!! I just measured today and I am a 33 now. When I first started this blog I believe I was a 41. The rest of my measurements are...

Neck- lost .5

Bicep- lost .5

Arm- lost 0   : (

Chest- lost 3.5

Waist- lost .5

Hips- lost 3.5

Thigh- lost 1

Calf- lost .5

All in all I think its wonderful. Its amazing to be able to sit without feeling like I have a muffin top LOL. I cant wait to see how much further I can push my body. I was not meant to be overweight I know that it is possible for me to meet my goal of 150lbs. I think I may even be able to go as low as 120lbs, not right now of course but someday soon. I am still getting used to the number 33.

new goal

I just realized that I am not going to meet my goal weight in the next 30 days. I have 30 days left and about 20 lbs left so that means I would have to lose less than 1lb a day and thats not very healthy. So I am giving myslef a little more time even though I am still going to work really hard to get as close as possible to it. When I first started blogging I was so fat, and now well I am still fat but definately not as fat as when I started. Will blog soon later Hubby screaming at baby and mommy has to get in the middle.

is it wrong to feel good??

I went swimming yesterday for about 2 hours and I did REALLY good. I havent hit the pool in a while so it was a big deal for me to swim my 500 in 5 minutes. Well while in the pool I had 3 different men approach me to ask me for "tips" on technique and to find out how long I had been swimming, stuff like that. Well two of those guys wanted my number. Of course I didnt give it out because not only am I married but as I posted on my last blog I am completely and totally in Love with my husband. I hate to say it but I felt really good about myself after my work out. Not only did I have a good work out but I found out that Men are still intrested in me and find me attractive. Its hard to hear sometimes when men compliment me and I think it mostly has to do with the fact that my husband doesnt do it anymore. We have bonded a little more since my last blog. He is starting to look at me in a different light. I have taken all the things he told me and turned them into my motivation heaven forbid he ever leave me I want to be able to feel good about myself for myself, not for anyone else. I want to be able to look in the mirror naked and say "Id do me!" LOL just kidding. But you get the point. I want to heal myself for myself and my daughter. Im still hurt but I am slowly finding myself back to the old Happy me. Just weird to find out that I would be okay without him. I know I would be ok without him.... I just dont want to be without him. I dont know. Lets leave it at things are starting to turn around.

oh so depressed :( but lost 4lbs

I lost more weight but unfortunately not because I was working out. My husband confessed to me last week that he was confused about his feelings for me. It hit me pretty hard. So losing weight is easy all of a sudden. I am nauseated at the thought of all his hurtful words and haven’t been able to really eat anything. I put food in my mouth and I can’t taste the flavors that used to be there. We are doing the counseling thing which seemed to help a little but only time will tell. What do you do when the person that you are totally head over heels for tells you that he feels confused about the way he feels about you? We had really good make up hanky panky but afterwards those words still burned in my mind. I know in my heart that he loves me and wants to be with me but I just can’t get over the fact that he sometimes feels "confused?" I’m not sure; I just don’t know how to be around him anymore. I don’t feel that my weight had anything to do with it but how do you really know? I am back to the size I was in high school and can wear all of my old jeans again but I can’t help but to feel..... Ugly & fat.

only 29 to go!

I havent blogged because I have been both sick and busy. I lost more weight but it was because I was sick. I havent worked out in a good while and really need to but there just isnt enough time and I am so tired of being sick all the time. Well even though I didnt lose the weight on purpose it did bring me closer to my goal. I have 79 days left and 29lbs to go. I dont know what to do with those numbers other than to take them in and hope that I have the strength and faith to do what I need to do to get as close as possible to losing those last 29lbs. I have decided that if I dont reach my goal I will not look at it as me failing I will look at it as progress and extend the date a little to give myself more time. I figure 79 days = about 10-11 weeks and I can lose 2-3lbs a week and that should work out very nicely. I just have to do some light work outs and really watch what I am eating. We will see but I am getting pretty excited.

not enthused at all!

I had a very short weekend. Highlight of the weekend, spending time with my baby and my hubby and getting my new digital camera! Lowlight of the weekend, baby going through terrible twos and had a slight hangover from 1 small peach flavored margarita. Monday- SUCKS, I have so much work to do and not enough time and the customers are driving me crazy. I am sore and dont know why I think its because I moved the couch yesterday. I wanted to work out today but I wont be able to because my hubby is working late. I will do a few minutes on the machine at home. Hopefully I can do it tomorrow. I want to stick to my goal so badly but it is so hard to keep up with working out when you live a busy life. I dont know how some people do it. I feel like it is almost impossible. On a better note I have cut back on how much I eat and what I eat. Not dieting cause like I have said before dieting is not for me. I have a party I am throwing next month and I want to look my absolute best for it. I have to lose at least 10 more pounds by next weekend. Dont know how I am going to accomplish this but I know I am so determined that it will push aside how lazy and tired I feel. I HAVE to make time to work out. 4th of July is almost here so I want to look good for that too. I will write more tomorrow, hopefully it will be a better day.

what happened?!?!?!

So I didnt work out yesterday. Yep Instead I went to Chilis and ate a monteray chicken. IT WAS GOOD! I felt really bad but today I worked out for about an hour so Hopefully that makes up for yesterday. I am going to do another 30min when I get home. Just wanted to let it out.

2nd one today

I know I just blogged but I just did my measurements, they are as follows....

Neck- 0 lost

Bicep- 1 lost

Arm- 0 lost

Chest- 2 lost

Waist- 1 gained

Hips- 1 lost

Thigh- 1.5 gained

Calf- 1 lost

I guess for not working out for 1 month I knew I would gain inches here and there but it sucks when you have to see it as numbers. Oh well hopefully I am just bloated. I will measure and weigh in again next friday and maybe I would have lost more all over *crossing fingers*

IM BACK!!!

Well I had a lot going on these past few weeks. I am still stuck at 185 which I guess is good because even though I didnt lose weight I didnt gain it either. I have tried to keep up with working out but like I said too much was going on for me to make it to the gym or get on my cross country skier. I am going to the pool today so lets hope its the start of a beautiful work out routine. I have written out a calendar to work out everyday. I am doing 1hr work outs in the pool and 30 min the day after of abs and running. I have a new goal. I have to lose 3-5 pounds every week from now until July 10th. My baby is turning 2 and we are having a luau so I have to look decent for pics, I dont want to look like I ate another person. LOL. Well guess thats all for now. I will write more tomorrow.