so ashamed that i couldn't post anymore ..

i'm not proud of myself, i've been hidding, avoiding extrapounds ..
for the only reason that i put on weight, i was feeling guilty and i started again comfort eating, i have to stop right now, go back to my diet, stop feeling bad and stop eating sweets and unhealthy food, i'm not feeling good at all, i'm so angry with myself!!
i feel fat again, so now from today, i show my weight on my weight graph, i do excecises everayday, stop feeling sorry for myself, and i stop wasting myself !!!! who's with me?!!!!

Marre de la bouffe !

voilà, j'en ai ras le bol, tellement que j'écris en français, j'ai envie de crier :

MARRE DE LA BOUFFE !


j'avais fait tellement bien jusque là, voilà qu'en une semaine, j'ai relaché mon attention, je me suis découragée durant un plateau et au lieu de perseverer j'ai craqué, du chocolat en veux tu en voilà, des bonbons, que des cochoneries!
je multiplie les crises de boulimie, je me suis détraquée le corps encore une fois, je suis désemparée face à moi même et le mal que je ne cesse de me faire.. çà me rends très triste de ne pas pouvoir me contrôler..

BOULIMIA : Can't fight the old me ..

i've been suffering from boulimia for years now.. This year i fought all this s**t was over, but i have to admit it i've been making myself sick after eating too much for a week now. Twice a day. I can't help it, i don't feel strong enough, and the worse is it doesn't help me loosing weight, the contrary is happening..
i would like to now if anyone is the same, or was.. and what did you do to stop.. really need your help guys..

SLIM SHOT PILLS

Does anyone know the slim shot pills ?
i'd like to know what you think..


i would like to know if they work or if it's only in my mind ...
as i'm stuck with my weight loss, i'm giving them a go, after two days i started loosing weight again!!!
and i feel full of energy!

WHAT CAN I DO ??? !!

i haven't changed anything in my diet, and i got quite used to it.
I know i've reduced my daily excercising, but i'm tired because of work, really stressed by my new responsabilities ( got promoted) and i lack of sleep..

my weight loss has really slowed down, and i find it more and more hard. I wanted to surprise my familly, meeting them in two week as thin as ever, but it won't be, i'm struggling to loose a pound..

this is what my diet is like :

no added sugar or salt
no alcohol, or fizzy drinks
no pasta, rice (except brown) or potatoes
no ready meals, or fast food
no milk or cheese
no sauce, or condiment
no red meet
no sweets, chocolate, biscuits or cake


it would be unhealthy to add something else on that list.. so i don't know if i'm being too unpatient or
DOES ANYBODY KNOWS WHAT TO DO ????????

Implanon and consequences..

I had my implanon taken off about 3 weeks ago, i couldn't bear it anymore.

That's the main reason why i put on so much weight this year .. It stoped my period.. and last sunday i had it back for the first time in 6 months, it hurts like hell ! lol

so i didn't do any sport in a week, and even if i kept dieting, my weight wouldn't stop going up, as a consequence, i gave up let myself go to my craving for forbidden food, i did have chocolate cookies, lot's of bread, and was eating between the meals, don't know why, couldn't resist..

But after a week, i'm happy to say it's all back to normal and i'm ready to start again. Hope the results will follow soon ..

( almost going in that nice dress i bought but never wore !! yeepee!!)

Where i'm coming from ..

15th of july i was 83.3kilos, with a BMI of 31 : I was OBESE .

I decided to change, and it's been really hard to do more activity, and eat only healthy food, but i did it.

A new life has begun, and i'm ready to stay like this all my life!

Today, i'm 74.4 kilos, my BMI has gone down to 27.7 .

In a week it will be two months i've started, i'm not reaching my weekly goals, but i'm still happy, i'm not too far from them.

i have to say, this blog is the reason why i didn't give up.

Keep going !

It's hard not to give up.. i know i'm doing the right thing, but it's like a kind of dark force inside me was trying to undo all what i'm doing..

i'm feeling attractive again, but i just want to hide, i don't like the look of people upon me ..

i begin to wonder what's wrong, what's right ..

the supper killer

Everyone knows, we're supposed to eat light on evenings. But how are we supposed to do so when we have guests???

this morning i had the good surprise to be down 76.4kilos, but tonight i had quite an heavy meal.. Leeks and creme fraiche sauce, and white fish.. and for pudding a big peace off scone with creme faiche again (!)  and chestnut cream which is full of sugar .. boooohooo.. and on top blackberries and raspberries..

I've decided to go to work with my bike to burn all that tommorow, (i'm working 6miles away) but will i have the courage in the morning?

high and down

this morning i had a bad surprise, i put on weight, i know i shuldn't expect to loose some every single day, but i'm still disapointed.

the consequence to that is, i've eaten twice as much as i shuld today.. i think my salt intake is way up..

i don't know what to do. i already fear tommorow, and see i've put on more weight because i just let myself go.. it's so hard..

the positive point is instead of rushing myself to chocolate or sweets, i bought chiken and carrot soup. it's cant be that bad. and at 6pm i bought a chicken and mayonnaise sandwich.. but i take it as my dinner..

i'm loosing my motivation ..