02/06/2011 16:04
Its better late than never : )
Hi everyone,
Well, its been a very crazy year, with my weight loss. Not going to get into the details of my life, because in the end everyone has something or another that they have going on. Yet we blame it on that because of our weight gain!!! That would be me. Not proud of it but it had to be said. Yes, my life is a part of why I"m like this, but I can't always use that as an excuse. Which I have done so, but NO MORE!!! If I wanted to lose this weight, I should have been able to do it, but because of what's happening in my life ( which was alot) I played the blaming game!!!
I'm not sure if I should be happy or disgusted at the fact that I actually weight the same as I did last year. Just checked it out this morning!! I know its just a number and it should be how I feel. I FEEL LIKE CRAP!!! not looking for sympathy I'm just saying that literally. I have been put on high blood pressure meds about 6months ago. Did I do anything about it? NO!!
I am upset, like anyone else at what I've done with my body. I think I've actually hit rock bottom. I have to start ALL OVER AGAIN!!!! but I'm worth it and I will succeed. I need to be accountable and have to be focused on my goal. Yes!!! damn it!!! If I can put others before me, WHY CAN"T I BE FIRST?????
So everyone who might read this, I will need support but in order for me to do this. I have to be here in return!!! I have made it my life style change to go forward and take it one day at a time.
So if you're with me, lets march ahead.
I'm ready are you?
take care
M.